I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have lost my father in the past couple of years, and know that nothing can be said to bring him back.
It is nice and comforting to know that you have friends on the Dis board that will and can sympathize with you, and feel the pain that you have.
May he look down on you and be proud of who you are and what you have become. Keep the loving memories close, and cherish the special times you had.
We are all thinking of you and your family.
Thanks for reading and offering your kind support. I've finding it really therapeutic to write this. The outpouring of support I have been receiving is wonderful.