I needed to write or say this to people who would actually understand. So here's te backdrop.... I never went to Disney as a child, my Disney magic came when I was the mother of two girls who felt the needs to finsih a wish for my father who passed away suddenly. He became a Disney fanatic as an adult and kept trying to buy my daughters tickets and convice me to take them and I put it off...making the usual excuses (too young, can't take time off, too much money...you've heard them). He passed suddenly and the loss was horrific along with what I thought was guilt, but I think in some way it was a calling ...I booked a Disney trip to finsih what he had tried to start...and that was 6 trips ago. I learned that you cannnot measure, count or explain Disney magic. It is felt, breathed in, embracing you in the essence of what childhood dreams are made of. Connecting with you kids in way that you never have before - free to be a kid again along side them. We sing, dance, laugh, shout with joy, talk to total strangers and pass on Disney magic wherever we can. This past year was another tough one. I'll spare all the details but - started a new job, lost my furry friend of 15 years that broke our hearts and was told that I will need a full knee replacement at my ripe old 44 years of age after suddenly not being able to walk without excessive pain. I've finsihed gel injections in the knee but still in pain. And...here is where I need to know I'm not crazy...I have another Disney trip planned. I want to experience the magic with my fast growing teens who still love it. I know it will hurt, that I am not going to be as fast and that there may be times, I really may not be able to handle the walking, but I want to go. I know...there are scooters...but I just don't want to miss or change the way we have experienced the magic. I will endure more injections and bring the giant brace just to go to have this magic with my kids because those moments carry me through and live with me. I'm told this trip may hasten my trip to the operating room. Thus...leads me to: Crazy or Not?