princessjv
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This is a story about Love, Life, Death and the Magic of Disney...
Shhh...It's a surprise! Well at least it WAS a surprise! Give me a minute and Ill elaborate.
Promise.
The plan was for a trip for my son and I, a trip about time spent with my sweet boy. Time alone for a mother and her son without interruptions from anyone else, especially his little sister (Ill get to her later). This was a well-deserved trip. A trip deserved by both my son & I but for different reasons. The thought of keeping this trip a total secret was a must! Not only would it be fun for my ds, but I didn't want to make my dd sad when we were talking about WDW, since she couldn't go... and she had REALLY wanted to go to WDW.
I planned and saved for this trip for months. Since I am a SAHM, I got myself a little side job,
to pay for it. You see my darling DH will fund one and only one trip to the MOUSE each year (Go Figure??). Problem is
I need more than one trip a year. So a little side job it was for me. I saved enough for this trip and then a little extra to try to encourage an extra trip this year too. 
Unfortunately life brings things to us when we least expect. A few months before the unveiling of my KOTS (keeper of the secret for those not in the know) trip, my mom got sick Really, really sick. It seemed that the years and years of smoking she did, had lead to Stage IV Lung Cancer which had spread to her hip, liver and spine. She was given a grim outlook on the long life she once thought shed have. We were told she had months to live.
I put a big STOP on my plans for my mommy and son WDW trip.
Dead STOP!
It seems when you least expect it, life gives you a big slap in the face. Its almost as though these things are lifes way to remind you that you are not paying attention to life.
Maybe taking it for granted!?!
It was at that point that I rearranged my priorities. My family became number one.
The only one!
At times my immediate family even began to take a backseat, while I became caretaker extraordinaire to both my parents home and lives, and tried to balance my own family and home. This was absolutely exhausting. Totally mentally and physically exhausting.
Once my mom found out that I had canceled my Mom & Son trip lets just say she was not happy. It was important to her that each of the members of her family kept up with their own lives, even though in so many ways our lives were upside down with pain and uncertainty. Without a doubt in her voice, I was told that I needed to take my son on my planned Mom and Son trip.
But how could I?
How could I leave for the Happiest Place on Earth when she was so ill? What if something happened while I was away? What if the inevitable occurred?
I had so much streaming through my head. Most days my emotions were lost.
I was truly, truly lost.
One day, I woke up and realized I was doing too much. I was trying to fix what was happening around me. What I really needed to be doing was make sure both my family & I were taken care of, in a much better way than I was doing. I had done all I could do to keep my parents house afloat. I had helped with sometimes daily doctors appointments to the Mayo Clinic which were 2 hours away, cooked, cleaned, organized and taught my younger brothers how to do laundry. That day, that very day, I woke up. I realized that I was in need of stepping back and letting life start taking the path that it was on. I needed to let what was out of my hands go. I could no more control the Cancer that was affecting my family than I could control the weather.
Cancer Sucks.
Really, it truly does!
CANCER SUCKS!
I knew in my heart that I really had been looking forward to this special time with my son and really I simply couldn't let my mom down. Although I was about to loose one of the most important persons in my life, I needed to do what was best for us my son and I. We were going to still be here. We still were alive. I needed to keep on with life My life. Not without doubt, I decided that Gramma was right. I cant put my life on hold. We were given a crappy thing to deal with, and we were all doing our best to deal with it.
By gosh, we needed some magic in our life.
I needed to escape my reality and feel the special feeling that Disney holds over me.
We needed something to give us some happy feelings:
Magic that would give us each a nice big smile.
Magic that would, for just a few days, put our troubles aside.
Magic that would bring my son and I closer.
And with that the plan was in motion.
Up Next: Who's Who in this tale of two? Or would there be more? Page 2, post 23
For your shopping convenience I have inserted an "Index". You'll see no direct links, cause this Jen is link challenged. I am a certified, proud member of the "Ask Tanya90210" for link help, club. Very similar to the hair club for men... just no hair... and no men.
~INDEX~
Intro ~ Don't look too far, cause you just read it!
Page 2, post 23 ~ Who's Who in this tale of two? Or would there be more?
Page 4, Post 47 ~ Good Night, Sleep Tight...
Page 6, Post 78 ~ The Reveal
Page 7, Post 103 ~ Meet the "LOUD'S"
Page 12, 1st Post~ She Bangs, She Bangs!
Page 14, Post 206 ~ Arrival at the Mother land!
Page 17, 1st Post ~ The hissper!
Page 20, 1st Post ~ Stick to the Plan Stan!
Page 21... update of sorts
Page 23, Post 333 ~ Splish splash taking a bath!
Page 24, Post 359 ~ Get a dream, Loose a...
Page 30, Goodbye Lemmondrops, we will never forget
The computer ate my TR! I was just about finished with this report and Puff, the darn computer died. If we can't retrieve it, I will start again and finish it. It's important to me.
Shhh...It's a surprise! Well at least it WAS a surprise! Give me a minute and Ill elaborate.
Promise.
The plan was for a trip for my son and I, a trip about time spent with my sweet boy. Time alone for a mother and her son without interruptions from anyone else, especially his little sister (Ill get to her later). This was a well-deserved trip. A trip deserved by both my son & I but for different reasons. The thought of keeping this trip a total secret was a must! Not only would it be fun for my ds, but I didn't want to make my dd sad when we were talking about WDW, since she couldn't go... and she had REALLY wanted to go to WDW.
I planned and saved for this trip for months. Since I am a SAHM, I got myself a little side job,
to pay for it. You see my darling DH will fund one and only one trip to the MOUSE each year (Go Figure??). Problem is
I need more than one trip a year. So a little side job it was for me. I saved enough for this trip and then a little extra to try to encourage an extra trip this year too. Unfortunately life brings things to us when we least expect. A few months before the unveiling of my KOTS (keeper of the secret for those not in the know) trip, my mom got sick Really, really sick. It seemed that the years and years of smoking she did, had lead to Stage IV Lung Cancer which had spread to her hip, liver and spine. She was given a grim outlook on the long life she once thought shed have. We were told she had months to live.
I put a big STOP on my plans for my mommy and son WDW trip.
Dead STOP!
It seems when you least expect it, life gives you a big slap in the face. Its almost as though these things are lifes way to remind you that you are not paying attention to life.
Maybe taking it for granted!?!
It was at that point that I rearranged my priorities. My family became number one.
The only one!
At times my immediate family even began to take a backseat, while I became caretaker extraordinaire to both my parents home and lives, and tried to balance my own family and home. This was absolutely exhausting. Totally mentally and physically exhausting.
Once my mom found out that I had canceled my Mom & Son trip lets just say she was not happy. It was important to her that each of the members of her family kept up with their own lives, even though in so many ways our lives were upside down with pain and uncertainty. Without a doubt in her voice, I was told that I needed to take my son on my planned Mom and Son trip.
But how could I?
How could I leave for the Happiest Place on Earth when she was so ill? What if something happened while I was away? What if the inevitable occurred?
I had so much streaming through my head. Most days my emotions were lost.
I was truly, truly lost.
One day, I woke up and realized I was doing too much. I was trying to fix what was happening around me. What I really needed to be doing was make sure both my family & I were taken care of, in a much better way than I was doing. I had done all I could do to keep my parents house afloat. I had helped with sometimes daily doctors appointments to the Mayo Clinic which were 2 hours away, cooked, cleaned, organized and taught my younger brothers how to do laundry. That day, that very day, I woke up. I realized that I was in need of stepping back and letting life start taking the path that it was on. I needed to let what was out of my hands go. I could no more control the Cancer that was affecting my family than I could control the weather.
Cancer Sucks.
Really, it truly does!
CANCER SUCKS!
I knew in my heart that I really had been looking forward to this special time with my son and really I simply couldn't let my mom down. Although I was about to loose one of the most important persons in my life, I needed to do what was best for us my son and I. We were going to still be here. We still were alive. I needed to keep on with life My life. Not without doubt, I decided that Gramma was right. I cant put my life on hold. We were given a crappy thing to deal with, and we were all doing our best to deal with it.
By gosh, we needed some magic in our life.
I needed to escape my reality and feel the special feeling that Disney holds over me.
We needed something to give us some happy feelings:
Magic that would give us each a nice big smile.
Magic that would, for just a few days, put our troubles aside.
Magic that would bring my son and I closer.
And with that the plan was in motion.
Up Next: Who's Who in this tale of two? Or would there be more? Page 2, post 23
For your shopping convenience I have inserted an "Index". You'll see no direct links, cause this Jen is link challenged. I am a certified, proud member of the "Ask Tanya90210" for link help, club. Very similar to the hair club for men... just no hair... and no men.
~INDEX~
Intro ~ Don't look too far, cause you just read it!
Page 2, post 23 ~ Who's Who in this tale of two? Or would there be more?
Page 4, Post 47 ~ Good Night, Sleep Tight...
Page 6, Post 78 ~ The Reveal
Page 7, Post 103 ~ Meet the "LOUD'S"
Page 12, 1st Post~ She Bangs, She Bangs!
Page 14, Post 206 ~ Arrival at the Mother land!
Page 17, 1st Post ~ The hissper!
Page 20, 1st Post ~ Stick to the Plan Stan!
Page 21... update of sorts
Page 23, Post 333 ~ Splish splash taking a bath!
Page 24, Post 359 ~ Get a dream, Loose a...
Page 30, Goodbye Lemmondrops, we will never forget
The computer ate my TR! I was just about finished with this report and Puff, the darn computer died. If we can't retrieve it, I will start again and finish it. It's important to me.
LY really 
I broke it...
Tanya, do you feel sorry for me yet? 
You are the bestest! 
