inkedupmomma
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Well of course the answer is, I'm going to Disney World!!
Some of you may know me, some of you may not. My name is Jenn, but I go by inkedupmomma. What is an inkedupmomma you ask? She is me, who is full of tattoos aka ink
BUT, you don't care about that, do you? You want to know what the heck my PTR title means! At least I hope you do, cause that was my goal!
OK, so for those of you that know me, you know the story, for those of you who don't, buckle your seatbelts, and break out the box of tissues!
This past January out of the blue my fiance and father of my son up and left me. To add insult to injury, he cheated on me, with my friend
We were together for almost 7 years, and had complete life. We had gone to WDW in September 2009, and he proposed in Epcot. Why did he do that you ask?? NO CLUE! After he left I fell apart for well over a month. I stopped eating, started heavily smoking, and just was a zombie pretty much. I honestly do not recall much from that time, which is probably best. Thank God for friends, family and awesome Disers! Ok, and sleeping pills lol! The worse part was trying to be a good mom through all of that. I can not say I was. They saw me through the worse thing they could have ever seen. I did get help and start seeing a therapist, and tried to work things out with John. He refused. Said he never loved me, never wanted a family, he just thought he did. I begged for a month for him to come back. Finally I gave up and tried to get myself back together for my kids. Slowly but surely I got a little bit better. In case you are wondering, the kids were devastated, but did so well. It is amazing how kids can bounce back from such a tragedy. They were my rocks and little angels!
So that is the story of how my life fell apart. I won't lie, it made me sad to type that all out. It sucked, and I can't believe it really happened.
BUT
My life came back together! As I said, I went to therapy and slowly but surely got a little better each day. Well, maybe not better, but I at least started eating a nibble here and there! Eventually February rolled around, and that is my birthday month. Oh, and yes, Valentines day blew. My BFF from highschool [who I have always had a crush on, and flirted with] came up to visit me on my birthday. So many people wanted me to go out, and they just couldn't understand that I didn't want to go out. What I did want was my BFF and a bottle of booze!
I knew he wouldn't pressure me to go out, and he wouldn't be mad that i wasn't all smiles and happy! He would listen if thats what I needed, he would cry with me if that is what I needed, or he would act like a nut job if that is what I needed! He came to my house and I was misery central! Finally he said, you HAVE to eat. I'm taking you out for dinner! Next thing I know, he says we are going to the melting pot ( it is seriously my fav over priced cook your own food place!) It was such a nice night, and I finally felt like myself for the first time in a LONG time. I ate, I had yummy ice creamy martinis, I laughed! All thing I hadn't done in lord knows how long! The rest of the night was also a blast. We played the new Super Mario brothers, drank,played board games,drank watched a horror flick,drank and then we went to bed, and he just held me so tight like nothing I have ever felt before.
It was the best birthday I have ever had! The next morning I woke up to him gently playing with my hair, and THAT is when I did the unthinkable. I looked up at his beautiful face and gave him the kiss I have wanted to give him for 13 years! None of you know me in real life, but if you did, you would know I am the most shy, prude girl..although I don't act that way lol So for ME to kiss HIM, well wow, it took every piece of guts I ever had or will have! [pray that I never need guts again!] Afterwards, he said, I was wondering when you were gonna do that!
I instantly turned red, and could not believe what i had just done..more importantly I couldn't believe he kissed me back and said those words! We always flirted, but he is/was kinda flirty by nature with me. Now I know why. I NEVER in a million years would have thought a guy like him would go for me. I happen to think he is the sexiest thing known to man, and I happen to not have good self esteem..so yeah, never thought I had a chance. But Sometimes, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale!!
I swear to you, all of this, the good, the bad, the ugly is true.
So, that is the explanation of my title! Hope it lived up to your expectations! I am sure you are wondering where WDW fits into all of this! Well, sadly I have a headache, so that will have to wait until later, along with the who, when, what, and where!
I have some house stuff to do, and gonna pop some alieve, hopefully I'll be back on later with another update!
INTROS!! (Hey look at snazzy me, thanks Ronmel for showing me how to make links!!!)
Some of you may know me, some of you may not. My name is Jenn, but I go by inkedupmomma. What is an inkedupmomma you ask? She is me, who is full of tattoos aka ink
BUT, you don't care about that, do you? You want to know what the heck my PTR title means! At least I hope you do, cause that was my goal!
OK, so for those of you that know me, you know the story, for those of you who don't, buckle your seatbelts, and break out the box of tissues!
This past January out of the blue my fiance and father of my son up and left me. To add insult to injury, he cheated on me, with my friend
We were together for almost 7 years, and had complete life. We had gone to WDW in September 2009, and he proposed in Epcot. Why did he do that you ask?? NO CLUE! After he left I fell apart for well over a month. I stopped eating, started heavily smoking, and just was a zombie pretty much. I honestly do not recall much from that time, which is probably best. Thank God for friends, family and awesome Disers! Ok, and sleeping pills lol! The worse part was trying to be a good mom through all of that. I can not say I was. They saw me through the worse thing they could have ever seen. I did get help and start seeing a therapist, and tried to work things out with John. He refused. Said he never loved me, never wanted a family, he just thought he did. I begged for a month for him to come back. Finally I gave up and tried to get myself back together for my kids. Slowly but surely I got a little bit better. In case you are wondering, the kids were devastated, but did so well. It is amazing how kids can bounce back from such a tragedy. They were my rocks and little angels!So that is the story of how my life fell apart. I won't lie, it made me sad to type that all out. It sucked, and I can't believe it really happened.
BUT
My life came back together! As I said, I went to therapy and slowly but surely got a little better each day. Well, maybe not better, but I at least started eating a nibble here and there! Eventually February rolled around, and that is my birthday month. Oh, and yes, Valentines day blew. My BFF from highschool [who I have always had a crush on, and flirted with] came up to visit me on my birthday. So many people wanted me to go out, and they just couldn't understand that I didn't want to go out. What I did want was my BFF and a bottle of booze!
I knew he wouldn't pressure me to go out, and he wouldn't be mad that i wasn't all smiles and happy! He would listen if thats what I needed, he would cry with me if that is what I needed, or he would act like a nut job if that is what I needed! He came to my house and I was misery central! Finally he said, you HAVE to eat. I'm taking you out for dinner! Next thing I know, he says we are going to the melting pot ( it is seriously my fav over priced cook your own food place!) It was such a nice night, and I finally felt like myself for the first time in a LONG time. I ate, I had yummy ice creamy martinis, I laughed! All thing I hadn't done in lord knows how long! The rest of the night was also a blast. We played the new Super Mario brothers, drank,played board games,drank watched a horror flick,drank and then we went to bed, and he just held me so tight like nothing I have ever felt before.
It was the best birthday I have ever had! The next morning I woke up to him gently playing with my hair, and THAT is when I did the unthinkable. I looked up at his beautiful face and gave him the kiss I have wanted to give him for 13 years! None of you know me in real life, but if you did, you would know I am the most shy, prude girl..although I don't act that way lol So for ME to kiss HIM, well wow, it took every piece of guts I ever had or will have! [pray that I never need guts again!] Afterwards, he said, I was wondering when you were gonna do that!
I instantly turned red, and could not believe what i had just done..more importantly I couldn't believe he kissed me back and said those words! We always flirted, but he is/was kinda flirty by nature with me. Now I know why. I NEVER in a million years would have thought a guy like him would go for me. I happen to think he is the sexiest thing known to man, and I happen to not have good self esteem..so yeah, never thought I had a chance. But Sometimes, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale!!I swear to you, all of this, the good, the bad, the ugly is true.
So, that is the explanation of my title! Hope it lived up to your expectations! I am sure you are wondering where WDW fits into all of this! Well, sadly I have a headache, so that will have to wait until later, along with the who, when, what, and where!
I have some house stuff to do, and gonna pop some alieve, hopefully I'll be back on later with another update!
INTROS!! (Hey look at snazzy me, thanks Ronmel for showing me how to make links!!!)
You two are FUNNY!!!!
) So yeah, I loved him, but was never in love with him fully. At least not the way I had always wanted to feel in love. We just weren't right for each other, and when you know, you know! The whole year before I had wanted to split up, and we did have bad fights and leave for a day twice, but I always begged for him to come back. After all, being with someone is better than being a lone, right?? NO, NO, NO, the answer is NO!! It took me a long time, and him dumping me flat on my butt to realize this! I feel like an idiot when I look back, and I am sad for the old me. But hey, time heals all wounds!
This more than anything broke the kids and I hearts!
Speaking of pictures, again, this is me..minus my glasses which you will rarely see me without!
It is marvelous! I have NEVER been happier or felt more relaxed. It is such an amazing feeling, a feeling that I hope everyone gets to feel at least once in their lives! Even the people I don't like lol!
