In Search of my Body...Not The One I Ate.. #4 "Inspiring Others... 1 Tiara at a Time"

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi guys! I am at 800 calories. 360 of them spent on 3 slim fast candy bars How pathetic is that.

I'd comment on your posts, but I don't have the werewithall. I'm in a funk. So there. (Not a funk you should be concerned about, just a normal Monday, the economy sucks, lot of news to ingest, funk.)

I love pop. Not the diet. I drink the diet cause regular is too many calories. EriKa has deemed it the Devil's Brew, so I guess I'll have to cut back.

I've never had a Fresca. What flavor is it anyway?

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I've never had a Fresca. What flavor is it anyway?

Oh my. Never had a Fresca? It's definitely....unique. It's kinda citrus-y....I only like the original though. They came out with some "new" flavors a couple years ago...a tangerine and some other hideous adaptations...those I won't touch.


Can I just cry now? The weather man was just on. We already have a winter storm watch posted for tomorrow night into Wed. Snow to sleet to freezing rain. quote: There will be cancellations...OMG. My kids will NEVER finish school this year.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

There will be cancellations...OMG. My kids will NEVER finish school this year.

Man - you can't get rid of your kids.

We are calling for ice, and I hope a delay happens, cause I always like 2 extra hours of sleep, but then they need to go. Go. Go. Go.

 

[HockeyKat]

47 and raining tomorrow here. Again. It has been gloomy here way too much lately.

I like Fresca but don't love it.

I am at 700 calories but have eaten dinner. Will likely snack again when I get home, and then maybe again when I get back from hockey. Working on the 200-300 calories every couple of hours routine, at least until my stomach gets used to this torture.

And Lyz, a good 75% of what I put in my mouth would be considered devil's brew by Erika. I got over that one a long time ago!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ok, the reason for the bad mood...the marathon is not goig to happen for me. I am really sad. Really. I have been working toward this and excited about it...and now it is not going to happen. I knew that there was a chance we would not be going, but honestly, I in my heart of hearts thought we would go.

Amy--I would SO appreciate it if you would do me a huge favor. If you could pick up my race packet and mail it to me, I would be so pleased. At least I can have the t-shirt and pin, etc. I will send you some money via PayPal so that you can ship it to me. Please let me know if you can pick up my stuff when you pick up yours.

So, that's the story. The reason why doesn't really matter. Hodge podge of stuff. Mostly guilt on Jeff's part. He can't stomach the idea of laying off half of his team then jetting off to Disney World. Which I understand and shows that he has character, etc. But the other side of this is that this was imporant to me, and to him as well. He was really excited to do this race. So, we're just sad.

I am going to search for another race, one within driving distance (or at least one that won't seem "extravagant") and we will do another race. But this race, this was my race. I don't really care about doing any other Half.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I am going to search for another race, one within driving distance (or at least one that won't seem "extravagant") and we will do another race. But this race, this was my race. I don't really care about doing any other Half.

I'm so sorry. You have been working so long and so hard....such a bitter disappointment.

I had to bail on the 1st half I was supposed to run, not quite the same - injury related, so I had no choice - simply couldn't do it....just sucks when you've worked so long both physically and mentally to prepare.

Maybe a small consolation here...but just think. Where were you one year ago today? And where are you now. I know you can run that 13.1 miles and YOU know that you can do it....you tried, and you succeeded. Nothing can take that away from you.

 

[amykab]

Erika, So So sorry to hear you won't make the race. I was hoping we could get together for a celebratory drink. I can most definitely get your packet. I had to do this for a stupid coirker for TOT. I think I need some kind of permission note from you, a signed waiver and a copy of your drivers license. Have to check on that. Maybe you could scan your license and email it to me? I know the waiver you get online, you could sign it and scan it in too.

 

[Dizneydawn]

E -
I am really sorry that you will not go...I admire Jeff and his determination to do right by others...it is just to bad it has to be right now..and after a year of fighting hard to be able to do something...

you though earned the respect of all of us...because you can do it like Nancy said..and so many other things you have overcame in less than one full year...you are a goddess because you can run the race...not because you did...

Paula - @ssless chaps..just sayin...

Lyz - dunk the funk babe...

Amy - great friend to do that for E...TY...

 

[lisaviolet]

Erika - speechless - so sorry -

 

[AKASnowWhite]

@ssless chaps..just sayin...

OMG. We were just talking about those very things at dinner. Not even kidding. We have some odd conversations around here....

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Nancy - I am crying for you. About school. OMG. NO. That is a nightmare! Children must be in school!

And Fresca - yum. I'll fight for it for you.


Lyz - Funk-a-rific huh? Well, better than eating a bag of Tositios. Right???


Amy - thank you for the prayers. OMG, do they help. Story below.

E - feels like AGES. Tomorrow? And sucks about the half. It does. Want me to go down with you instead?

Um, running out of remembering here.

Okay, Jodi. She, as you know, miscarried one baby but the other was fine. That was last Wednesday, last check. New Year's Eve. So Thursday, she's fine. Friday, she starts bleeding. Is bleeding all day Friday, and most of Saturday. We found out about my mom on Friday, so it was a bad weekend. Her husband took over, making plans, making sure I wasn't sitting home, and trying to be kind while they were suffering. Seriously, I burst into tears on the phone with him because they were trying to be good to me - ME! Meanwhile she is saying things like, well, we don't have to get a Wii now (because all people with kids have a Wii) and well, we didn't need to worry about Disney World (because he dreads it, and I said I'd take the kid). Black humor, and lots of "In 2008, your mom didn't have cancer and we were having a baby. We liked 2008". So we see them Friday and Saturday and Sunday Nick and he go to make beer, because I was like, we need more homemade beer! So we kept busy and kept close for the weekend, waiting for the doctor on Monday.

So today is the doctor. And guess what?

A freaking miracle. The baby is fine.

Honestly, this is the WORST story of early pregnancy and bleeding I have heard where the baby keeps hanging on. But it's just so AWESOME. Like, omg, okay my mom has to do this chemo and we just did this last year, but maybe Jodi gets to have a baby! And that's the good to offset the bad.

Seriously, we are all so tied, even my cousin feels like this baby is the universal balance. No pressure, kiddo.

So thank you a hundred times for the prayers for Jodi and for my mom. I so know that prayer works. Know it in every part of my being. So thank you all and I'm glad I have a bit of good news to report!


Also, don't make me break up with Diet Coke. Please. Don't.

 

[amykab]

Liz, that is awesome and amazing news!

I was going through xmas pics and someone got a picture of DD and the diet soda. I HAVE no idea where I was at this point.

And my niece and I in our edward shirts...

I just found another one...WTH was I?

 

[lisaviolet]

Okay - caught up - but most go prep.

Liz - so relieved to hear the good news for Jodi. Lovely.

Steph - so sorry about Sam. Wow, that's difficult to face the issues.

Lisa - Lisa your thoughts to me made me smile. I'm there. I've accepted my size really. Now. It was hard growing up being unable to be small as a child. Yes, I know I should have counted my blessings - but children are so into what's "normal" with their friends - unfortunately. Once in awhile I take a step back because my finishing weight could be someone's starting. But Amy has so healed pretty much of what sh!t was left. I appreciate my size now. And even if I didn't I would force myself to - I'm not going through the rest of my life wasting precious minutes on things I can not change. So thanks.

And Amy - love having you back. Love it.

Paula - on your day.

Nancy - I'm missing something. Does your board call off school and buses at the same time? Don't mind me I'm just confused about why all the school closures. We don't have a lot of snow here - surprsingly I know. But a lot of the times we are open in bad severe weather but buses are stopped. Forgive me Nancy - I think I missed a post somewhere. Sorry.

to everyone,

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

Wait!

Dawn - loved reading your post. Wow on Treynor (sp??? ). That's one smart boy you got there.

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

And....

I understood about Carsyn and the apprehension about getting out and his compassion but his frustration of having to be a decoy. I think I still do nonsense like that. And it's going to stop.

Because honestly I care more about being comfortable than I care about any weight loss. I've always said here "love now" - befores, durings and afters - they all deserve respect and love. I know it sounds cliche. But I won't waste time on this bullcrap that I do with not being this or that for one more minute.

Ah - prep is calling - thank God for you all - I saved you from another ramble.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Thanks, everyone. And Amy...I will scan and e-mail stuff to you tomorrow. Thanks so much.

And listen, about the diet soda. No, you don't have to break up with it. Not today. But maybe just start being aware of it, you know? Like really think about each time you grab for one. Same goes with artificial sweeteners in general. Just start by being aware.

And then just like when you first start tracking, you might be shocked by how much you actually consume.

It may be a long-term goal for you, to eventually cut way back.

 

[adsrtw]

Hey! Three full pages since this morning! What's up with that ~ again more catch up.

Why is it that I always have to be the bad guy at work 5 minutes before I have to leave?!? More to come there.

I stuck to my plan today. Didn't really get any exercise though, 2 days in a row, too sore.

Be back soon!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

E - I think you have more faith in me, sister.

Amy - OMG, the diet soda! So funny, in that thank-God-my-MIL-didn't-do-that way! Love the Twilight shirts. Rereading the series, on Eclipse. Obsessed!

Lisa, what's going on with the move?

Also, Lisa Runner, explain this tiara thing to me. I missed that. Being in a fog and all.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

EriKa - I am hurting for you. That doesn't help, I know, regardless. And Jeff is doing what makes sense to him and I understand it too. It's just horrible timing. Horrible. Nancy is right. Even if you aren't avaliable to run, you are ABLE to run.

The economy has me so down. Our local jobsite portapot supplier, tiny, one man operation came into my office today to ask for an advance on the one unit we have rented now. The total he was looking for was a pittance and I am just so bummed about that. What is this world going to look like a month from now. And this morning, Molli's orthodontist, (her braces are off now) shot himself. Was is money? Disease? I don't know at this point. But it could be the economy.

Enough of my funk rambling.

Liz - that is the best news about Jodi! I'm so happy for her. And my goodness, this is going to be the LONGEST pregnancy of your lives. Talk about pins and needles.

Amy - the pop to a baby, argh. I'm sure she wasn't given enough to ruin her teeth, but your mil shouldn't do that.

Liz - funny you should mention tostitos. I actually went to the store specifically for tostitos tonight. Ohio State is playing their bowl game and hubs called and asked for some, cause he knew the commercials would be tostitos, tostitos, tostitos.

Lisa - when the wether is too bad for busses, usually the whole school district calls off. Or delays the start for a couple hours, till it's safe for the busses. In Ohio at least.

I need to order an Edward T for Molli. She got a Twilight t from grandma for Christmas and LOVES it. Have I mentioned she turns 13 in 15 days! I am going to be a mother to a teenager! I can't even believe it.

Kat! 700 including dinner! Teach me master.

Paula - glad you threw out the remaining cookies. Can't wait to hear about your weigh in.

Hi to Everyone.

My dreadmill wouldn't start this morning. I figure it blew up when the electric went out couple days ago. I couldn't get that lucky. The safety wasn't in place. Good. I don't have a repair bill. Bad, cause now I have to get on.

Later girlies.

 

[adsrtw]

Nancy - I am crying for you. About school. OMG. NO. That is a nightmare! Children must be in school!

And Fresca - yum. I'll fight for it for you.


Lyz - Funk-a-rific huh? Well, better than eating a bag of Tositios. Right???


Amy - thank you for the prayers. OMG, do they help. Story below.

E - feels like AGES. Tomorrow? And sucks about the half. It does. Want me to go down with you instead?

Um, running out of remembering here.

Okay, Jodi. She, as you know, miscarried one baby but the other was fine. That was last Wednesday, last check. New Year's Eve. So Thursday, she's fine. Friday, she starts bleeding. Is bleeding all day Friday, and most of Saturday. We found out about my mom on Friday, so it was a bad weekend. Her husband took over, making plans, making sure I wasn't sitting home, and trying to be kind while they were suffering. Seriously, I burst into tears on the phone with him because they were trying to be good to me - ME! Meanwhile she is saying things like, well, we don't have to get a Wii now (because all people with kids have a Wii) and well, we didn't need to worry about Disney World (because he dreads it, and I said I'd take the kid). Black humor, and lots of "In 2008, your mom didn't have cancer and we were having a baby. We liked 2008". So we see them Friday and Saturday and Sunday Nick and he go to make beer, because I was like, we need more homemade beer! So we kept busy and kept close for the weekend, waiting for the doctor on Monday.

So today is the doctor. And guess what?

A freaking miracle. The baby is fine.

Honestly, this is the WORST story of early pregnancy and bleeding I have heard where the baby keeps hanging on. But it's just so AWESOME. Like, omg, okay my mom has to do this chemo and we just did this last year, but maybe Jodi gets to have a baby! And that's the good to offset the bad.

Seriously, we are all so tied, even my cousin feels like this baby is the universal balance. No pressure, kiddo.

So thank you a hundred times for the prayers for Jodi and for my mom. I so know that prayer works. Know it in every part of my being. So thank you all and I'm glad I have a bit of good news to report!


Also, don't make me break up with Diet Coke. Please. Don't.

Well, I am still not caught up, but I just had to respond to this one on it's own! OMG, how freaking awesome for all of you! It would be very hard for somebody to doubt the power at work here.

And as for Diet Coke ~ I think you more than deserve a Diet Coke break.