Personality Troubles

[Ms.Squeakers]

I posted this on the random thread..

But i think it would do well here...

I feel so yucky

I just realized HOW popular my crush is..and now I just feel like...depressed ya know?

And to make it worse I wasnt even thinking about it and I was sitting down...and he sat beside me..and then all of the sudden my friend (the one who uses me) said "Hey! Sit next to me You dont have to sit there"

I felt heart broken..Is that really what people think of me? I just dont understand it.. The people with the cruelest hearts..get the attention...but the ones who USE their heart...get pushed to the floor like a bag of flaming poo..


and I felt like going back there and slapping her head off saying "Your right but he chose to sat next to me if he didnt he wouldnt have" but instead I just got real quiet and I didnt talk the entire day..

and then later on in lunch she took my cookie and left me there

I also wanted to slap her head off right then and there too..

but thank goodness i didnt..

I need to do something about this..
I need to inforce change

 

[disneychick2721]

I posted this on the random thread..

But i think it would do well here...

I feel so yucky

I just realized HOW popular my crush is..and now I just feel like...depressed ya know?

And to make it worse I wasnt even thinking about it and I was sitting down...and he sat beside me..and then all of the sudden my friend (the one who uses me) said "Hey! Sit next to me You dont have to sit there"

I felt heart broken..Is that really what people think of me? I just dont understand it.. The people with the cruelest hearts..get the attention...but the ones who USE their heart...get pushed to the floor like a bag of flaming poo..


and I felt like going back there and slapping her head off saying "Your right but he chose to sat next to me if he didnt he wouldnt have" but instead I just got real quiet and I didnt talk the entire day..

and then later on in lunch she took my cookie and left me there

I also wanted to slap her head off right then and there too..

but thank goodness i didnt..

I need to do something about this..
I need to inforce change

You cant just stand there quietly !
Stand up for yourself.
You shouldn't be a doormat. !
Im sure your much better then that.
I hope everything works out.

 

[::Snow_White::]

I posted this on the random thread..

But i think it would do well here...

I feel so yucky

I just realized HOW popular my crush is..and now I just feel like...depressed ya know?

And to make it worse I wasnt even thinking about it and I was sitting down...and he sat beside me..and then all of the sudden my friend (the one who uses me) said "Hey! Sit next to me You dont have to sit there"

I felt heart broken..Is that really what people think of me? I just dont understand it.. The people with the cruelest hearts..get the attention...but the ones who USE their heart...get pushed to the floor like a bag of flaming poo..


and I felt like going back there and slapping her head off saying "Your right but he chose to sat next to me if he didnt he wouldnt have" but instead I just got real quiet and I didnt talk the entire day..

and then later on in lunch she took my cookie and left me there

I also wanted to slap her head off right then and there too..

but thank goodness i didnt..

I need to do something about this..
I need to inforce change

I would've slapped her.
But...
I don't reccomend that.
Try talking to her.
Be straightforward and demand things.
It works, I have to do it all the time or I never ever talk to my "friends" when they need to explain things.
I have to demand answers from them before they'll tell me anything.
It's because they are scared of me...I've been told.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

You cant just stand there quietly !
Stand up for yourself.
You shouldn't be a doormat. !
Im sure your much better then that.
I hope everything works out.

I would've slapped her.
But...
I don't reccomend that.
Try talking to her.
Be straightforward and demand things.
It works, I have to do it all the time or I never ever talk to my "friends" when they need to explain things.
I have to demand answers from them before they'll tell me anything.
It's because they are scared of me...I've been told.

Ahh I wouldnt have stood there quietly If I knew what to do.. I mean this girl is WAY popular everyone thinks that shes a true friend but I have known her for too long all she does is take

And..
I am a doormat

Last year we all promised each other we were beautiful mansions with NO doormats..but it just doesnt matter anymore that promise was completely broken



BUT i shouldnt be a doormat.. I just somehow..am.. I hate how I act myself and people think its ********..but then she acts JUST LIKE ME and "omg thats sooo cooolllll" and im like "I just did that 2 seconds ago.."

whatever.. SHE JUST HAS TO PUSH IT IN MY FACE...every second of every day....aggg


Im seriously ticked

Moving right now..would be the best thing that could possibly happen to me..or..an apology at least

Like i said Im the kind of person that HAS to forgive (its in my blood)



My bro and I were talking about her..and he said "I wouldnt be supprised if some day she comes to school pregnant" and that totally made my day somehow because she has a bf..but..she has no classes with him..and in all of her classes she flirts with everyone tellling them she loves them and writing "I love *persons name*" all over her arms

 

[StitchfansJr]

I always get best friends..

Ok..well you wanna know what happens to them?


They move...


Literally any of my best friends have either changed schools or moved off to another state.

Yep.

EVERY SINGLE FRIEND I HAVE EVER HAD...

and now.. Im stuck with "friends" who say that they care..but dont care anything about me...

They USE me...

Cut me in lunch line..but any other time "O..let me tell u aobut my bf who doesnt care if i die or not.." Or doesnt even have time to say HI

Yup, same with all of my friends.

 

[BabyPiglet]

Yep, I know how ya feel.

Everytime I try to tell one of my 'friends' something, it gets all weird and they go "...I'm sorry...". The whole thing involves lots of pauses and awkwardness. I hate it.

Most of my "friends" have never had a deep conversation in their LIFE.

Gah, idk. And they just think I'm incredibly depressed or something.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Yep, I know how ya feel.

Everytime I try to tell one of my 'friends' something, it gets all weird and they go "...I'm sorry...". The whole thing involves lots of pauses and awkwardness. I hate it.

Most of my "friends" have never had a deep conversation in their LIFE.

Gah, idk. And they just think I'm incredibly depressed or something.

Ahh I know about the whole Deep conversation thing

Its just impossible for them

 

[reminisce]

i can almost relate, but then again i cant. i go to the biggest school in ohio, and im in all honors. i dont know anyone whos actually considered popular, and i just recently aquired a best friend. i think i could relate more last year when i was in junior high (im now in high school). hopefully when you get to high school, things will get better for you, too

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

I hope so too..

But I kinda doubt it.

 

[wishspirit]

Bless you guys!
Sounds exactly like me all the way through school! In some ways its the same as now, but at least now i am at uni, if i dont get on with one person, i just dont talk to them!

It is so horrid! I still dont have a 'best friend' except from my boyfriend who hears (almost) everything about my life.

I still dont know who i am or my personality, although the people here are a lot more understanding, especially since i get panic attacks, they are really nice to me about going out and such.

I am slowly getting better, but at least my new friends are supportive.

*hugs to everyone*

If you guys every want to talk, please PM me, i am always up for a chat

Dont worry, it wont be like this forever, its jst horrid when its happening.