Hi ladies, sorry to have vanished (again). Have had a lot going on.....some good, some bad, and some just downright ugly.
I'll try to keep it as short as possible, so here it all is in a nutshell....... (Sorry, didn't succeed at keeping it short)
The Ugly: Right before we left for our mini-vacation of four nights in Chicago, staying at a hotel that is literally kiddie-corner across the street from DD's apartment, she let us know that she does not trust us to be alone with Zoe. What?!?
We had plans to keep her with us in the morning for a few hours, twice, and to walk (
scooter for me, DH pushing the stroller) to the American Girl Store one day, maybe the
Lego Store, or maybe the park...all of it located less than a mile from their apt. Suddenly, she says she is worried about what could possibly happen anytime Zoe is out of her sight. What?!?
Apparently, this does not apply to the nanny or other Gma. In fact, DD did say it would be ok to take her as long as the nanny went too. (DD would be working) To say the least, I was/am devastated. Now we have to be supervised? I was sooo looking forward to spending alone time with my grand baby, but we ended up canceling the trip.
I don't understand what brought this all on. I am never by myself with Zoe, DH is always there too. Yes, he even changes diapers. It has taken me the past month to even begin to come to terms with this. In the end, I know what is most important is to have a relationship with Zoe for as long as I can, so we dutifully follow the rules. Went to visit when we got back from California. DD was working at home that day, but the nanny was still right there to supervise.
To say I never would have thought that DD would do this is an understatement. But she has hurt me very much, and I'm still trying to get over it. Or at least deal with it, or accept it, or whatever it is I'm supposed to be doing.
The Bad: Tumor markers went from 350 in April to 850 last month. Don't have results from today's appointment yet. I am also being sent for a chest X-ray that will hopefully help explain my shortness of breath. CT scan after that. My oncologist mentions the possibility of starting up chemo again.......I'm pretty much against that, but I will listen to what he has to say at next months appt. ugh.
The Good: 34 years ago when DH and I were married I had a Camero. Loved that car but had to give it up when DD was born, needed something practical. So it's always been a pipe dream to someday get another sports car......until now! On a somewhat spur of the moment thing, we went and bought a Mustang!! It's bright orange, and we are going to have white stripes put on. Plenty of power too, I might add. Talk about giving the old bucket list a good kick!
The Very Good: our trip down the California coast. We started in San Fran and slowly made our way to SanDiego and Coronado. It was two weeks of awesome. Driving thru Big Sur is absolutely breathtaking. Managed to squeeze in a few days at DL, lots of good times there! San Diego, Coronado especially, remains the favorite place I've ever been, spent four days pretending I lived there. I seriously told DH he could just spread my ashes right down the coast, and to be sure to save plenty for Coronado.
I'll have to get a separate post put up with more details, just as soon as I figure out again how to post pictures.