Well...got my BFN today. But there's an issue - and it's not with DH or me. The doctor called personally and spent 20 minutes on the phone with both of us. It seems that the batch of eggs we got was not good at all - the best embryo we got had only 5 cells, and the egg bank "guarantees" that you'll get at least one with 6 cells. Out of the 6 eggs, one was "dark," one had a very hard shell, 3 had very soft shells ("not ideal," she said), and the last one, while it fertilized, was...I forgot the word, but it had too much genetic information (multinucleic?), which was not an issue with the sperm since we had ICSI done. So she and all the other doctors - and the embryologists - feel that it was completely an egg issue and even the day of the transfer, they were in touch with the egg bank. The guarantee with the bank is that if you don't get one embryo with at least 6 cells, you get to choose another donor at no charge. She feels that our case won't even get to the medical board at the egg bank, that they should approve it immediately. And apparently they are already fighting our insurance co. to approve another round, as it had nothing to do with either DH or me. She even said, and I quote, "This should have worked." She and the other doctors have already pledged to boycott this egg bank if they don't make good on it as well, she said.
I feel bad for the donor. Because of this, she'll be dropped as a donor and blocked from being chosen by current recipients. And she's only 24 years old; if her eggs are bad now, she may end up in our shoes someday.
But there's still hope...I still feel like I lost 3 babies, though. I was trying so hard to feed them right, not jostle or squish them, and DH and I were both massaging them and talking to them already
(I know, weird). And I can't help but think, SEVEN WEEKS. It took SEVEN weeks and nothing came from it. I did it once...I can do it again.
