Cancer has taken a life that should of been left alone :'(

[skeeterbuge]

This boy in my school hes just a year younger than me hada fast moving leukemia cancer for 3 years last December. In December he was in remission but then they found he got it back 2 weeks before Christmas, he was in Childrens Mercy until early January and then he was in bad condition for the rest of the month. February was better but not for him he did go back into remission until the the beggining of June and just on the 12th they called Hospice in to his home to make him as comfortable as possible until he went to a better place!! At about 9:00 or a little after my dad sat me down to talk to me and said he got a text about 20 minutes ago (from that time) that he had passed away and is in a better place now. ='(

I cried for about 20-25 minutes in my room and then i have been teary eyed ever since!! :'( He was close to me not extremely close but somewhat!! I feel really bad for his family because he has a single mom he had NO conections to his dad (his dda didnt want a single part in his life) and he has a brother my age and then one who just grauated high school!!! where his mom worked at wouldnt let her off even if she ahd to take him to the hospital for and Emergency and so she could take off very offen and he was REALLY REALLY close to his brother that was my age!!

SOrry just had to VENT no one in my family really knows him but me and my dad does kinda but no much so had to talk to some one some where!!

 

[JulielovesDisney]

I'm so sorry for your loss honey. Cancer is such an awful, horrendous thing. Especially when it strikes so young. You all will stay in my prayers tonight. Be strong, and always remember you will see your friend again and that he's ok now, and he's not suffering. PM me if you ever need to talk. <3

 

[LittleMissMusical]

i know how u feel. i've had 2 friends pass from cancer... and another was just diagnosed at the end of may. it's a sad thing and it shouldn't happen. if you need some one to talk to you can always PM me

 

[skeeterbuge]

Thanks guys!! I miss him very much!!! I wanted to go see him this last week but his mom would only let people that he was really really close to and family see him!! So he wouldnt get scared because he wouldnt be there for everyone any more!! i did get to tlk to him on teh phone the yesterday night so it was better than not getting to talk to him at all!! He was a strong little person in an even stronger body fighting off cancer for 3 long year!!

 

[bananda]

im so sorry. you and his family will be in my prayers.

 

[imabrat]

i'm sorry, and for what it's worth, it won't get easier. i'm a survivor as well as someone who lost a few that are very close to me from this awful disease. it hurts, but the thing that helped me get through the deaths is that they are cancer free now, and they ARE survivors, just not here on earth with all of us but up in heaven with the angels. and that, even though it seems like it'll take a while, we will meet again in heaven. plus, they are alwaysssssss watching over us from up there. sometimes i can even feel them present. it sounds really weird but when it happens, you'll know

cry, but don't be sad because he wouldn't want you to be upset. be there for his family too! when i was sick, i lost some of my closest friends, and strangers caame out of the woodwork to help me and my family. it was amazing.

 

[HSMndLKfan92]

I'm so sorry.
Let it all out.

Back in September, a boy that was best friends with my neighbor died from an illness. Not cancer, but some sort of staph infection. I wasn't close to him. I just saw him in the summers in the neighborhood.

If you can, try to go to his viewing. A lot of people are going to be there, but it's a good way to pay your last respects.

 

[skeeterbuge]

Thanks againg everyone!! I planned on going to his visitation and his funeral so I could get to see him one last time even if it not the way I want to see him!!

=(

 

[skeeterbuge]

Visitaion is Thursday at the church and Friday morning is the funeral I will be attending both and probably crying too!! He was a strong little boy in a body that faught hard to stay alive for 3 1/2 long years!! HE was an inspiration to many, and a hero to more!! He taugh people how they should live there life, care free no matter what age you were!! A friend to many but he thought most people should be family to him so he called most of the people in the community that he was close to sister or brother!! but no one mom because he had one mom and only one mom that you could get no better than her he thought!! she did everything she could to keep him around as long a possible and make him comfortable when the time came!!! He had a dad that he didnt talk about much! he never saw him and when the time came about 2 weeks before he died his dad wanted to spend time with him but Austin (the boy who died) said no if u wanted to see me that bad you could come back another time!! His dad didnt see him for over 3 years!! now he wants to be the good dad and take care of his funerla arrangments and everything!! he didnt get to say his last goodbyes until a week before he was gone then he came back 5 minutes after he died and didnt think he would b to late!! he got a warning from his mom that he was going soon and if he wanted to say goodbye he needed to come right away!
He has two awesome brothers that does anything he wanted to do they would always be th first 2, to be ther and say i will do it with u know matter what it was!!!


i have been listening to crying for me and smile all morning long on my ipod and i cry everytime!! i cant even imagine how the family is doing!! i have talked to Austins brother tho and he just wishes it was all a dream!!

 

[MickeyisBeast]

I'm sorry
Cancer is really an awful thing. I've had a lot of family die of cancer):

 

[rockydek]

So sorry for your loss...I lost a friend from cancer when I was 7 years old and I remember how sad I felt.
Time heals ...you will remember the happy times you shared.

 

[DisneyRockstar]

I'm so ... Sorry for your loss. Cancer took my cousin last September, the same happened to her mom. There was a balloon in her hospital room that said "With god, anything is possible.". When she was the she told me she noticed the balloon went to another side of the room, I asked her who. And she replied, "Mommy". Cancer is really an ugly thing that is in this world. Nancy had a lot of courage before going through chemotherapy and radiation. Your friend is also a strong battler, because he took the challenge not alot of people do. He was strong till the end, and so should you. My condolences to you and your family and friends. Take care.

 

[skeeterbuge]

Thanks everyone AGAIN!! I just think he proved to me he was even stronger in life(even though hes gone!!)!! Last night i got informed that for the week and a half he had hospice in the house they gave him pain killers so he could be more comfortable!! His mom asked him from the time she got them every couple of hours if he needed one or not!! his answer all the way tell the end was " no mommy i dont need and pain killers!!" she said you have to promise me arent in ANY PAIN AT ALL he said "I promise you" his mom said if u r in pain u also have to let me know he said " yes mommy what ever makes you happy im fine i promise. "

Then on Monday night when you could tell he was going to be going sometime soon in less than an hour or so she asked if he was in pain he said " mommy yes im in pain!! but no im not taking any pain medicine!! "

everyone had said there goodbyes but his brother (that was my age) and he just got home from bb practice and the first thing his mom said to him was "son u need to go talk to ur brother" and then he had a friend with him and they picked up basketballs and started shooting hoops!! then she came out about 10-20 minutes later and said to everyone that was out side " who ever hasnt said there goodbyes needs to come do it now!!" all his brother did and his friend was still shoot hoops!! Abotu 2-5 minutes later his friend was heading toward the house and said come on we need to say something!! so his brother followed his friend inside and once he saw Austin he fell to the floor!! his arms and legs were numb, he started hyperventalating and Austin tried to get the strenghth to get up and see what was wrong with Nick (the borther my age) and all and all nick kept saying was "i wish this was all a dream he cant go without me" then they got nickcalmed down just enough to say his last goodbye and for austin to whisper to him that " its okay that im going i will look over you and mommy needs you here to take care of her"



i started crying when i heard that last night!! and then the basketball team here made a video of austin over the years since hes got cancer and when i watched that is started crying too!! Nick was talking to me earlier and all he said for a while was "i wish this was all a dream this cant be true i want to wake up from this horrifying dream" i stried to hold it back then to stay strong from him just like Austin would have if it wasnt him that died!! i did stay strong until he left then it was hard not to cry and he told me later on the computer that Austin looked up to me as a role modle!! then really started crying but he couldnt see me so i was good there!!

sorry its so long!!

thanks again everyone!!!

 

[skeeterbuge]

I just got back from my walk and when i was on it i walked passed the church hsi visitation is in tonight and they were carrying him into the church and the casket resebled him so so much and all i could do was cry!! it was so sad!! i was meeting my dad at the church his visitation is in because im helping him set up for a slide show and Austins family just got there so we couldnt go inn caz they havent seen him since monday night and they wanted some time before it all started to go and see him before everyone else got there and they told me I could go in with the family to see him before it started but i had my brother with me and so i couldnt go in with him being with me!! =(

then i drove with my mom by where they are havin they candle lighting tonight to raise $$$ for Austins family and they are painting a picture of him on one of the sides of a building in town and it says forever in my heart!! it was awsome i will post pics sometime once its done!!


R.I.P Austin

 

[skeeterbuge]

Well part 1 of this journey is over with!!!!! Just got back a little bit ago from the visitation and well........it broke my heart to see him that way but........ik its for the better and he isnt in any pain!! i walked in the room and say his mom up by his casket and just cried because i could just see the tears running down her face!! so i sat down because i knew if i went up there when his mom was up there i would really cry badly!! so i waited tell she sat down and tehn i went up there i just had tears running down my face!! when i finally decided to go up the song " cryin for me" came on and it reminds me so so so much of him so that made me cry even more!! He was in slacks and a light blue shirt then on top of that he had a KU tie on!! He was a die hard KU fan!! he had a KU blanket in his casket with him that he got back in December when he was really sick around Christmas time!! He was holding a cross in his hands along with a necklace that he always wore and never took off that his brother gave him!! didnt matter if it matched or not he wore it!! he had a fishing pole in his casket with him also because that was his favorite hobby he would do it any day even if he was really sick thats wat he wanted to do!! He had good family support on it too both of his brothers went with him everytime!! well at least one of them.....

well.......now if i can make it through tommorrow!!