That was one of the hardest days of my life. I was a mess all day. He had been really nasty a lot lately and DH and I were fed up so we thought it wouldn;t be too bad. We were wrong. Monday night I wrote him a long letter when at work about how I felt and he woke me up Tues. am to talk. He told me I was a good mom. That meant a lot to me.
He left to be with his friends for dinner and then to go to the recruiter's office by 7pm. At 6:30 DH and I decided to be there too even though he did not ask us. It was the best decision we could have made. It helped a lot to just stand around and clown around with the kids. The recruiter was picking up another new soldier and was almost an hour late.
DS let his friends cut off his ponytail. He looked so good without the long hair but the haircut left something to be desired. We got photos and will send them to him when we get his address. He was visibly nervous but would not admit it. That last hug was the hardest. I think I had my first panic attack last night.
I got so little sleep on Tues. that I went to bed at 11pm and slept till 1pm. I feel much better today and know he is on the right path.
He knows we love him and we know he loves us too. He spent some time in the afternoon holding me when I cried. First time for everything. Now I have the job of packing up his things for storage. He wants his brother to have his room and some of his stuff.
I am now the proud mom of an Army Private.
**Update: We got a 2 minute collect call from him this afternoon. He says he is okay but does not want to be there. I asked if he wanted to come home and he said, "No, just don't want to be here."
He sounded good and said the food was okay. It was nice to hear his voice and I just wish DH had been home too. He won't graduate till mid to late November as his individual job training follows immediately after boot camp. He is training to be a Cavalry Scout. He wants to drive those Humvees. They will graduate after all is done. He is stationed at Fort Knox. We live in Northeast Ohio so it is pretty close for us. I am doing so much better now. I still haven't gone into his bedroom yet though, need a couple more days. Thanks for all your kindness and good thoughts. It really helps.
He left to be with his friends for dinner and then to go to the recruiter's office by 7pm. At 6:30 DH and I decided to be there too even though he did not ask us. It was the best decision we could have made. It helped a lot to just stand around and clown around with the kids. The recruiter was picking up another new soldier and was almost an hour late.
DS let his friends cut off his ponytail. He looked so good without the long hair but the haircut left something to be desired. We got photos and will send them to him when we get his address. He was visibly nervous but would not admit it. That last hug was the hardest. I think I had my first panic attack last night.
I got so little sleep on Tues. that I went to bed at 11pm and slept till 1pm. I feel much better today and know he is on the right path.
He knows we love him and we know he loves us too. He spent some time in the afternoon holding me when I cried. First time for everything. Now I have the job of packing up his things for storage. He wants his brother to have his room and some of his stuff.
I am now the proud mom of an Army Private.
**Update: We got a 2 minute collect call from him this afternoon. He says he is okay but does not want to be there. I asked if he wanted to come home and he said, "No, just don't want to be here."
He sounded good and said the food was okay. It was nice to hear his voice and I just wish DH had been home too. He won't graduate till mid to late November as his individual job training follows immediately after boot camp. He is training to be a Cavalry Scout. He wants to drive those Humvees. They will graduate after all is done. He is stationed at Fort Knox. We live in Northeast Ohio so it is pretty close for us. I am doing so much better now. I still haven't gone into his bedroom yet though, need a couple more days. Thanks for all your kindness and good thoughts. It really helps.
{{{HUGS}}}
