I don't even know what I want to write. I don't know what advice I am looking for or responses I am expecting from this post, I am lost, lonely, sad and thought who better to share this with than the WONDERFUL family at the DIS! I just feel like I am existing right now, not living and that is so NOT my personality, so it is really bringing me down. My husband and I welcomed our son to the family a year ago...that was the best thing that has ever happened, he is my love, my joy, I truly LOVE being his mom. We decided that we would move closer to family so that he would have that growing up and I am NOT adjusting well. We moved from Orlando to Texas and things are really not living up to my expectations. Our house was delayed due to a little building snafu, so instead of being ready in February, it will be May. So we had to move in with my mom. I appreciate the hospitality, but it is really hard to have 3 adults, 1 infant and 5 dogs (yes 5...she has 3 and I have 2) trying to co-exist in one house. All of my personal belongings (minus clothes) are still in Florida, so I have none of my personal comforts here with me yet. I worked for Disney for 11 years and Cirque du Soleil for 4 years and just can't find anything in Texas that lives up to my standards, I always loved my job, but now I feel like I am working just to pay the bills. The purpose of moving was so that we could be closer to family and also because my mom can watch my son while I work...problem is that the job I have gave me mid day hours, so I only get to see my son for about an hour a day, I am up and out just as he is getting up and he is in bed before I get home. So I have left all my friends, the job I loved, my house, my things, everything that made up the components of my life and here I am. Hubby listens, but he doesn't talk much. He is content here, got a GREAT job and gets LOTS of time to see our son. I am trying to make the best of the situation but I am so miserable that I feel like I am bringing my mom down (cause we moved here for her and she feels guilty that I am not happy), snappy to my husband (cause I am upset and feel like he is not supporting my feelings) and I just want to cry everynight, alone in the dark so that I am not making everyone around me upset. I know things will get better, I just don't have anyone to talk to here that understands that I am having seperation anxiety from my former life. Thanks for listening... The Dis is my link to what I know best... It makes me happy to come here to friends.