Rachie0507's Wandering Thoughts--Starting Over Page 7

[Rachie0507]

(The first 7 pages are my original journal. I'm starting over after a few month absence on page 7. Thanks!!)

I joined Weight Watchers today!!! I'll be around a lot now, you might want to get used to me. I think this journal is going to keep me motivated and honest. I don't actually know you people, their is no reason to make anything up!! You'll be getting the whole truth--I hope you're ready for it. Just a warning, I love to write but I'm not claiming to be good at it just that I enjoy it!!!

Who I Am: I am a 26 year old wife and mommy. I have a 2 yr boy and 4 yr girl. I was SAHM until recently. I now run a business out of my house (day care). I love to read, scrapbook and be silly with my kids. I'm not able to relax like I used to though, hoping this will help.

My Diet History: Lots of random diets, nothing really worked until WW in 1998 when I lost 40 lbs, down to 160. Had baby #1. Joined WW again in 2001, lost 25 lbs, to 200 (it was a bad pregnancy). Had baby #2. Only gained 22 lbs, lost 15 lbs within a week after he was born. Then started to gain again. Joined WW. Quit. Joined WW. Quit. Joined the gym January 2004. Went 5-6 times a week for 5 months. Lost 30 lbs. Got lazy. Now here I am. I weighed in at 239 today (gasp). I need to do something NOW!

My Motivation: I'm too tired to play with my kids. I don't like walking too much anymore, my knees hurt. I feel a lot older than I really am. Taking kids to WDW this December, want to be able to enjoy it without painkillers and heating pads on my aching joints.

My Plan: Joined Weight Watchers. Will follow the Flex Plan. Want to work out 4-5 times a week. I will either walk around my neighborhood or start going to gym that I pay to belong to every month. Hoping that the motivation for exercise will come after the initial weight lose.

I'll be back....be prepared.

 

[Rachie0507]

I woke up this morning happy. This is going to sound absolutely crazy, but I think I am relieved that I have limits now. Before, I would eat whatever and hate myself for it. I want someone to tell me what I can and can't do. I want to be accountable for my choices. Every other time I have done this, I take that attitude that if I cheat it doesn't really matter. But it does. I'm thinking about "charging" myself for making bad choices. For example, if those Oreos in the cabinet are too tempting and I have a couple, I should have to but couple bucks into our Disney fund change cup. I had a great breakfast of fresh fruit, yogurt and OJ. For lunch, I am making pizza for my kids and daycare kids. I am planning on using 1/6 of the crust for my own pizza with fresh veggies and 1/4 c. cheese. Sounds yummy to me!!! I'm going out tonight, but think I'll be okay. It is a party at a friends house who is on WW and very successful. I don't think she would offer unhealthy choices. I'll find out....

 

[sarahsmom73]

Welcome!!!

 

[pearlieq]

Welcome and best wishes!

I like the idea of "charging" yourself for cheating. I'll have to think about doing that...

Hope you have a great weekend!

 

[Rachie0507]

I actually had a pretty good first weekend (if I were talking you would here the surprise in my voice, LOL). I wrote up my food plan for the day first thing in the morning and I just stuck to it. Whenever I was feeling a little hungry, I would refill my water bottle and start drinking. I made normal dinners (I didn't change my recipes to low fat, I just modified my portion size). Breakfast was easy too, because I don't usually eat breakfast! I had fresh fruit, cereal and homemade waffles. Lunch was very low points. Yesterday all I had was a salad with homemade oil dressing. Still very filling though. The only "off plan" thing I had was a slice of a Friendly's ice cream roll cake. My parents came over for a turkey dinner and my mom brought that. I only had 1 point left so I used 4 Flex points also. I don't think that is too bad. When WW used to do the point range, I was often at the high end. I like this new system better. I have been trying to avoid the Flex points, and so far I'm doing okay. Funny thing happened last night--I got up and wanted to snack (bad habit I have). It was about 1:30 am. I went into the kitchen and had a hand full of grapes, probably about 1/2 cup. I woke up a couple more times feeling guilty for not having counted the points. So first thing this morning I deducted 1/2 point from todays total. I never was that serious before.

I think I have a friend going to WW with me this week. I'm hoping she goes. I would think it works better with someone to support you.

When we had my parents over last night, we finalized some of the WDW trip details (they are coming with us). We'd been debating over what resort, but we decided on Port Orleans French Quarter (the one I wanted! Parents wanted Riverside, DH wanted Pop Century). I am even more excited, and motivated, now.

Today, I am pretty optimistic. Already had a bowl of cereal, with banana and milk, and a cup of orange juice for breakfast with the kids. I'm having Healthy Choice Country Veggie soup and ham and cheese sandwich for lunch and hamburger and cauliflower for dinner. Update later or tomorrow.

 

[Rachie0507]

I was just reading other people's journals--how inspiring! I love to read about people who have done well and lost weight. I was just reading about someone who went from 235 to 125. Wow. I don't think I could ever weigh 125. I think I'm "big boned" as they say. I'd be happy around 150. But I try not to focus on the pounds. I like to think in terms of what size I wear, or how fast I can walk a mile (or perhaps even run a mile someday).

I had another good day, food wise. I just had another piece of that darn Friendly's ice cream roll that my mother left here. It bugs me really; when she said she wanted to bring dessert to dinner yesterday I said she had to bring it home with her. She left it anyway. I was craving sweets tonight and DH is out for a meeting, so I decided to have a treat. I had 3 points left for the day and a used a few flex point to cover the ice cream. I think I'll try to avoid using Flex points again til after my weigh in on Thursday. I'm hoping for an impressive weight lose this week. My friend is joining WW this week. I hope we can work it out to go together every week. My DH has class on Thursday evenings, so I have to have my mom come to the house to be with the kids. And her DH has to be at work by 7. I think we can fit it in though.

I have been sleeping really well (other than guilty feelings about grapes!). And I wake up much easier in the morning. I used to wake up feeling like I'd been run over by a truck. Makes me think about what I was putting into my body before to make me feel that way. Kind of crazy.

 

[Rachie0507]

I'm in a mood today. I didn't stick to my original food plan for the day so I'm kind of mad at myself. The first problem was that I couldn't decide what I wanted to have for my meals. Then my friend brought me some leftover Kapusta (polish dish with cabbage, saurkrawt (sp?) and pork). So I was tempted and had it for lunch. First issue was I couldn't figure out the points for it. It isn't listed in the WW books. And my friends mother made it so I wasn't sure of the exact ingredients. I ending up basing it off my recipe even though I could tell it was a little different. And really it wasn't that bad except for the pork. So I sit down to eat it and I'm all excited because I really like Kapusta, and it is horrible!!! Nothing like my polish aunt makes! So I had a few bites. I tried to avoid the pork because it was really fatty. I ending up pouring 90% down the sink. So now what. I just wasted 2 points on nothing. I made myself a turkey sandwich instead. I counted 5 points for that. I used Light Wheat Bread that is 1 point for 2 slices, probably 3-4 oz of turkey, lettuce, mustard. Did I have cheese on that? I can't remember...if I did I didn't count the points.
See this is why I am following the Flex plan. I need to write everything down and follow it. I would eat like crazy on the Core plan. I don't know why it is driving me so crazy!! For dinner I am having Italian sausage, baked potato w/ salsa and cheese, and mixed veggies. Yummy!

 

[Rachie0507]

Today is going better that yesterday. Here is my food plan for the day:

Breakfast:
3/4 c. Apple Cinnamon Cheerios
1/2 Fat Free Milk
Coffee with 1 tbsp of FF Creamer (won't waste a point on that often)

Lunch:
Ham Sandwich w/ Mustard, Lettuce, Tomato
On Light Wheat Bread (2 slices=1 point)
Healthy Choice Country Vegetable Soup
1 c. Fat Free Milk

Dinner Plan:
Turkey Sandwich w/ Mustard, Lettuce, Tomato
On French Bread
1 c. Peas
Salad w/ oil dressing

Kids are home from Grandmas. I check back later.

 

[Lesli54]

Just wanted to say Welcome to WISH! Your journal is the first I have read because I have been concentrating on starting my own program. I really do love the idea of putting money towards WDW if I eat the wrong thing. Good luck to you.

 

[pearlieq]

Sounds like a great plan for today.

Hope you have a wonderful day!

 

[Rachie0507]

I've been trying to post all day about something I'm proud of, but I keep getting interupted. I have MORE ENERGY!!! I am so much more motivated to stuff...get up in the morning, play nice with the kids (I've taken the kids to the playground two days in a row now, that means putting snowsuits, hat mittens and boots on 5 children age 4 and under, mostly 2 year olds!). I don't know if it a difference of my mental attitude or what I am eating, but I'm liking it! And the headaches have gone away. Did any one else have headaches for the first couple days of not eating junk? It was driving me crazy!!

 

[Rachie0507]

I'm lounging around watching American Idol, and up until a week ago I would usually have a bowl of ice cream. But tonight, I had a salad!! I hadn't had my oil servings today so I figured I'd get them in with the dressing. I can't wait for weigh-in tomorrow. I don't think I have ever had this honest and on-plan week in my other times on WW. I'm so excited to be doing this.

I need to exercise. I'm going to try to drag my body out of bed tomorrow morning and walk the dog around the block. It is only like 1/3 of a mile, but is better than nothing. I used to do that all the time. I remember walking the dog first thing in the morning and then again at 10 pm right up until my DS was born. If I had the energy then, why can't I do it now? I'll try. That means getting up at, like, 5 am!! DH needs to leave for work between 6-6:30. We'll see how it goes

 

[Rachie0507]

Today's Food Plan:

Breakfast:
Egg Sandwich on Light Wheat Bread
Tangerine

Lunch:
Salad
Homemade Oil Dressing
Fat Free Milk

Weight Watchers Weigh In 5:30

Dinner:
2c. Turkey Chili
1/4 c. Cheddar Cheese
12 Tostitos Chips
Fat Free Milk

1 c. Ice Cream

(I'm using 7 Flex Points, but not til after weigh in!! )

Kids are yelling, gotta go!

 

[toystoryduo]

Good luck at weigh-in today!!

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Rachie,

I just found your journal! Welcome. Sounds like you are off and running. I'm so happy you are getting your energy restored. Taking 5 kids to the playground in wintertime REQUIRES energy! Great job! Not only will you be able to enjoy your children more with your healthy lifestyle, they will enjoy you more, too! I know I am more fun to be with for my kids when I have energy and actually *want* to go out of the house!!!

Keep up the great work, keep posting!

Sunny

 

[Rachie0507]

Thanks Toystoryduo!!

So far today, I have have walk around the neighborhood 2x's!!! Once this morning around 5:45 and then again at 10:30. The second time took forever though. I had my son, who is 2, and three day care kids with me (DD was at swimming lesson w/ Grandma). The three extras are 3, 2, and 1 yr. olds!! The 1 yr old went into a stroller and the other three walked. And the dog, she came too. It was an interesting test on my patience !!!! But I think we'll do it again. It was so nice to get some fresh air and move, though. We have had such a tough winter here. Winter is never easy in New England, but this year the temps never went up enough to melt what was already on the ground. This is one of the first times that the road doesn't have ice since December! It is getting into the 40's everyday now, so I think this is the start of the end!

One of my daycare kids had a fit this morning when his mom left. He only comes one morning a week and he has never cared before when Mommy left. He screamed (and schreeched and pounded the wall) for 45 minutes!!!! The mom doesn't work, just needs a break, so she told me if he didn't settle within 30 minutes then she would come back, and she did. I felt bad but he wouldn't even let me go near him, he would scream even louder!! So now I have a migraine. That is the kind of stress situation though that I would usually grab food to help me get through. But I didn't, I came to the disboards instead (my husband says I'm addicted!). That is when I posted my meal plan for the day. I just finished my salad-Yummy!! I have always loved salad. I just usually use creamy/fatty dressing, cheese and croutons!! Now I mix some olive oil with a little Balsamic Vinager and Italian seasoning and toss my salad in it. Still pretty tasty but without the sugar of store bought dressing.

I am so excited for my weigh in today. I hope I am not disappointed. I don't think I will be because I don't have any expectations for today. I have weighed my self at home twice in the last week. Once over the weekend and once this morning. I think my scale is way off!! I weighed in at 239 last week at WW. Over the weekend I was 232. Now I am 229. I know that is not a realistic weight lose, just a difference in scales. I guess I'm hoping for 3-4 pounds. I'll post again later!!

 

[Rachie0507]

The weigh-in went very well last night. I lost 4.2 lbs in the last week!!! I'm so excited. I know I won't lost that much every week but what a motivating way to start. I've planned out food for today and tomorrow (you know how Saturdays can turn into eating 'stuff' all day long, I wanted to be prepared with a plan). I have 4 extra points today but I am going to friend's house tonight to scrapbook. She always makes brownies and I want to have one!! I have already walked the neighborhood once today with the dog. I plan to do it again today with only 2 kids this time. I might even pull out the double stroller so I can go at a decent pace. But then I have to fight with my 2 (almost 3) year old to go into it. We'll see!!

Here is my food for the day:

Breakfast:
Fresh Strawberry, Banana, Grape Fruit Salad
1 Full Graham Cracker
8 oz. Orange Juice

Lunch:
1/2 c. Turkey Chili
1/4 c. Shredded Cheese
1 tbsp Sour Cream
1 1/2 c. Salad
3 Tostitos, crushed
8 oz. Fat Free Milk

Dinner:
3 Homemade Waffle Sticks
1/2 c. Sliced Strawberries and Bananas
1 egg Scrambled w/ margarine
8 oz. Fat Free Milk

I'll check back later, need to shower!!

 

[Rachie0507]

The kids are napping, kind of. My DD is at school all day today. She usually only goes for half day preschool, but with all the snow days lately they offered to keep the kids til 1:45. That means I need to get the three two year olds to nap earlier and I still probably wake them up. I have one though that doesn't like to nap. She is still playing in the pack-n-play. And the four year old is watching the Incredibles.

I walked about 1 1/2 miles this morning. I called a couple other moms and asked if they wanted to meet at the local bike path to walk. One was the friend who joined WW with me yesterday. Another was someone who considered going with us, but told me that she decided to start going next week to a different location (closer but doesn't fit into my work schedule). And a friend of her's came too, and now she is thinking about joining!! I told them we could start our own WW club! So anyway, I had two of the little guys with me at that point. I pushed one in the stroller and my DS walked. I never expected to go as far as we did though, and a 2 1/2 yr old really can't walk that far so I ended up with him on my shoulders for almost half the time. So I guess that is like an extra workout of carrying an extra 30 lbs!

My taco salad for lunch was so good!! I love stuff like that.

Off to do work. I like to ramble on and on. Hope nobody minds. When you are stuck in a house with toddlers and preschoolers all day long, you desperate to 'talk' to anybody!!

 

[Lesli54]

Good job Rachel!

Carrying around children is definitely a way to add to your work out. Take what you can get.

I don't mind "the ramblings", that's what makes the journals fun to read. Sometimes mine are so long, I am surprised that I don't bore everyone. Keep up the good work.

 

[Rachie0507]

I don't mind "the ramblings", that's what makes the journals fun to read. Sometimes mine are so long, I am surprised that I don't bore everyone. Keep up the good work.

I'm always worried about being a bore also. Ultimately this journal is for me and my own motivation, but I also like to think people are reading it!! Thanks!

I "cheated" yesterday afternoon. The kids were all driving me a bit nutty and I wanted to escape. So while they were eating snack, I jumped on the internet and ate a Just 2 Points bar that I bought Thursday night. In my opinion, those things are a rip off. Because I can't stop at just one. And they are SO expensive!! So I had two of them. I was going for the third and I stopped and looked at my food journal. I couldn't do it because I didn't have the points. On one hand I am happy that I stopped. On the other, though, why did I have two? I had to rearrange my dinner plan to accomodate the 4 extra points (since neither bar was scheduled). I ended up with just chili for dinner, and a glass of milk. I had one point left for the day. Then I went to my friend's house for scrapbooking. There were about 10 people there (my friend is a creative memories consultant and she hosts workshops at here house). I planned on having something but I didn't plan on her ordering PIZZA!!! I had one slice, a small lowfat homemade muffin and a small chocolate chip cookie. I counted 10 points for all of that. I think that might be low but close enough. Other times that I have done WW, I would never count the points for a cheating night like that. Originally, I said I was going to "charge" myself for cheating, into the Disney Fund. But I can't decide if I should charge for this. The junk I ate while I was out wasn't cheating. I knew I could use Flex Points and I was willing to do that. What is bugging me are those 2 snack bars yesterday. One would have been okay but two is unacceptable, in my opinion. I know I have $1 hanging around in my purse (I usually don't carry any cash) so I'm going to throw it into the cup.

Today should be okay. I have food planned out but I'm losing my motivation to actually have those things. I might get ambitious and make stuffed peppers for dinner. I'll have to run to Stop and Shop to get some meat first though. I hate to go buy something when I already have a fridge full. But I also have a cabbage. Hmm, the wheels are turning now....

I'm trying to get the energy to get myself dressed so the kids and I can go walk the dog. DS already got himself dressed (he loves clothes much more than his sister, it really is pretty funny--since he turned two I wouldn't dare pick out his clothes without his approval or I'm setting us up for a tantrum!) DD is much more of a challenge. Her clothes are out and I keep reminding her to get dressed, but nothing!!! But I'm still in my pajamas too!

Okay, I'm off to face the world!