I am sorry to have been away for so long!!! But I promise some updates. I have a pretty strange schedule this week 5:30 until 2:30 two days and then 4:00 until 12:30 am with a day off in between. I am hoping to get some updates done in the mornings/afternoons. Life updates might be mixed in here but I will try to keep it all in order for you!!! I figured if anyone is really interested I would post my twitter and instagram names. I know a lot of you have found it on my most recent trip report but for anyone who is interested you can find me on both at @leasha_burns (twitter: my twitter is set to private so if you are interested you will just have to send me a request, it will say forbidden at first). Basically I come home every night and blow up IG with pictures from my day and I will randomly tweet 5 year old things from time to time about my in park excitement. They will both be updated far more than this because it's right at my finger tips. Now lets take a step back in time to The Biggest of Steps August 13, 2012: This was my last full day before I left. It also happened to be mine and Andys 4 year and 4months. I purposefully chose not to move in this day so that we could have the day together. I had some last minute things to do such as print pictures and we bought snacks for the night and went to lunch. When we got home I had to finish packing last minute items. If you recall from my pre trip report my parents had sat back and watched me try to conquer my dreams but a few nights before I was due to leave I had a complete mental and emotional break down. I felt like I was all alone and no one even cared I was leaving. NOT THE CASE!!! So my parents did the most wonderful thing they could have done, they packed up the car and told me they would see me in two days. Yep, thats right, the DROVE the 20+ hours so that I could have everything that I would need without having to freak out about fitting it all in tow suit cases. They took my two GIANT suitcases and all my stuffed animals. They took off at about 1:30 or 2:00 in the afternoon, as soon as my father pulled into the driveway from work. Ryan showed up that night, his mother drove him the 2.5 hours to my house so neither of us had to fly alone. She was so sad and I could tell it was going to be emotional for everyone involved. I stood in the driveway with them for about and hour and tried to lighten up the mood. We weighed Ryans suitcases, since I wasnt checking anything I told him to bring a third suitcase and I would just check it for him so he too could benefit from my parents driving. His mom and sister left and I thought we were doomed to be sappy sad sacks all night. Thank goodness that was not the case. We talked about how excited we were and how thankful we were to have the other to go through this with. I felt bad beucase I hadnt seen Ryan all summer since he had been working three jobs and I wanted to catch up with him but I wanted to spend time with Andy as well. We finally went to bed. This is where it really started to sink in, Andy and I took our turns being sad and teary eyed while the other tried our best to be strong. We took turns until we eventually passed out. And then it happened August 14, 2012 (all of which is typed out on my iphone. Step by step. Moment by moment) I got up at 5:35 this morning I tried to get ready a majority of the way before waking up Andy. I decided that makeup and hair were not important on this day, I just wanted to spend time with him. I frantically ran around the house trying to get last minute items together, shorts from the dryer, an extra pillow and my stuffed dog named Loser Face from Andy. We left about 5:55 an hour before the plane was due to leave. Now if you have read my previous trip reports you know I live literally a 3 minute drive from the airport so we can afford to leave last minute (usually). We got to the airport and said the hardest of all the goodbyes. It took maybe five or ten minutes because I couldnt squeeze Andy tight enough to hold me over for 3 months. We took the last Alicia and Andy picture for a while, please mind the makeupless sad face Such morning people we are just kidding. Here we go, on the biggest adventure of our life so far From there we made our way to the VERY long southwest check in line. It took SO LONG that when we finally made it through the screen beeped at me saying my luggage was late and it might miss the flight because it was suppose to be checked 30 minutes before the flight. YIKES. We BOOKED IT to the security line, we would have zoomed through it too had people not had out their boarding passes and ID, really people you just had it out two seconds ago WHY DID YOU PUT IT AWAY?! It seemed we were just getting caught up behind all the slow people this morning, while in line someone commented on my new Disney Toms. We barely made it through security, like I was literally putting my shoes on as they were calling our last call for our flight. I told Ryan dont worry because southwest was just a few steps away WRONG!!! I was thinking about JetBlue. Szdigklnwerhbejl rrgsdv. We had to run all the way down the terminal, I could not run fast enough with all my stuff. I was basically almost in tears because we were going to miss the flight. Thank god Ryan was able to run ahead and let them know I was coming. When we made it onto the plane the closed the door RIGHT behind me. If Ryan wasnt there I would have been in trouble. We made our way all the way to the back of the plane (so much for getting up at 6:55 the day before and getting an A spot!!!) There were no seats anywhere not to mention a HUGE lack of overhead space. GREAT, more things to freak out over . I was in a panic, I walked with Ryan praying that we could find a seat together honestly it wasnt looking good. They made him stay in the back and ushered me up to the front. On my way back to the front they place all my things in different overhead bins sporadically where there was room. I must have looked like a child with my Mickey hoodie and mickey shoes. The stuck me in the very front row in between two very big men. I have never felt so small in my life. They came around as I was trying to force my pillow under the seat. The flight attendant told me I couldnt leave it there and she would have to put it someplace else, she asked if I needed anything from it and without responding I snatched Loser Face (my puppy) from it as she took the pillow away. It was then that I realized I had left my headphones in one of my carry ons, that means that I would be without my calming Disney music for the first leg of our trip. On take off, which happened about 30 seconds after I sat down, I was overcome by a tidal was of emotions (mostly sadness). I could feel the tears swelling up in my eyes and that terrible lump forming in my throat. I tried to hold it in and tell myself that everything was going to be fine and that I had so many people rooting for me. After all this was what I had been waiting for since high school. It was just coming at me so fast and all at once. I remember when I got accepted and how excited I was, back when it was 200 days away. But this was really it this time, all the planning and packing and everything that I have worked for culminating in this one crazy moment. I felt like I was so alone without Ryan sitting near me. Buffalo was slowly disappeared into the clouds, but this time for longer than the last. There went Andy, my family, my friends and the entire world that I knew. Onto something knew with everyone to back me up. The first few minutes or maybe even hours I felt like a child sitting in between two grown men clutching my stuffed dog and my Disney shoes. Its strange how you can feel so conflicted, so excited to start a new chapter in life and so terrified to leave the old behind. Im trying to hang in there. I know this will be an amazing experience for me but getting there is half the battle As I was sitting there debating sleep and choking back some tears my phone lit up Here we go, I was getting a little more excited I decided to make a new countdown to help ease my separation anxieties Just about 50 days until Andys visit. I can make it that far. I CAN do this. If everyone else can believe in my its about time I start believing whole-heartedly believe in myself. The flight attendants were very nice. I think they could sense that I was scared and nervous, they just kept offering more drinks and snacks. I got some vanilla wafers and peanuts, the kind that Andy always hopes for on the flight but rarely gets. Oh great here comes that overwhelming feeling of missing again, peanuts? Andy likes peanuts, excuse me while I cry.. I feel like I am constantly going to be reminded of Andy and I am going to have to get use to it. I guess when you are with someone constantly for four years that is bound to happen. I hate that I am going to have to suppress all these feelings that are just too hard to come to grips with. It was at this moment that I gave credit to everyone in the era before technology, the ones who where away from loved ones for extended periods of time with no means of communicating. Completely random thought, but it made me think back to Little Women, when the girls would receive a telegram from their father and how completely overjoyed they were because it was such a treat. I suppose in that respect I should be happy that I am having this adventure when I am, everyone is just a phone call away, facebook and skype will also help me through. I can make it through this. I must have looked so funny to anyone walking by. This 22 year old girl clutching onto a stuffed dog trying to balance cookies and a drink on my lap. I tried to eat as slowly as I possible to pass the time without my music because I knew I was in for a long flight. Im sure I could have gotten up to get it but I didnt want to get in trouble for walking around. I looked at the sky mall magazine, again as slowly as possible; it only took about 20 minutes. From there I curled up into an awkward ball and took a nap. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be with strangers on either side of me. Usually Andy and I just prop up against one another. Never the less I was able to sleep for about 45 minutes. I woke up and there was only 25 minutes until we landed I CAN DO THIS!!!! Tune In Next!!!