In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[MunkyMe13]

Hiya, peeps. First of all, Munky, congrats on the smaller measurements - that is awesome!

And Erika, I said this on another thread, but it bears repeating - congrats to you on doing a 5K on the treadmill. I hope I get to that distance at some point in the near future - it seems to be such a long way now, though!

I had a good weekend, I think. Very busy, but happy kind of busy. Didn't get all my water in on Saturday because I wasn't home to focus on drinking it. Made gluten-free onion rings on Saturday night (which were to die for) and ate them with reduced sugar ketchup, but still probably had too many. Oh, well, Sunday I did the W3D3 C25K workout in the morning and then walked 1 1/2 laps around the mall (about 1 1/2 miles) in the afternoon, so maybe I worked most of them off! I weigh in for BL challenge tomorrow morning, so we'll see.

Hope everybody has a great afternoon/evening!

Susan

Thanks!!!!! Grats on all your successes!!!!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Super weekend reports- So proud of everyone. Dedication, Effort, Trying Healthy Options. Plan you week and work your plan. I had a splurge yesterday. I'll confess later.

The nano has week 1 ready fto CT5K. when it 1st did the sync thing, I had downloaded week 9. What why start with week 9. I now have week 1,2,5, and 9 on nano. I will try for the other weeks later. So I am almost ready. Not yet go for launch. I'm getting there. I'm still sitting, need to get sneakers on and water ready, yes I'm stalling. You all are such motivation.
Yes. I really can hear it. Go for launch.

Where did you get the podcast? I have iTunes and an iPod and searched iTunes for it but could not find it. What is it called on iTunes? Thanks! And good luck with the program! I am having HUGE success with it!

 

[chbc]

Where did you get the podcast? I have iTunes and an iPod and searched iTunes for it but could not find it. What is it called on iTunes? Thanks! And good luck with the program! I am having HUGE success with it!

Went to MUSIC and search - Couch to 5 and it came up. The 1st selection, clicked on the podcast, display of all weeks and clicked all the free's. Downloaded and then went to my ipod and sync. Is displayed on my nano as podcast.

Someone on this thread gave us the info awhile back and I searched through posts. You can search health and fitness too. Let me know if it works for you.

I did it. Day 1 CT5K!! Feels good! Thank you everyone for the inspiration!!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Went to MUSIC and search - Couch to 5 and it came up. The 1st selection, clicked on the podcast, display of all weeks and clicked all the free's. Downloaded and then went to my ipod and sync. Is displayed on my nano as podcast.

Someone on this thread gave us the info awhile back and I searched through posts. You can search health and fitness too. Let me know if it works for you.

I did it. Day 1 CT5K!! Feels good! Thank you everyone for the inspiration!!

Is there a website for this program?

 

[Dizneydawn]

...and of course, you can always just do what I do...have your picture taken, just do the "professional fat girl pose"

I am so glad you posted the picture....you and your kids look beautiful...if I needed to have children lying on me to look thinner...I'd be adopting a village in Sudan!

Well...I went shopping today. Now I'm not scared of 3 way mirrors. I and my fat are on intimate terms. I know it's there. It knows it's there. And when I am scrutenizing it...I am usually standing up.

I see myself in 2D. I look down and it's not so bad.

I was in the execution chamber for over 1 hour yesterday...(aka Lane Bryant dressing room)...trying on Bra's (aka suicide seekers...) and was ready to cry. Nothing fit right...if it fit around my body it it was Grandma Lace with the color of eggshell or poop. What the heck is up with that? Whose skin tone is poop and I mean the weird brown that looks like you enhanced cookie dough with brown food coloring just enough to surpass rust but not enough to get to chocolate. I do not get it. Of course the lace means that you will get accused of nipplegate if you attend a grocery store event.
Then there is the straps...too tight means shoulder fat...too loose means excuse me bo*bs ... I need to move you so I can button my jeans!

Then there is the "shelf" bra that is supposed to help keep the girls where they are supposed to be.
Well that is great if the sisters are conjoined twins or triplets as it may be... because I felt like it made me have a unibo*b.

Or a pug if you will... cause they were lifted but smushed in the face if ya know what I mean! There was material between the cups and although I guess neked in a bedroom and feeling sexy... it may have been okay...it was a beautiful bra...it made them smaller and it is the one part of my body I am fine with being big!

So I decided that after I lose 20 pounds..I will go back...between sizes meant nothing was comfortable and I di not want to spend $60 and donate them to the Sisters of the Sagging nunnery after they did not fit anymore.
I guess the moral of the story is, "Quality" jeans are for skinny minnies, wait, rich skinny minnies, and I'm gonna stick with Fashion Bug.

Why do you think I wear Dickies and Carharts!!! Love the material that can be described as durable!!

And, thanks Dawn for giving me the link to this thread! I've taken a little while to read through and I see that you all are incredibly supportive. I, like you, need to lose weight. I've tried many times and have been successful at losing weight, but never losing down to my goal and never maintaining the weight that I did manage to lose. I find that there is always something that triggers me to go back to my bad habits. And, it always takes a while to get myself back on track. I know that I am an emotional eater, so overcoming that is a struggle.

I will never completely give up on this quest, as I know that if I do, my life will be cut really short and I have two sons to take care of. I'm so tired of hiding behind all of this weight. I have over 100 pounds to lose total, but I plan to make smaller goals of 10lbs each. I have started over about a hundred times, but here's hoping this time I'll do better than the time before.

So glad you took the time to be here...put a small goal before your trip....(Guys she is going to Dis and a cruise soon!!!!)....so you have something positive to reach for!!!

Hi Pryncsa,

Welcome to our merry little band of healthier folks...

I too am working on losing over 100 pounds and am looking at it as ten pounds at a time... It is much easier to say 3 down and 7 to go instead of the real numbers.... Good luck and remember that we are here when you need us...

Goof

I keep thinking that I am the only person I know that needs to loose 100 pounds or more....then I come her and again remember that loving or hating yourself is a struggle for all sizes...loving your body and accepting it means not fighting with it but... fighting for it....

Welcome! I am also trying to lose 100 lbs. I am 19.2 down. Its a slow but rewarding process. Good luck and everyone is here is wonderful!

You have been a great addition to this thread...thank you for being positive...

Ok, time to report on the week-end...



I planned my food all day and really was careful. I need to do this and go grocery shopping again to set myself up for success....


Of course, the REAL test will take place the rest of this week...we now have 3/4 of a cake just sitting there...all pretty in its little cake tupperware. Tupperware...oh nooo...this will work so good keeping it fresh for soooo long that you will need to fight temptation for at least a month!!! I moved it out of sight and in a part of the house where I never go...so hopefully that will help keep temptation at bay!

Ok...it is MONDAY everyone! Don't worry about whatever may have happened during the week-end! It is a new day, a new week, and we all DESERVE to be happy and healthy! Good advice....

P.S. 10 days till scale day for me...

Proud of you my Lil' Chicken poopster!!!

I think this is the quietest I have ever seen this thread... Where is everyone? *looks around*

Getting car fixed....picking up kids form school early due to snow...billing....OH YEAH.....and water aerobics for 1 hour with MamaBearJo!!

Since we are in full disclosure mode... I did not have the best of weekends... It started by my going out to dinner on Friday. I was ok at dinner, but managed to eat not one, but TWO pieces of garlic focaccia... I did not eat any other starches at dinner and had saved my starch from my afternoon snack so in reality, it wasn't too bad, but still... I should have stopped at one...

OK....when you said Full Dissclosure I thought you had uploaded some neked pics on PhotoBucket!!!! I was not looking forward to following suit if you were brave enough to do that!!!

You will be okay...and you did better than before and you excersized too...wee need to celebrate what we did do not what we didn't!!! I am talking loudest to myself here!!!

I have my JC appointment tonight and I'll know then what the damage was. On the plus side, I did get in a two mile walk away the pounds DVD before the game. I attempted the simple stretching w/ yoga poses bonus feature on the tape as well and basically made a fool out of myself because I couldn't stay focused to hold the pose.... What is up with the names of some of these poses? Did you know that if you merely stand up with your feet about hip width apart and line up your feet, hips and shoulders that you are in the "mountain pose"? All this time, I thought I was merely standing up... Give me time - I'll master both the mountain pose and the warrior pose in no time.... no matter how foolish I look doing it...

There is some good news to today though....

First - I start my aqua aerobics class tonight... (I'm sure there will be stories to tell tomorrow)...

and

THE GIANTS WON THE SUPERBOWL!!!!!!

Maybe I worked off my snacking while watching the game.... Does jumping up and down and screaming at the TV count as exercise????
Maybe
Have a good one everyone....
Goof

Glad they won....great ending and great inspiration about never saying never...your poses are awesome....

I am trying to master "Fat Lady Doesn't eat cookies..." It looks like a Fat Lady fighting off her own hand shoving a cookie in her own mouth... You stand in front of the sink...put your right hand up to your mouth with cookie and then take your left hand and pull at your right wrist away from your body....It is harder than you think because if you do not do it right...you can pull to hard and let go and then you hit yourself in the face with the cookie...which is not only painfull...it is a waste of said cookie... I have 2 black eyes due to this stance...they say it was only for advanced Yoga people...I guess I should have heeded the dissclaimer!!

Last week the spanx to the gym- LOL, who's to say the "others" are not doing the same thing. Not an option for me. The spanx push up my belly/gut fat and well it wasn't pretty before. I don't know how I would change out of the thing at the Y. There are mirrors everywhere.

If I tried to change it out...I may let go too soon and have my spanx shoot accross the room next and kill the attendant... I need to get your weight updated...will be done tonight!!! I am sorry...busy weekend!

Just jumping in to steal the 700th post from Grumps!

Yeah....steal the title and wear it with pride!!

 

[MunkyMe13]

I am so glad you posted the picture....you and your kids look beautiful...if I needed to have children lying on me to look thinner...I'd be adopting a village in Sudan!

Why do you think I wear Dickies and Carharts!!! Love the material that can be described as durable!!


So glad you took the time to be here...put a small goal before your trip....(Guys she is going to Dis and a cruise soon!!!!)....so you have something positive to reach for!!!



I keep thinking that I am the only person I know that needs to loose 100 pounds or more....then I come her and again remember that loving or hating yourself is a struggle for all sizes...loving your body and accepting it means not fighting with it but... fighting for it....


You have been a great addition to this thread...thank you for being positive...
Proud of you my Lil' Chicken poopster!!!



Getting car fixed....picking up kids form school early due to snow...billing....OH YEAH.....and water aerobics for 1 hour with MamaBearJo!!



Glad they won....great ending and great inspiration about never saying never...your poses are awesome....

I am trying to master "Fat Lady Doesn't eat cookies..." It looks like a Fat Lady fighting off her own hand shoving a cookie in her own mouth... You stand in front of the sink...put your right hand up to your mouth with cookie and then take your left hand and pull at your right wrist away from your body....It is harder than you think because if you do not do it right...you can pull to hard and let go and then you hit yourself in the face with the cookie...which is not only painfull...it is a waste of said cookie... I have 2 black eyes due to this stance...they say it was only for advanced Yoga people...I guess I should have heeded the dissclaimer!!






Yeah....steal the title and wear it with pride!!

Its hard to not be positive when there are so many wonderful people here! I am definately glad I found this thread... By far I post the most on this one. woohoo on water aerobics... my gym has it and as soon as I don't look like a beached whale in a bathing suit I will probably take it. BTW I am going to DL at the end of this month. Anyone want a nice motivational postcard from the happiest place on earth, PM me an address and you shall receive

 

[chbc]

Is there a website for this program?

Yes, Google couch to 5K. Gives a good intro. and then a weekly schedule.
The podcast free from itunes instructs you through the workout with warmup, time to walk at a brisk pace, now pick up the speen for one minute-this is how week one is. I'll look up the website and go back to itunes and give you better details.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Well - my rough week turned into a bad one.... I gained a little over two pounds this week.... I ate out way too much and lost control of my portions...

I am bummed to say the least, but I am off to my aqua aerobics class to kick some calorie booty....

I'll check in later tonight to see how everyone else is doing...

Right now I am off to swim... I may look like a beached whale, but I am going for the dancing hippo look from the original Fantasia. Those hippos may have been big, but they had STYLE!!!!

Ciao'
goof

 

[Dizneydawn]

Its hard to not be positive when there are so many wonderful people here! I am definately glad I found this thread... By far I post the most on this one. woohoo on water aerobics... my gym has it and as soon as I don't look like a beached whale in a bathing suit I will probably take it. BTW I am going to DL at the end of this month. Anyone want a nice motivational postcard from the happiest place on earth, PM me an address and you shall receive

Yes....it would be awesome...I'll p.m. you....speaking of which...

I need to get the Tupperware out to January winners....Week 1 was Hockey Kat....Week 2 was September Girl.....week 3 was MamaBear Jo and week 4 was Larry's girl......I believe this is accurate and true...which means Larry's Girl...p.m. me your address...Thanks!!!! And a huge applause for you 4 for all your hard work and motivation!!!

I kept saying I will add this weeks with next weeks and make 1 stop at the post office and here I am...needing to do all 4! It has been a crazy montth and I appologize for the delays in getting it out....but...it is nice in doing it all at once....so all is not lost I guess...

Hockey Kat....Where are you???? Are you home yet?? We miss you!!

Debbie...you alive Mon???

Well - my rough week turned into a bad one.... I gained a little over two pounds this week.... I ate out way too much and lost control of my portions...

I am bummed to say the least, but I am off to my aqua aerobics class to kick some calorie booty....

I'll check in later tonight to see how everyone else is doing...

Right now I am off to swim... I may look like a beached whale, but I am going for the dancing hippo look from the original Fantasia. Those hippos may have been big, but they had STYLE!!!!

Ciao'
goof

Do not get disscouraged...you fell yesterday so the residual the next day with salt and carbs is greater than if you weighed on Friday...it probably will be off plus some by next week. YOU ARE BETTER THAN YOU THINK!!! Thank's for your honesty.....I understand. Why do you think I won't weigh in until Friday??!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Do not get disscouraged...you fell yesterday so the residual the next day with salt and carbs is greater than if you weighed on Friday...it probably will be off plus some by next week. YOU ARE BETTER THAN YOU THINK!!! Thank's for your honesty.....I understand. Why do you think I won't weigh in until Friday??!!

Thanks buddy... I needed to hear that tonight....
I am trying not to beat myself up too much, but it is hard not to.

On the positive side, I survived my first swim class and lived to tell the tale... My friend who went with me even told me that my swim bottoms were too big.... I'm going with that as a positive thing and running with it... all the way from my couch to the 5k... (I am with all of you joggers out there... I just need the clearance from my doctor to run and I'll be there... until then, I'll be walking briskly from the couch to the 5k....)

Have a great night everyone and I'll talk to you soon. I am off to enjoy some chocolate cake... Oh yeah... gotta love the Jenny Craig desserts... they are awesome and totally on plan...

Paula

 

[3DisneyKids]

Paula--hang in there! Often times when you have a small gain, that just means a fairly big loss the next week...so bring your A game, girl...you OWN this week!

Dawn--OMG...I am sending you a bill...I swear to God I just spewed hot tea all over my comptuer screen at "unibo*b"! I am so using that one! Freakin' hilarious girlfriend!

I posted this link once before, but here it is again for those considering the Couch to 5K program...

http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

As I have said before...I have never in my entire life been a runner...not when I was skinny, not when I played competitive sports in high school and college...never. But with this program, for the first time in my life, I am running. It is wonderful and I feel so completely good afterwards!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Thank goodness this thread is a little livelier. I hate coming here and seeing nothing happening. Then I just stop trying.

This running program you guys keep talking about really sounds interesting. I'm gonna have to give it a go. (It'll be more than I am doing now!)

3DK, if you're not careful - you're gonna turn into one of "those" people. You know, the ones who jog for fun.

Congrats to all the Superbowl winners and weight loss winners.

My sympthy to all the Supberbowl losers and weight gainers. That is bound to happen, and now that it's out of the way, you can move on.

I am so inspired. Running. Losing weight. Maybe I'll ispire myself right off the couch. I need to get back to taking an Iron suppliment. I am so very tired this week.

I leave for DISNEY next week and my taxes are not done. My MIL is coming to stay at my house to watch the children. So, I need to do a deep cleaning and organized their weekly schedule. Pack myself. Read: Go thru closet and see what is presentable. In additional to all the regular work I do. I am so tired. I really don't see much exercise in my future, which sucks.

On a bright note, I am going to try out the eliptical machine at the resort gym to see if I want to take the plunge and buy one.

OK, gotta go. Glad to see all your posts.
LY MI

 

[3DisneyKids]

Thank goodness this thread is a little livelier. I hate coming here and seeing nothing happening. Then I just stop trying.

NEVER stop trying! We are here for you when you feel like quitting!

This running program you guys keep talking about really sounds interesting. I'm gonna have to give it a go. (It'll be more than I am doing now!)

3DK, if you're not careful - you're gonna turn into one of "those" people. You know, the ones who jog for fun.

Oh, the horror!

I leave for DISNEY next week and my taxes are not done. My MIL is coming to stay at my house to watch the children. So, I need to do a deep cleaning and organized their weekly schedule. Pack myself. Read: Go thru closet and see what is presentable. In additional to all the regular work I do. I am so tired. I really don't see much exercise in my future, which sucks.

Didn't know you had a trip coming up! Spill, girl! Where are you staying? And this is an adults-only trip? Now I am really jealous! What special plans do you have? Details....we need details!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Well - my rough week turned into a bad one.... I gained a little over two pounds this week.... I ate out way too much and lost control of my portions...

I am bummed to say the least, but I am off to my aqua aerobics class to kick some calorie booty....

I'll check in later tonight to see how everyone else is doing...

Right now I am off to swim... I may look like a beached whale, but I am going for the dancing hippo look from the original Fantasia. Those hippos may have been big, but they had STYLE!!!!

Ciao'
goof

LOL about the hippos... Don't get too discouraged.... We are all here for ya!!!!
We can all be the dancing hippos from Fantasia and bring sexy back!!

Thanks buddy... I needed to hear that tonight....
I am trying not to beat myself up too much, but it is hard not to.

On the positive side, I survived my first swim class and lived to tell the tale... My friend who went with me even told me that my swim bottoms were too big.... I'm going with that as a positive thing and running with it... all the way from my couch to the 5k... (I am with all of you joggers out there... I just need the clearance from my doctor to run and I'll be there... until then, I'll be walking briskly from the couch to the 5k....)

Have a great night everyone and I'll talk to you soon. I am off to enjoy some chocolate cake... Oh yeah... gotta love the Jenny Craig desserts... they are awesome and totally on plan...

Paula

grats on the water aerobics!!!!


Tonight at the gym was awesome! I went from my high of 2.31 miles to 2.35!!! not huge but huge for me... LOL! DH and I made low fat tacos and fat free refried beans... awesome dinner with lots of protein... I'm stuffed... Now I have some Cher going and I'm relaxing... Hope everyone else had a good night

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi Everyone....

Well its a new day and I am in much better spirits than I was last night. I am refocused, re-energized and ready to kick some weight loss butt this week....

Hope you all have a great day.

Munky - great job at the gym and with dinner.... it sounded yummy...

Talk to you all soon,
Goof

 

[Dizneydawn]

Thanks buddy... I needed to hear that tonight....
I am trying not to beat myself up too much, but it is hard not to.
I am with you on that front...Fit Day is starting over for me today....
On the positive side, I survived my first swim class and lived to tell the tale... My friend who went with me even told me that my swim bottoms were too big.... I'm going with that as a positive thing and running with it... all the way from my couch to the 5k... (I am with all of you joggers out there... I just need the clearance from my doctor to run and I'll be there... until then, I'll be walking briskly from the couch to the 5k....)
I also think I hear the call of the treadmill and the 5K...or it just might be the wail of the ambulance that will pick up my dead carcass of the ground when I set the treadmill too fast and my shoelace get's stuck and the contraption knaws my left leg to a nub. Do they have Couch to ER format???

Have a great night everyone and I'll talk to you soon. I am off to enjoy some chocolate cake... Oh yeah... gotta love the Jenny Craig desserts... they are awesome and totally on plan...
I need to go grocery shopping!!!!!
Paula

Paula--hang in there! Often times when you have a small gain, that just means a fairly big loss the next week...so bring your A game, girl...you OWN this week! I want to own too mommy!

Dawn--OMG...I am sending you a bill...I swear to God I just spewed hot tea all over my comptuer screen at "unibo*b"! I am so using that one! Freakin' hilarious girlfriend! You can borrow away as long as you give credit to your source...otherwise you can be charged with plagerbo*bing!

I posted this link once before, but here it is again for those considering the Couch to 5K program...

http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml Thanks again...

As I have said before...I have never in my entire life been a runner...not when I was skinny, not when I played competitive sports in high school and college...never. But with this program, for the first time in my life, I am running. It is wonderful and I feel so completely good afterwards!

I keep thinking this sounds sane...

Thank goodness this thread is a little livelier. I hate coming here and seeing nothing happening. Then I just stop trying.
We were waiting for you... !!
This running program you guys keep talking about really sounds interesting. I'm gonna have to give it a go. (It'll be more than I am doing now!)

3DK, if you're not careful - you're gonna turn into one of "those" people. You know, the ones who jog for fun. I know...what's up with them??? All fit and toned and only jiggiling with their unibo*bies in the sports bras? I guarantee I would be a road distraction for drivers...there would be soo much bouncing on this body that they would not know where to start or stop looking!!


I leave for DISNEY next week and my taxes are not done. My MIL is coming to stay at my house to watch the children. So, I need to do a deep cleaning and organized their weekly schedule. Pack myself. Read: Go thru closet and see what is presentable. In additional to all the regular work I do. I am so tired. I really don't see much exercise in my future, which sucks.

WHEN DID I MISS THIS ONE AND WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO STAY??? CAN YOU SEND US POSTCARDS TOO???? OHHHHHH MYYYY.... POSTCARDS FROM BOTH Disneyland and DisneyWorld.....it is as close to a Reeces as my mouth should go with Envygasms!!!
LY MI

LOL about the hippos... Don't get too discouraged.... We are all here for ya!!!!
We can all be the dancing hippos from Fantasia and bring sexy back!!
Who you calling a hippo.....I prefer metabollically challenged dolphin...Thank You!

grats on the water aerobics!!!!


Tonight at the gym was awesome! I went from my high of 2.31 miles to 2.35!!! not huge but huge for me... LOL! DH and I made low fat tacos and fat free refried beans... awesome dinner with lots of protein... I'm stuffed... Now I have some Cher going and I'm relaxing... Hope everyone else had a good night

Let's have a good day and a good night and a great week...I really have been soul searching about how I view my body and my lack of commitment to myself at times and I think that some of it stems from the perfectionist side of me....if I fail...I only have myself to blame and that would mean I am flawed. I mean why do I set myself up over and over that my ideas...my thoughts....my house...whatever is not good enough?? How many times to I start a conversation off with an appology?
Examples:
I just painted my living room but it didn't turn out that hot so don't feel obligated to say something nice about it.......I bought this new sweater but it looks like cr@p on me......I made a new dish tonight but didn't follow exactly the receipe so I am sorry if you don't like it.....etc...

Is anyone else out there understanding me???? I set myself up for peoples dissapointment because I can't be hurt if I am the one staging the game so to speak....I put the expectation of dissaproval out here before anyone else can so I am not hurt by their reactions or actions....I need to stop that because I deserve to be positive.
I am beautiful!!! I am strong!!!! I am a good person!!!

I am sorry if this has just .......there I go again....honest to gosh...that is my mantra...appologize to everyone and for everything....I was just going to say I am sorry if this bored you and has just been a waste of your life by reading my Oprah segment........but now I will just say if you didn't like it you can stick it...
okay I was kidding about that one!!!!

But you know what....I am glad I wrote this and if you don't like or empathize or sympathize with my feelings...I am glad you don't have the same dillemas and flaws I currently have and you should be glad too!

Okay....I will be on a mission to watch my "I am sorry's" and the like for today...and sto myself for appologizing or setting myself up for failure....

I will return you though to the evening news as this therapy session to myself has gone into Nightline!!!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi Everyone....

Well its a new day and I am in much better spirits than I was last night. I am refocused, re-energized and ready to kick some weight loss butt this week....

Goof

Glad to hear it! To Tuesday!

Tonight at the gym was awesome! I went from my high of 2.31 miles to 2.35!!! not huge but huge for me... LOL! DH and I made low fat tacos and fat free refried beans... awesome dinner with lots of protein... I'm stuffed... Now I have some Cher going and I'm relaxing... Hope everyone else had a good night

You have really got it don't you. Emotionally and Physically! Yay MunkyMe!

I keep thinking this sounds sane...

I KNOW. Me too. I'm sure I'll get over it!




Let's have a good day and a good night and a great week...I really have been soul searching about how I view my body and my lack of commitment to myself at times and I think that some of it stems from the perfectionist side of me....if I fail...I only have myself to blame and that would mean I am flawed. I mean why do I set myself up over and over that my ideas...my thoughts....my house...whatever is not good enough?? How many times to I start a conversation off with an appology?

I just painted my living room but it didn't turn out that hot so don't feel obligated to say something nice about it.......I bought this new sweater but it looks like cr@p on me......I made a ew dish tonight but didn't follow exactly the receipe so I am sorry if you don't like it.....etc...

Is anyone else out there understanding me???? I set myself up for peoples dissapointment because I can't be hurt if I am the one staging the game so to speak....I put the expectation of dissaproval out here before anyone else can so I am not hurt by their reactions or actions....I need to stop that because I deserve to be positive.
I am beautiful!!! I am strong!!!! I am a good person!!!

I am sorry if this has just .......there I go again....honest to gosh...that is my mantra...appologize to everyone and for everything....I was just going to say I am sorry if this bored you and has just been a waste of your life by reading my Oprah segment.....but you know what....I am glad I wrote this and if you fon't like or empathize or sympathize with my feelings...I am glad you don't have the same dillemas and flaws I currently have and you should be glad too!

Okay....I will be on a mission to watch my "I am sorry's" and the like for today...and sto myself for appologizing or setting myself up for failure....

I will return you though to the evening news as this therapy session to myself has gone into Nightline!!!

Dawn I know what you are saying. I am always apoligizing for my existance too. And I am a perfectionist. (If I put half as much energy into healthy living as I did in clean grout, I'd be a CoverGirl.)


As for my comment about coming to this thread and no action is going on so I "stop trying", I don't mean on healthy living. I mean, I stop looking here for more comments until I know there's a page or so. Sometimes we'll post 3 pages in 3 hours, somedays it's 2 posts per day. I hate those days.

 

[MunkyMe13]

I keep thinking this sounds sane...

Let's have a good day and a good night and a great week...I really have been soul searching about how I view my body and my lack of commitment to myself at times and I think that some of it stems from the perfectionist side of me....if I fail...I only have myself to blame and that would mean I am flawed. I mean why do I set myself up over and over that my ideas...my thoughts....my house...whatever is not good enough?? How many times to I start a conversation off with an appology?
Examples:
I just painted my living room but it didn't turn out that hot so don't feel obligated to say something nice about it.......I bought this new sweater but it looks like cr@p on me......I made a new dish tonight but didn't follow exactly the receipe so I am sorry if you don't like it.....etc...

Is anyone else out there understanding me???? I set myself up for peoples dissapointment because I can't be hurt if I am the one staging the game so to speak....I put the expectation of dissaproval out here before anyone else can so I am not hurt by their reactions or actions....I need to stop that because I deserve to be positive.
I am beautiful!!! I am strong!!!! I am a good person!!!

YES YOU ARE!!!!

I am sorry if this has just .......there I go again....honest to gosh...that is my mantra...appologize to everyone and for everything....I was just going to say I am sorry if this bored you and has just been a waste of your life by reading my Oprah segment........butg now I will just say if you didn't like it you can stick it...
okay I was kidding about that one!!!!

But you know what....I am glad I wrote this and if you don't like or empathize or sympathize with my feelings...I am glad you don't have the same dillemas and flaws I currently have and you should be glad too!

Okay....I will be on a mission to watch my "I am sorry's" and the like for today...and sto myself for appologizing or setting myself up for failure....

I will return you though to the evening news as this therapy session to myself has gone into Nightline!!!

I agree I also spend a lot of time appologizing as well. Also the whole setting up the dissappointment so no one else can dissappoint me... I am the queen of that. My DH won't shop with me because of it. Life is so complicated sometimes. I don't think your Oprah was too bad... LOL!!!

To a more powerful and confident us!!!!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Dawn I know what you are saying. I am always apoligizing for my existance too. And I am a perfectionist. (If I put half as much energy into healthy living as I did in clean grout, I'd be a CoverGirl.)

I get it...but for me...I even look at my house sometimes as a project I will fail at so that gets to be depressing so I don't start...I mean it is not a pit...but if I don't have time to do all the rooms that need to be done or even with my work if I feel I can't do everything that needs to be done...I procrastinate starting because it is just overwhelming and I always look at what I did not do.

I think I need to start with checklists so I can feel good about what I achieved for the day and just move what I did not get done until the next day...but actually checking off things might be a good thing for me...seeing results that my head won't allow me to see yet...my eyes can on paper.

I will do that today....make lists for the 3 areas of my life I want to see improvement...
Work
Home Life
Body

I will get to that as soon as I am done with my water aerobics again this morning....I WILL POST THOSE LATER!!!

As for my comment about coming to this thread and no action is going on so I "stop trying", I don't mean on healthy living. I mean, I stop looking here for more comments until I know there's a page or so. Sometimes we'll post 3 pages in 3 hours, somedays it's 2 posts per day. I hate those days.

I agree with you and I am a leading culprit...the days I do not post much are the days I feel again like I failed you guys...food intake...lack of excersize etc....so I abandon you all rather than dissapoint you all....again...

I will make the commitment to post morning...afternoon and evening when at all possible...at least take 5 minutes each time...journaling is good for the soul and keeps your concious clean....less guilt...because when I stay away due to bad choices...I have guilt compounding the original guilt of failing muself and you guys...AM I MAKING ANY SENSE AT ALL!!!???

I really care for each of you on here and I talk with you all more than my family members on most weeks...Thank you for being a family.

Chbc lost 2 pounds last week!!!!!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Okay...so here is a prime example of me being over analytical....I re-read and re-read my posts until I can get all the spelling errors I know of out of the post.

I know I miss-spell words I do not know the correct spelling of...that does not bug me....because if I don't know better I am not responsible...what bothers me is when I know I used a grammatical structure wrong or missed a key while typing or misstyped etc...I look and search until I get it right.

Honestly...my posts are maybe re-read and re-edited 5-8 times on the average.

Everyone else's miss-spellings don't bother me...just my own!

UGH!!!!!! I NEED TO STOP IT......IT TAKES UP SOOO MUCH TIME!!!!!