I think I just need to write this stuff down. Early in February, my 93 year-old mother was dignosed with atrial fibrillation. (she has congestive heart failure, had a triple bypass 8-9 years ago and has a pacemaker) She was quite short-of-breath and her arms & legs were so weak. They changed one of her meds & scheduled her for a cardioversion for 2/19. A few days after starting the new med, she developed diarrhea. She had the cardioversion done and still battled with the diarrhea. (she stopped taking that med) It got so bad, that we took her to the ER on 2/21. She was admitted and she's been there since then! She was dehydrated & her potassium levels were "dangerously high", so they pumped her full of fluids. So then she got a fluid overload. Her lower legs & feet swelled up something awful! Then on Tuesday (3/2) when a nurse and an aide were getting her back into bed, one of them bumped her right lower leg and it split open. There was a lot of fluid, very little blood. Her own doctor saw it about 24 hours after it happened and called in a surgeon to look at it. The surgeon has ordered a "wound vac" placed on it to suction off more fluid. She says she's so weak. One day she's kinda chipper, the next she sleeps a lot. We were hoping to bring her home, but she has agreed to go to Rehab for a few weeks. She can't stand on her own, so I can't manage her at home. I need her to be able to transfer from her bed, to wheelchair, chair. I work early mornings, then I go to the hospital, then I come home and go back for dinner. Occasionally, another family member will take the dinner "shift". One of my sisters usually goes in the AM, hoping to catch the doctors on their rounds. I thought it was getting difficult, having her at home - getting up with her during the night - always making sure someone else was with her when we went out. We even hired someone to come in when I worked. This is so much harder! I'm hoping that once she's at Rehab, that I will relax a little. The big guilt for me: she is also "malnourished". We knew she was losing weight, but it didn't occur to me that she was eating so little. She's eating really well at the hospital. I hope she keeps that up. And at 93, I wonder how much time she has left.