Kathryn, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I recently went through (actually, I'm STILL going through), a serious medical problem with my husband. Just when things looked their worst, it started to turn around. Please don't give up hope, and lean on anyone and everyone you can. A shared burden is always lighter. Please let me know if there is anything I can do, or if you just want to vent. There are many wonderful people on the DIS, and I can't tell you how many PM's I got from virtual strangers. They always seemed to come just when I needed them. Take care of yourself, please.