My Almost Brother died

[mybestieismickey]

My mom called me yesterday to tell me that our friend David had been killed in a car accident on his way to work yesterday. He was really close to our family, almost like the older brother I never had.

As sad as I am about his passing, I am devistated for his wife. They were married just this last October. I didn't know her very well since I had moved away before they started dating, but they were so happy together. As far as I know, she was all alone yesterday and that breaks my heart. They live in Colorado, but her family lives one state away and his three.

Normally, I don't get as upset over death as I am right now. I think it is because my experience has been limited to grandparents and older relatives. I was able to adjust to it because for the most part their qualilty of life had really suffered leading up to their passing and I truly believe that they are happier now and with their loved ones that have gone on before. But this is different. He was young and healthy. His whole life was in front of him and he had finally found his sweetheart.

I think really though my taking it so hard is selfish. This is my worst fear realized. It's not something that I dwell on, but sometimes the thought pops into my mind unbidden "what if my husband doesn't come home?" I would be devistated. He's my world. He's in law enforcement, so the possibility is really there, but strangely, I'm more worried about the car accident on the way to work thing. Who said fears are rational, right?

I'm sorry this is kind of depressing, but I've been home alone the past two days and I haven't really had anyone to talk to about this. When I mentioned the worst fear thing to my DH last night, he just shrugged it off and said that I would be taken care of. It's not the money I'm worried about you dummy!

I'm also sorry I kind of made this about me. It's not really. Please pray for Cami. I'm sure she needs all the help she can get right now. I cry everytime I think about what she must be going through.

 

[Mackey Mouse]

Post here, this is what this board is for. Never worry about depressing us, we want to help. My dad was a policeman my whole life growing up and I know that my Mom use to worry when he would go to work....I remember it, but he did not get hurt on the job or in an accident..

I am sorry about your friend David, you just never know when your number will be called. Some are battling illnesses that will eventually take them and some die suddenly of an unknown ailment or a car accident... Bottom line is you cannot live your life in fear of the unknown. Please accept my condolences on the loss of your friend...and I will send Cami prayers tonight.

 

[Elfstar]

I'll remember them and you in my prayers. I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[minniebeth]

How sad, we will pray for them and for you too...

 

[kimis]

You all are in my prayers.

 

[frdeb1999]

You will be in my thoughts and prayers, along with his family.

 

[LouDisney]

I'm sorry for your loss.