It would also be devastating to him, as he is overworked by his college-prep high school, hardly gets to go out as his school is online most of the time, and spent much of his childhood struggling to overcome autism. He deserves his vacations and so do I.
I'm already sick with a permanent non-contagious condition that will probably only get worse over time. My life has also been hard in other ways. I've learned to take what joy I can from life, when I have the opportunity. I am not going to cede those opportunities for months or years, because I've learned that the future is never guaranteed.