Hey Dani I'm still reading. I'm sorry that thinking about the wedding makes you sad because you focus on the things you didn't love about it...I totally understand though. But as a total outsider, I think there were many things that were lovely, and you were a BEAUTIFUL bride.
I had a happy Dani moment today. I popped on to the blog.disneyeventphotogray.com site and the very first picture to pop us was YOURS!! I love that picture and it's one of only four being featured right now...tell me that doesn't say something about how fabulous you guys looked!!!
I get what you mean though...the boards can be a double edged sword...very inspiring and motivating, but they can give you that sense of EVERYONE is doing X and I have to make sure that I book X right now or X will be gone and my wedding will be ruined!! But I think that you made good choices, even if they were a little faster and more spontaneous than is generally your nature...I also think it's kind of like shopping for the ring (or the dress....or the husband for that matter) once you've found one you love, you have to stop shopping or you'll keep finding other options and second guessing your choices...I think it takes an extremely confident woman to be able to keep looking at all the beautiful stuff that gets posted on here and not question her own choices. I haven't even started planning yet because I still don't have the damn ring yet!!! (ya wanna talk about depression??) but I can only imagine how overwhelming that will be once if finally happens. There are so many amazing weddings being planned and a million great ideas...I think in the end you make the best choices you can and focus on everything that made you happy and try and let the rest of it go.
Bottom line: I think you made great choices!
Hang in there!
Brooke