Thank you all for the kind words and prayers
Been 12 wks today since jeff left. Still not easy to deal with. I know people think I'm crazy when they see me driving down the road crying a few tears or sometimes a river. I am sure they think damn, grown man crying. Most be something wrong with him. I can't help it but this dark cloud of saddnes just comes over me several times at day. At that point I just tear up. Somedays I have to leave my office for awhile.
I was raised where men don't cry. If that is true then I am less of a man. Someday the tears may stop but I just don't know when
Everyone says things happen for a reason. But damned if I know what the reason is.
Thanks for listening and sorry for rambling