Training Talk: DLH Week 10, W&D Week -1ish, Dopey Week 1
Weekly guide to my training!
Get ready for the least informative training week post ever.
The Countdown: 63 Days until
Disneyland; 127 Days until Wine & Dine; 188 Days until Dopey
This Week's Training Plan:
While I'm technically training and prepping to train for both the Disneyland Half and the Wine & Dine Half, the ultimate goal is Dopey. Each week, I will post my scheduled training as dictated by a hybrid Dopey Training schedule I've created combining elements of Hal Higdon's Dopey Training and Jeff Galloway's Dopey Plan.
Monday: Rest
Tuesday: Rest
Wednesday: Rest
Thursday: Rest
Friday: Rest
Saturday: Rest
Sunday: Rest
Notes: Being hurt sucks.
What's New?
I'm going to skip a lot of the things I normally do in this journal, mostly because I need to just vent and tackle something I haven't really dealt with so far in this journey.
What's new this week is that I'm depressed. Even more than that, I'm just downright sad.
Since I got hurt on Saturday, I've tried to put on a brave face and make some jokes and act like this is no big deal. But every day, I've cried. I'm in pain, I'm borderline immobile and I'm just ... sad. I've put in so much work already, I've been trying so hard and I feel like it just doesn't matter anymore. Right now, I can't really do much. My day is structured that when I go downstairs, I'm downstairs for the day. When I go upstairs to our master level, that's it. I'm up there. It hurts that much to go up and down the stairs.
Then there comes the pain at night with drying wounds and sleeping. It's miserable. I'm barely sleeping. And then? Then I get to get up and clean these gross wounds. Ugh. Nurses and other healthcare workers have my utmost respect, because this is just nasty.
Three weeks ago, during the Jalapeno Half, I actually had a mental breakdown where I thought I wouldn't be able to do Dopey. Like, I was just being dumb and thinking that because I try hard enough means I can do it, but in reality I couldn't. I was running that day and was able to use that to fuel me to a significant PR.
Now? I have nightmares about Dopey. I'm almost certain I can't do it. I'm fairly certain I made a terrible decision and let my hubris take control and now I'm in a position that I'm just going to let people down.
I've never been fatalistic like this before in my life. I'm normally a very positive, optimistic person. But the space I'm in right now just feels weird. I can't do anything, and certainly I can't be active.
So. I'm just ... sad. I'm very sad.
This Week's Motivation/Inspiration:
I don't really have anything to share. Do you have something that currently motivates or inspires you?