I hate to kill the mood at such a wonderful board but I have always found comfort here. Tomorrow is the 1st anniversary of the death of my father. He was a great man and my best friend. I am trying to hold it together and keep my mind off of it but I know I will be a complete wreck. I am normally level headed and rational, but this is the kind of thing that can drive you crazy. I work at a childrens hospital here in delaware and I see sickness and death everyday and you have to stay even keeled for the patients sake. My biggest fear is that I will be doing a transport with a sick child and loose it tomorrow. I really miss him and I want him back. But I know it is what it is, but it doesn't make it any easier.