Jodi Arias penalty phase retrial begins Monday, 9/29

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Jodi says "I'm so excited to see Travis. If we aren't physical that OK I just want to wrap my arms around him.....#jodiarias

.and my love for him has grown so much over the months" #jodiarias

Jeffrey Evan Gold ‏@jeffgoldesq 2m2 minutes ago Phoenix, AZ Even #JodiArias is bored with this HS Confidential stuff already. #EnoughAlready

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Geff- says Jodi can block out things and go right back to where they were like nothing ever happened TA convinced Jodi to move to Az

Jodi is talking about how she doesn't trust Travis and she has called and he didn't call back. #jodiarias

Why does she have to compete with other girls and why does he continue to talk to other girls?! #jodiarias


"Should I hold on or should i let go? #jodiarias

 

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7/14 #JodiArias Excited to see him. 7/25 Uncertain. Geff says this is the analogy of the brain vs. the heart. Her emotions being yo-yo's.

Geff says TA is controlling bc he called #JodiArias & convinced her to leave a baseball game w/a gf to take him out for his bday.

Jodi's insecurities were coming back. She was reverting to how she was a decade ago. #jodiarias

"I love him. How could not possibly love him not, though I wish I could stop. Turn it off like a light switch." #jodiarias

 

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Jodi was emotionally dependent on Travis. It was survival #jodiarias


Aug 3, 2007 Geffner- Jodi's brain was arguing with her heart. #jodiarias #



Aug 5th 2007 "Life is so interesting. I'm having a mellow yet positive day. #jodiarias

 

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What I liked best about our day was we didn't argue, or fight, we just had a great time. #jodiarias

At the end of the night we treaded lightly into forbidden territory." #jodiarias

 

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Jodi is journaling about the ups and downs of their relationship and how she's wishing things were better between them. #jodiarias

Jeffrey Evan Gold ‏@jeffgoldesq 1m1 minute ago #JodiArias victims family following along an occasional note, figet, slump

"I'm on verge of just pushing him out of my life" #jodiarias

 

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Geffner says Travis pushes Jodi away and pulls her back and it shows his control and manipulation and it's abuse #jodiarias

8/15/07- List of Affirmations in Jodi's journal 1) I am not in love with TA 2) TA is a great friend 3) TA is not a great BF #jodiarias

 

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Jodi says she needs to focus on the positives Geffner says it's not helpful if you are blocking out the negative #jodiarias

TA was turned on and we drove off to a quiet place in the mall parking lot and enjoyed ourselves. Well he enjoyed himself more #jodiarias

I had to drop off TA at his house and Deanna was there and I had to drop TA off around the corner because TA has to juggle all these women

Jodi states she's OK with Deanna being there and that's important #jodiarias

 

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Jeffrey Evan Gold ‏@jeffgoldesq 1m1 minute ago #JodiArias trial going long today ...to 5:15pAZT

 

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I believe we're in September or October of 2007 - #JodiArias' entry is so unusually detailed re a day spent with TA. Hiding from Deanna.

Her journals are like a soap opera #jodiarias

 

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It's not TA at all. He was merely the distraction. The void in my soul has been there for years, maybe millenia, perhaps since I was born"


Geffner- The cycle is happening daily now. She blocks the negative and then it all comes back. #jodiarias

9: Meaning the childhood abuse, Bobby, the negative heart, the low self esteem, the distrust etc. Jodi blames herself for it all #jodiarias

 

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8/26/07 - #JodiArias writes that she loves Travis so completely.

Geffner says she's elevated and it's the positive #jodiariaswe are now at the Havasuapi trip and I don't have it in me ..lol #jodiarias

"Travis apologized to me for this morning and said it was 90% his fault. It meant so much to me." #jodiarias

 

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"I want to be the shining light I once was. I walk around like it's all OK. but I'm a shadow of what I use to be" #Jodiarias

 

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Well we are at Lisa Andrews now. Travis didn't tell Jodi about Lisa #jodiarias

 

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We are now at the balloon festival and Jodi and Travis are still seeing each other #jodiaria

Oct 6th- "Over course of last 9 months I have felt the need to pray for Deanna Reed. #jodiarias

: She's a nice girl. It's a different dynamic now, and not one that I like by any means. #jodiarias

Travis thinks I've become like her now, having to hide new relationships from me" #jodiarias

9: Travis told Jodi Deanna was needy and clingy and now he's telling Deanna those things about Jodi #jodiarias

 

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: Travis told Jodi Deanna was needy and clingy and now he's telling Deanna those things about Jodi #jodiarias

: Jodi is saying she feels depressed. Geffner says it's all these suppressed feelings #jodiaria

 

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Jodi says she's quick to fall in love and slow to fall out. How Travis wasn't really as in love with her. #jodiaria

She called Matt M for first time in 3 months and Matt wants her to commit herself. #jodiarias

Jodi says she's serving no purpose in this world #jodiarias

 

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Geffner says Matt was on right track she was suicidal and had overwhelming depression #jodiarias

10/29- Travis insisted that I tear out a page I wrote a few days ago listing some of the hateful words he'd spoken. #jodiarias


Jodi is talking about waking up and feeling so much depression #jodiarias

 

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have to share this tweet: Juan just walked by a charging laptop here near me.. he said "don't touch the laptop it's in sleep mode" lol!! #JodiArias


Morning giggle….

 

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have to share this tweet: Juan just walked by a charging laptop here near me.. he said "don't touch the laptop it's in sleep mode" lol!! #JodiArias


Morning giggle….