So, due to a vacation next year, and to be healthy in general, my sister has invited me to do a weight loss challenge and I accepted. I have gained a significant amount of weight in the last couple of years. I will admit that I do cringe when I look in the mirror or see photos of myself. That said, this would be the 3rd or 4th time in my life, I have attempted to lose weight. Each time, I am successful and each time I gain it back. I know this sounds awful, but honestly, I feel happier when I am not losing weight. I like being able to eat whatever I want. I don't know if this is a normal thing, or just me, but I am absolutely awful when I am on my weight loss missions. I mean, yes, I get momentary excitement when I actually lose the weight. I stress out. I am anal about the calories I consume. I stress when I am somewhere and don't know the calorie content. I lash out at my friends and family when I have a weight plateau. I have crying fits in stores when something does not fit when I think it should. It makes my family and friends miserable, because they are constantly walking on eggshells around me, plus they don't have healthy eating habits either (which would make things a whole lot easier), so they are always talking about how they have to go through the extra trouble of making sure there is something I can eat. As it is now, if something doesn't fit, I am like.....big deal, and I go up in size and don't even care. I do not eat a lot, honestly. But, I like being able to go to a restaurant and get the meal I want without crunching the numbers in my head and nearly having a breakdown in the process. I like the fact that if I miss 3 or 4 days in a row at the gym, I don't feel like I might as well just give up. Pep talks? Suggestions?