angela3676
Working it out . . .
- Joined
- Apr 24, 2007
If this wasn't an anonymous message board there is no way I would be saying this but here goes.
It is possible she realizes much less then you think. I'm going to use myself and my DH as examples. We don't have friends besides each other. To be honest I don't even know how to really make friends. I know that sounds weird from someone in her 20's but its true. I have had "friends" as in the people I talk to at school and play with at recess but never really the kind you play with after school and just randomly do things together. I managed a few times during school to do things with other students but I can literally name all the times I have done something out of school with others they are so few. Now at work I have coworkers that I talk to about non-work things from time to time but never go out after work or anything. I have no idea how people get started doing those things. My husband in contrast just has no interest in friends. He has been asked by people at his work from time to time to do things but always says no, not because he doesn't like them but he generally wants to do something else and just doesn't think anything of declining.
Some things are extremely stressful for me. Office parties... I have no idea what is appropriate to wear and stress over that, the informal more pot luck kind or when we go out to a restaurant as a group I have to watch everyone else to figure out what they are ordering or taking to know what is appropriate. So although I manage in these situations it takes work. I am constantly watching myself and what I'm doing. I can't tell you the number of times someone says hi to me in the hall way as we are walking past and by the time I process what they said (especially if I was thinking about something else) they are too far away to say hi back so that although I know I should I probably seem really rude to people.
I have no idea what time is appropriate to call or stop by someones house, actually I would probably never do that except for family that I know about when they wake up so its not such an issue but if for some reason I needed to, I have no idea.
The idea of just asking people for things, even things I need. For example when I email someone with questions for a work project that they are responsible for and they don't get back to me it is incredibly stressful for me to go and ask them for them again. I know I need to do this but I have such a hard time doing so. Lately in the group I'm in now that this happens in alot others I'm working with have started doing some of this for me because they realize I tend not to. I feel bad and I know I need to do better but it stresses me out so much to think of doing it... especially for those people I have never actually met (since I"m new to the project).
I realize there is probably something wrong with me that makes me like this but I have no idea what that is. I never will. Why because interactions scare me so the chances of me asking someone (even a doctor) about what is wrong with my scares me to no end because what if something ISN'T wrong with me? What if I'm just stupid and rude and there really isn't anything wrong??
None of you even know me and I know I can just stop coming here or get a new user name and I'm still nervous about even posting this message. No one knows any of this about me except my husband. Not even my parents know.
After reading your post, I don't think you compare to the OP's neighbor. You seem to be very aware of your what you are able to do and not do. How you interact with people even if its not the way you might want to . The fact that you know or feel that you are not socially aware means that you are more aware or at least you care about what you are doing than the OP's neighbor.