I am struggling too. We got back three weeks ago and I am supposed to be writing a trip report but this is the first time I have been able to bear coming back on here so I am only just starting to think I might be able to face it.
What's making it worse is we are supposed to be going next summer (see ticker below) but we have faced up to the fact that we just have to have some work done around the house (believe me - we have put it off long enough because of all the WDW trips!!) and so are going to defer our holiday until summer 2014.
I was talking to my husband tonight and trying to intellectually work out why I feel so bad. On the face of it this is ridiculous! I have a nice life with lots of lovely family and friends, Christmas is coming up and I am hoping to start an exciting new job next year - lots to live in the moment for.
It's not even that I miss being on Splash Mountain or Spaceship Earth etc and can't wait for that for an extra year. Rather, in a nutshell, it all comes down to the feeling I get when I'm there. I get this happiness/life is perfect/inner peace thing that I don't get anywhere else ever. And that's it. That's what makes me so sad to not go next year - just that feeling.
Just before we went last month, someone told me I was really lucky. I agreed and then said that I didn't just feel lucky to be going to WDW in the coming week but that I felt lucky to have found somewhere that fills me with such happiness every time I'm there (not to mention all the anticipation as the trip approaches) as many people never have anywhere they love that much and they will just never know what they are missing. And the penance for that happiness is feeling just like I feel now when I'm not there.