Hey there,
First off
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I have been where you are, but it was after my second. I really desperately wanted a third baby and my hubby was on the fence. Things were tight, but not impossible and we both had/have very good jobs with great potential. It was a really hard decision based on lots of reflection and prayer. Ultimately, we waited longer than I would have liked, but did decide to try for a third. What a blessing our little sweet baby is...
Things are tighter and more wacky with three, but I LOVE it. We sacrifice and work really hard to keep our life liveable. Some of my friends question me as to how we have extra money to do Disney, but we are crazy frugal savers. We drive older cars, wear yard sale clothes, rarely eat out, do mainly FREE activities for the kids, and pinch pennies to make it work.
I too wanted my kids close in age and they are, but the third one is 3.5 years younger than child #2 and 5.5 years younger than child #1. In a perfect world, they'd all be two years apart (at least in my little mind - LOL). But, we wanted to be sure that we could make it work.
There is nothing wrong with waiting a few years...you are SO young, you have much time left. My mother and her sister are seven years apart and they are very close. Growing up my mom was like a second mother, always helping my grandmother and caring for the baby as she grew up. The talk on the phone daily, vacation together, laugh/joke all the time. They are truly SO close, so there is always the chance that children born far apart can be close. I also know people who are 18months-2 years apart from their siblings and they barely speak. You just never know...
My nephew is an only and he is with my kids all the time, they are growing up right alongside each other, so he always has kids his age to play with (get into trouble with)
. Perhaps you have family closeby that DD can grow up with?
My advice is this...talk about your feelings with you husband/partner. Be open and honest about what you want and your concerns. Then, table the talk for six months and revisit. If you are in a better place financially and you both feel ready to try for baby #2, do it. If not, update your feelings and then wait another six months and revisit the discussion. Only you know what you can handle.
I wish you peace and comfort with your decision. Some people will probably disagree with me (please no flames), but if you truly feel like you want another child someday, plan for it and do it (as long as you trust you can take care of him/her). You don't want to look around at the end of your life and regret not giving your daughter a sibling. You CAN make it work, just be prepared to work hard, save and prioritize.
All the best sweetie!!!
PS - We are actually considering having a fourth...ha ha, we shall see. Gotta really amp up the savings now