One of the things that I struggle with in becoming more active is the fact that, for me I wasn't ever really encouraged to be athletic. I remember doing gymnastics in elementary school- I could walk home afterwards because we lived down the street, but when I began middle school I couldn't do after school sports because there wasn't anyone who could consistently pick me up and drive me home. Plus I came from an Italian family where women weren't athletic, men were. So while my brother took the State and then New England Division titles in Wrestling, I sat on the sidelines and watched. Which got me into great shape for scorekeeping for the Wrestling team while I was in high school, for all four years. While my friend from elementary school went on to compete in gymnastics in high school and then college, I became a lump of inactivity- moving my wrist to record a 2 point takedown wasn't much of a workout. In my mid-30s I began weight training due to a degeneration of my cervical bones which pinch the nerves in my back. I loved how strong I felt at the time, but I have to admit, all the praise from a personal trainer of how this was the perfect form of exercise for me and that if I put my mind to it and burned the fat I would be in great shape--even through all that there has always been something in the back of my mind telling me I will never be able to accomplish athletic goals, so why bother. And even though I walked the half marathon in 2005 and finished and have the medal to prove it, why do I still feel like I don't really deserve it? I eventually stopped working out completely, due to major life changes and now I'm back with pinched nerves, flabby muscles and the proof that I'll never be an athlete so why bother? I know I need to work on this. I know that I can have what John Bingham refers to as adult onset athleticism. I have to remind myself that it will only come when I work at it little by little. I have to remind myself that it won't come overnight. And I have to tell myself that men aren't the only ones who can be active and participate in sports activities. When I think of the time I've let go by, it makes me want to cry. I was thinking about all this when I went for a walk this morning and came home discouraged cuz I only did one mile. Well you know what- I did a mile and that's a start. Do you feel like you can't do something because someone may have led you to believe you couldn't? Do you feel like you won't lose the weight because people have made you believe you can't? I'm starting to realize, whether we believe we can or we believe we can't, we are right.