Jealousy just takes over my life. I can't be here. I just, can't. I'm so jealous of these people, Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus, their just living the life I want so incredibly bad. Not the money, not the fame, just, what they do! It's taking over my life! The simplest things just, set me off somehow. I keep listening to Selena Gomez's Fly to Your Heart music video, it's just..I want that! I just am SO frustrated right now. I don't want hugs. I don't want you guys to tell me I can do it if I put my mind to it, because I CANT. It's because of my family. If I could get away from them, I would. Their just so unsupportive its crazy. If you even knew how uncaring my mother is, you would be blown away. All she cares about is her STUPID computer and her STUPID weight problems. We're tight on money right now, and thats another reason. I'm afraid if we do anything to help me with this, it would cost hundreds of dollars that we dont have. AUGH. I need to vent. Really, really bad.