Can I please be the voice of reason here and tell you not to go? Sure you want to go and the kids want to go, and that is understandable, but you are stressed and miserable. This won't be a good vacation and you'll spend every penny, which you may need in the near future considering the situation. And I'll bet your kids are also stressed. Everyone will enjoy this a lot more a month or even a year from now when all of this is behind you. Worry about making yourself safe and secure for now.