BirdLegsRed
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I never knew this board was here. I was exploring around today and found it.
My mom died on February 12, 2009 in an auto accident. She pulled out in front of a semi in front of her apartment complex. A friend called my son and told him a car like his grandmas had been hit, so he jumped in his truck and drove over there while I started calling her home and cell phone. When she didn't answer we drove over there too (we only live about 3 minutes from each other). I will never forget the car, the ambulance, just the whole scene of it. By the time we got there she was already gone.
My mom and I talked 5-6 times a day, every day. SOmetimes more. She was at my house almost every day. We were very close. I miss her so much! I just don't know what to do without her, everyone says it will get better with time but I don't see how. Every day is just another day without her, another day without seeing her and talking to her. I just don't know how to cope with this. I pray everyday about it, I know she is in Heaven, but I just want her back. When she first died I wanted to die too...I didn't think about my kids or my husband, I just wanted to be with her. I know I can't do that, and I won't, but thats how I felt.
Every day I think about the accident, and when I went to the scrapyard to clean out her car, how the car looked, and I wonder, what was her last thought, did she know she'd been in an accident? Was she in pain? They told me she had a faint heartbeat when they got to the car, so I know she was alive for a little bit. I just can't get these thoughts and images out of my head.
How do you cope? I just can't believe she is gone. Any advice on what I can do to help this pain, I would appreciate it. It just hurts so much!!!!
My mom died on February 12, 2009 in an auto accident. She pulled out in front of a semi in front of her apartment complex. A friend called my son and told him a car like his grandmas had been hit, so he jumped in his truck and drove over there while I started calling her home and cell phone. When she didn't answer we drove over there too (we only live about 3 minutes from each other). I will never forget the car, the ambulance, just the whole scene of it. By the time we got there she was already gone.
My mom and I talked 5-6 times a day, every day. SOmetimes more. She was at my house almost every day. We were very close. I miss her so much! I just don't know what to do without her, everyone says it will get better with time but I don't see how. Every day is just another day without her, another day without seeing her and talking to her. I just don't know how to cope with this. I pray everyday about it, I know she is in Heaven, but I just want her back. When she first died I wanted to die too...I didn't think about my kids or my husband, I just wanted to be with her. I know I can't do that, and I won't, but thats how I felt.
Every day I think about the accident, and when I went to the scrapyard to clean out her car, how the car looked, and I wonder, what was her last thought, did she know she'd been in an accident? Was she in pain? They told me she had a faint heartbeat when they got to the car, so I know she was alive for a little bit. I just can't get these thoughts and images out of my head.
How do you cope? I just can't believe she is gone. Any advice on what I can do to help this pain, I would appreciate it. It just hurts so much!!!!