Hon, please understand that perspective is EVERYTHING. Those that are able to frame your experience in relation to
their own desires to have a similar opportunity are obviously all about the

and

; perhaps vicariously wishing to share in your potential success. Those that frame your experience in relation to how they would be feeling if one of
their children did what you are doing are

. Very few of us would be able to honestly say that the risks/rewards are balanced enough to tolerate watching our kids go through it.
Either way, the beauty of being fully accountable is also having complete freedom and that's YOU! Nothing anybody on this board says (either for or against) can change your ability to make your own decisions. And whether we like it or not, I'm sure everybody here ultimately wishes you well.
P.S. This is a message board; not a blog platform. Anything you post here will evoke comments and as people become more invested in your story, the closer they will scrutinize the details - not because they're trying to find something to call you out on, more because they want to understand. Don't be offended when requests for clarity are made when things don't seem to be jibing - people want to be sure they're not missing or misunderstanding anything. That's why there's been so much discussion about the money - perhaps either be more clear or much more general about details like that.