Sorry I am late with this Kozmo....I hope you were able to feel a little happiness on your special day. I'm sure that your birthday brought your Dad immeasurable joy for many many years....reason enough for you to feel a little joy yourself. It is probably hard to feel much of anything right now though...and that's ok too. Be good to yourself...give yourself time....and, when you are ready, let your friends help shoulder some of this pain for you. {{{{hugs}}}