So my wish friends, I have been so absent and I really need you.
I was within 10 pounds of goal when last I visited. I am now back up to 153! I never thought I'd see 145 again, much less 150! I am so angry with myself but also forgiving myself, too. I went to LV in mid July a svelt 138. I wore my "Harry Potter" dress, a tiny skin tight tube style shimmerung silver/black thing, with my black leather thigh high boots. Man I looked great if I do say so myself. We had a fantastic time. I only gained 2 pounds while I was there and thought I would lose it all as water.
Then it happened. My DH got his job performance review. (I must begin by saying that his previous review wasn't exactly glowing, but his boss was largely absent and despite his co-workers, input, didn't feel DH had performed above bar. At that moment, I began planning our exit strategy, should this turn into a trend.) We couldn't wait to get home as DH had nothing but glowing reviews from co-workers and clients, and had even been recognised by upper management for outstanding work. We were also healing from a family loss. (We had to get rid of our beautiful doggy, as he began biting people.
) But upon our return we were to pick up a brand new puppy to help with the pain. Life looked good.
When DH came home form work on Monday after our trip, his first words were "Are you ready to move?" His boss gave him an average performance review and a 1.2% raise! Talk about a kick in the gut! He decided to call him on it and after asking what he based his review on, his boss told him he was overpaid, and was nothing special and anyone else could do his job. When pressed about the raise, his boss tolld him "I did that because I can."
Where do you go with that? He took his review to a few of the upper management who had previously been singing his praises, and was told they would try to do something about it. Weeks went by and nothing. DH asked about it and was told he would be reassessed in 3 months, after he had been given a "list of objectives" from his boss. Talk about a slap in the face!
Needless to say, we have been financially strapped, as gas, food, and housing costs continue to skyrocket, and our income has effectively been cut by about 10% when you figure in the increased costs, and decreased coverage of benefits, and the like.
So, DH started looking for a job, and within 3 weeks had an offer for almost 40% more than he is currently making. (Overpaid?!?!)
He has accepted the offer, but it means moving to the West Coast. (You all know I was hoping for the East Coast, but can't have everything) So now even more stress, as they paid him an incentive to start right away, so he leaves next Monday! That leaves me with selling the house and getting ready to move, while he lives in a hotel out there until we either sell or give the house away. Housing out there is about 2.5 times what it is here and it only goes up, while housing prices here are declining, so we really can't afford to "Wait for our price." Even with the nice salary increase, we will be making more of a lateral move, financially, but his job is a more senior position, which is great and there are many more jobs out there in his field then there are here, so it is a good move.
Anyway, I have been eating all the wrong foods. Lots of comfort foods, and lots of cocktails. I'm hoping that when DH leaves, I will be able to carve out some time to get back to the gym and have a bit more control over what is brought into the house. My clothes are tighter, and I just don't look good. I look tired and worried and angry, all of which are true. I am worried about him, as he has gained too and his diabetes is not being controlled very well. His doc says it is all stress and once the transition is complete, he will be seeing much better numbers, but it could get worse before it gets better.
I will be stopping in for lots of support, as I will probably not sleep much or be very cheerful. I may or may not resume my health eating habits, but I know I am much more likely to do so with your support, so please be patient with me.
Sorry so long, but I needed to let you all know why I have not been around, and hope you have some pixie dust for us.
Still Keeping the Faith!
Tracy
I was within 10 pounds of goal when last I visited. I am now back up to 153! I never thought I'd see 145 again, much less 150! I am so angry with myself but also forgiving myself, too. I went to LV in mid July a svelt 138. I wore my "Harry Potter" dress, a tiny skin tight tube style shimmerung silver/black thing, with my black leather thigh high boots. Man I looked great if I do say so myself. We had a fantastic time. I only gained 2 pounds while I was there and thought I would lose it all as water.
Then it happened. My DH got his job performance review. (I must begin by saying that his previous review wasn't exactly glowing, but his boss was largely absent and despite his co-workers, input, didn't feel DH had performed above bar. At that moment, I began planning our exit strategy, should this turn into a trend.) We couldn't wait to get home as DH had nothing but glowing reviews from co-workers and clients, and had even been recognised by upper management for outstanding work. We were also healing from a family loss. (We had to get rid of our beautiful doggy, as he began biting people.
) But upon our return we were to pick up a brand new puppy to help with the pain. Life looked good.When DH came home form work on Monday after our trip, his first words were "Are you ready to move?" His boss gave him an average performance review and a 1.2% raise! Talk about a kick in the gut! He decided to call him on it and after asking what he based his review on, his boss told him he was overpaid, and was nothing special and anyone else could do his job. When pressed about the raise, his boss tolld him "I did that because I can."
Where do you go with that? He took his review to a few of the upper management who had previously been singing his praises, and was told they would try to do something about it. Weeks went by and nothing. DH asked about it and was told he would be reassessed in 3 months, after he had been given a "list of objectives" from his boss. Talk about a slap in the face!
Needless to say, we have been financially strapped, as gas, food, and housing costs continue to skyrocket, and our income has effectively been cut by about 10% when you figure in the increased costs, and decreased coverage of benefits, and the like.
So, DH started looking for a job, and within 3 weeks had an offer for almost 40% more than he is currently making. (Overpaid?!?!)
He has accepted the offer, but it means moving to the West Coast. (You all know I was hoping for the East Coast, but can't have everything) So now even more stress, as they paid him an incentive to start right away, so he leaves next Monday! That leaves me with selling the house and getting ready to move, while he lives in a hotel out there until we either sell or give the house away. Housing out there is about 2.5 times what it is here and it only goes up, while housing prices here are declining, so we really can't afford to "Wait for our price." Even with the nice salary increase, we will be making more of a lateral move, financially, but his job is a more senior position, which is great and there are many more jobs out there in his field then there are here, so it is a good move.
Anyway, I have been eating all the wrong foods. Lots of comfort foods, and lots of cocktails. I'm hoping that when DH leaves, I will be able to carve out some time to get back to the gym and have a bit more control over what is brought into the house. My clothes are tighter, and I just don't look good. I look tired and worried and angry, all of which are true. I am worried about him, as he has gained too and his diabetes is not being controlled very well. His doc says it is all stress and once the transition is complete, he will be seeing much better numbers, but it could get worse before it gets better.
I will be stopping in for lots of support, as I will probably not sleep much or be very cheerful. I may or may not resume my health eating habits, but I know I am much more likely to do so with your support, so please be patient with me.
Sorry so long, but I needed to let you all know why I have not been around, and hope you have some pixie dust for us.
Still Keeping the Faith!
Tracy
Tracy. In your own words, keep the faith ... it will all be OK. Now, about that unhealthy eating ... I'm right there with ya my friend. It's not that I'm doing really bad things, it's just that I'm not doing all the really good things I'd done in the past 
So, let's begin with a couple of baby steps, 'cause after all, you ARE under a great deal of stress, and you don't want to get yourself in way too deep. How's this for a starting plan:
are all for you! There are a lot of people making their way back to WISH these days. Welcome to the crowd! 
I came back at the end of Sept after my trip to LV!
But Mary-Liz is right - Baby steps! Take it one day at a time. Start making the small changes to get yourself back to healthy living. Drink more water, get rid of the unhealthy foods, exercise more.......you know the drill!
Same with the gym. When we have time together, which is rare and getting rarer still, we cocoon, and that is a large part of my problem. With him in LA, I will be putting my energy back into the elliptical, my best weight loss friend.
Yikes! Not my style, but to each his own.
