Gotta stop wasting my days journal

[BkrsLoveDis!]

Ok - so here I am - trying once again to lose weight.

My goal is to lose 55 pounds before our trip next year.

I need to do this for me, for my kids, for my dh . . . and so my parents will quit watching me everytime I eat - I know what they are thinking - "fat cow" - they actually offered to pay for one of the diets on TV for me. I have 3 college degrees - can't they judge me by what's on the inside? I know I'm overweight - I'm sorry that my efforts have only yielded a 30 pound loss since this time last year - I'm sorry that I'm so big that you haven't even noticed. Did I mention that my Grandfather's nickname for me was "fatso"?

I really am blessed in so many ways - I have a wonderful DH and DD and DS. I live in a great house (not huge or extravagant but great for us). I'm incredibly healthy for being my size.

But I got laid off from my teaching job and am anxious about next fall. I'm scared and frustrated and dumbfounded with what our world has become - our priorities seem so "out of whack." Perhaps I am naive or just old fashioned.

Well anyway - don't know how good I will be at posting regularly but here's a start at least.

Really gotta do it this time . . .

 

[sjms71]

I just wanted to say you can do it!!!! And first an foremost you need to do this for YOU!! I finally decided I was going to put myself first and make my health a priority. I started the end of October and I have lost almost 45 lbs. Are there days I "fall of the wagon" yes but the important part is instead of giving up like I did in the past I dust myself off and keep going, why cause I have to. I'm hoping to hit my goal of 72LBs. lost by my 40th birthday in March. Don't let others negativity get you down. I was in that place for the longest time and finally decided enough was enough. I eat healthy and walk 5 miles everyday. Anyway, just wanted to wish you luck .

 

[Zoesmama03]

You can do it. Do it for YOU!

Such a shame your parent's have to be so negative about it. I'm sure they have your best interest at heart but there are more positive ways of going about offering support. Having children leaves many of us with much different bodies than we had in the past.

1-2 lbs a week is the way it goes. Its very doable to lose 55 lbs in a year. I lost 40 lbs in 20 weeks with Weight Watchers in the past but I just can't afford the meetings and that is the accountability for me. For me it was having to go weigh in front of someone else, it surely was a motivator so as long as I kept getting to meetings it worked for me. I really wish I could afford the meetings.

 

[BkrsLoveDis!]

Thanks so much to you both for your words of support - it means so much to me!

I do have better days than others - obviously my first journal day wasn't my best, emotionally.

I too lost a good deal of weight with WW - as I mentioned in my journal, I'm actually down 30-35 pounds from my highest weight. But I too cannot afford it anymore - my DH and I are both teachers and while his contract was renewed, mine was not so just dealing with several different issues at the same time. Not seeking pity - I promise! Just being able to "talk" about it somewhere helps - the added words of encouragement are such a blessing and bonus!!!

Moving forward one step at a time!

Thanks again!
Cynthia

 

[Bibbidi]

Have you considered keeping a food journal? I am not working on losing weight, but rather on being consistent with my exercise--and I started keeping an exercise log and it really keeps me accountable. It's amazing how if you don't write it down, 3 days can go by and you won't even notice. I have my log on my computer, but you could just get a small notepad and write down everything you eat, how much, and when.

For my exercise log I record the date, type of exercise, length in minutes and for my walks/elliptical/bike I record the miles per hour as well. I also record "notes" of how I was feeling that day or things like weather that might affect my performance.

Good luck--it has to be something you want for you--and you can get there, but don't beat yourself up over an off day here or there. Just get back on the wagon and keep moving forward.

 

[sjms71]

I also do WW and although don't want to have to pay to go to meetings, for me there was no choice. I need the meetings and accountability. If you haven't checked out this site it's a great weightloss site, sparkpeople.com.