How can I distance myself even more in this situation? She will be at the family Christmas's at the parents and grandparents houses. Do I just avoid going there? Send dh by himself? He will refuse to go if I don't go......but I don't think I can handle being around her anymore. She made her feelings pretty clear about us last night. I don't feel right by refusing and then dh staying home too and missing out with his parents.
If your husband decides not to go, that is HIS decision. Don't let him blame you if he decides not to go.