Girls Scout Leader
<font color="red">Brave And Fearless Leader Willin
- Joined
- Nov 10, 2001
- Messages
- 808
I had a meltdown today, and jsut need to get all this off my chest. My DH works out of town for a while and I'm jjust tired of being alone.
First, I have been painting the living room and tried to hang the blinds back up, but I'm jsut not strong enough to drill in the holes for them and ended up stripping out the screws and braking one of the hangers.
Then, (we have rural mail delivery) and the mail lady has been leaving nasty notes in my box that my flag has broken off and that the approach to the box needs to be filled. Well, i never put mail in the box for her to pick up, so what if I don't have a flag? And the approach needs fill because she takes off so fast , (we live on a hill) that she spews up gravel behind her and leaves a hole ans a hill. So I went out this morning ans shoveled the hill in to the hole and raked it better. Now she left a note that mail delivery is suspended until I fix it to her specifications.
In that mail, came a letter from the school that DS (6th grade) is failing Social Studies.
DD had been diagnosed with ADD several years ago. She has been medication free for 2 school years. Last night she canfessed that she just can't focus, or concentrate. She was begging to go back on something to help. The last was Adderall. She is in her first year of High School and hit her hard. Conference with teacher later today.
DH is Scoutmaster for a troop of 6-12 graders. He comes home from the city on wed nights to have troop meetings. So he'll be home for a bit tonight. But he has to leave by 3:30 am to make it to work, so that means meeting, quick bite to eat and bed. And he tries to do so much with the boys, soem of them really needing a strong dependable male figure. I had a problem with one of our County Fair officials last summer, and she is on the churchj board where the boys meet. She was so ticked at me that she is denying the boys a place to meet. The rest of the board always goes along with her, and now the boys might be left out in the cold because of me and my big mouth.
I went to the dentist yesterday. Need a "core" done with a $690 cap. Two fillings at $56 each and a permanent bridge for $460. No dental insurance, totally out of pocket. DH won't accept financial assistance, but he really does make a good living. Just pretty big lumps at once. Hate to hit him with bad news when he's home so seldom.
He is taking the boys on a district wide fall camporee this weekend, fri and sat night. hope to God it's the last one for a while. So glad that he's not spending his free time doing things other hubbys may be doing but just he same, I need him too.
And I guess I just plain miss my best firend. We havebeen through so much in the 18 years we ahve been married. At one time we were entranged from both of our amilies for various reasons and all we had was each other. By the time he comes home, the latest joke I heard was no longer funny, the problem with the kids has been resolved, I fixed whatever I had to, and I'm jsut plain tired of having to try to catch him up on all the happenings all week. And if I end up forgetting and leaving soemthing out that he finds out about laster, I get accused of trying to hid things. I even have taken to keeping a list all week.
I am a bit jealous of him getting to stay in a motel with maid service, restaurants, (by the weekend he really want home cooking and I;m sick of cooking!) going to a movie (ok, he found a cheep show for $2, bu the last time I went to the theater was to see StarWars Episode 1 ) and walking around a mall because it was a rainy evening (our nearest mall is 1 1/2 hours away)
If anyone is still reading by this point, I'm sorry to vent so long. But it build and builds and I don't want to vent all over him on the one or two days he's here.
Thanks for listening.
First, I have been painting the living room and tried to hang the blinds back up, but I'm jsut not strong enough to drill in the holes for them and ended up stripping out the screws and braking one of the hangers.
Then, (we have rural mail delivery) and the mail lady has been leaving nasty notes in my box that my flag has broken off and that the approach to the box needs to be filled. Well, i never put mail in the box for her to pick up, so what if I don't have a flag? And the approach needs fill because she takes off so fast , (we live on a hill) that she spews up gravel behind her and leaves a hole ans a hill. So I went out this morning ans shoveled the hill in to the hole and raked it better. Now she left a note that mail delivery is suspended until I fix it to her specifications.
In that mail, came a letter from the school that DS (6th grade) is failing Social Studies.
DD had been diagnosed with ADD several years ago. She has been medication free for 2 school years. Last night she canfessed that she just can't focus, or concentrate. She was begging to go back on something to help. The last was Adderall. She is in her first year of High School and hit her hard. Conference with teacher later today.
DH is Scoutmaster for a troop of 6-12 graders. He comes home from the city on wed nights to have troop meetings. So he'll be home for a bit tonight. But he has to leave by 3:30 am to make it to work, so that means meeting, quick bite to eat and bed. And he tries to do so much with the boys, soem of them really needing a strong dependable male figure. I had a problem with one of our County Fair officials last summer, and she is on the churchj board where the boys meet. She was so ticked at me that she is denying the boys a place to meet. The rest of the board always goes along with her, and now the boys might be left out in the cold because of me and my big mouth.
I went to the dentist yesterday. Need a "core" done with a $690 cap. Two fillings at $56 each and a permanent bridge for $460. No dental insurance, totally out of pocket. DH won't accept financial assistance, but he really does make a good living. Just pretty big lumps at once. Hate to hit him with bad news when he's home so seldom.
He is taking the boys on a district wide fall camporee this weekend, fri and sat night. hope to God it's the last one for a while. So glad that he's not spending his free time doing things other hubbys may be doing but just he same, I need him too.
And I guess I just plain miss my best firend. We havebeen through so much in the 18 years we ahve been married. At one time we were entranged from both of our amilies for various reasons and all we had was each other. By the time he comes home, the latest joke I heard was no longer funny, the problem with the kids has been resolved, I fixed whatever I had to, and I'm jsut plain tired of having to try to catch him up on all the happenings all week. And if I end up forgetting and leaving soemthing out that he finds out about laster, I get accused of trying to hid things. I even have taken to keeping a list all week.
I am a bit jealous of him getting to stay in a motel with maid service, restaurants, (by the weekend he really want home cooking and I;m sick of cooking!) going to a movie (ok, he found a cheep show for $2, bu the last time I went to the theater was to see StarWars Episode 1 ) and walking around a mall because it was a rainy evening (our nearest mall is 1 1/2 hours away)
If anyone is still reading by this point, I'm sorry to vent so long. But it build and builds and I don't want to vent all over him on the one or two days he's here.
Thanks for listening.
I am so sorry.
because you need it.
