I am so discouraged. I have been seeing the personal trainer 2x a week for an hour where she kicks my butt. Great overall toning, cardio, the works. I am sore the next day. I've been running short distances 2x week due to the weather. This month I have run about 25k so far. I'm really watching what I am eating. Small portions, watching calories, making good choices. No junk, no pop, few processed foods. My scale isn't budging. I am so frustrated! I am putting so much effort into losing weight and it isn't working. I haven't lost anything since November and have in fact gone up a few pounds because of Christmas. I am sitting at about 247. How can I be working so hard and still so freaking overweight?!?!? How do other people lose big weight?!? Other than cutting my calories down to 1200 or 1500 I don't think there are very many more changes I can make that would be sustainable. I was tracking my food and keeping right on target. I try to eat small frequent meals, I watch my sugar, carbs and fat. What is the point of all this effort?!? And to think that someone may look at me as an overweight person and judge me to be lazy or stupid about food choices seems so stupid. I am working so hard at this, I really want to make it work, I want to run, I want to be smaller, but it seems to be out of my reach. I don't want to accept the fact that I am overweight and unathlethic but clearly I am not meant to be anything else. I am Sisyphus pushing a big freaking rock that is me. So upset. Excuse the rant.