so sorry to hear the sad news about your father Taryn. My heart and prayers go out to you. i just recently lost my dh and so know somewhat how you must feel. i watch and feel for my children too as they grieve for their father. don't worry that any of the decisions you are making are "weird", we all have different ideas of what we need to do at times such as these, we all find comfort in different ways. God Bless.
kathe