Gala
Earning My Ears
- Joined
- May 2, 2011
Now i feel awful for posting about how im feeling right now, because there is far more unfair things happening to people everywhere who are dealing with pain far worse than i could ever imagine and i realize how stupid this post may be, but ive lost alot of hope to feel better and i know my family has had enough. I was engaged to a guy and i was planning my whole life with him...i wanted everything...he was my best friend. though things didnt seem right in our relationship....a day before he left for louisiana i asked him if we were working out...ready to hear the worst i was ready to pack my things.........but he left me with hope...he told me he wanted me to move away with him to louisiana as thats were his new job was...he said if i could prove to him i could hanndle his absence for two weeks then he would be more than happy to keep on going with our relationship...so he left and i felt good about us, i didnt talk to him much while he was away but when it came close to him coming home, we talked a little, he made me feel uneasy about where we stood in our relationship so i asked him if he thought we would work out...(like i had before he left....) and he said no....an wanted to call it quits....here i was happy as i could be looking forward to moving with him and he pulled the rug out from under me just like that changed his mind...it just hurts so much and for three weeks now my head wont rest...i cant get any peace and tonight was one of the worst nights ive had, and made me feel severly mentaly unstable...i feel as though i dont want to be around anymore...i just want some peace from this horrible heartbreak and i cant get it. id talk to my family but its just no good anymore, i dont know who to turn to its gotten so bad...ive lost any intrest in anything, all i can focus on is how much i wish it would go away i tried asking him for his help but obviously he didnt respond....i dont know why im surprised. i just feel like im getting lower an lower into this depression and i would really appreciate some words of advice or compasion..(again like i said i feel a little horrible for asking this when theres so many more people who need kind words more than i do..but i feel like ive got no where else to go )