My DH, Bob, and I had been planning our upcoming trip for the last year. This trip was to be a celebration for Bob's 50th birthday, we were happily planning everything to include a very dear friend, Sue, who shares Bob's May 5th birthday. Last week my whole life changed, I came home to find Bob had unexpectedly passed away in our home. The last week has been very difficult, coming to grips with the sudden loss of my soul mate. Initially I decided not to take this trip, but, my in-laws, friends and my daughter have encouraged me to take our trip and celebrate Bob's life in the place that he loved the most. I modified our trip and canceled the first three days where we had planned our first stay at the Polynesian complete with magic kingdom view. This part of the trip was meant to be a romantic getaway before our friend Sue joined us. I just could not bring myself to do that part of the trip without Bob, so instead I am going to be staying with my daughter at the Hilton Orlando. When Sue and her son fly in on the May 3rd we check into Bay Lake Tower for a week. The plan is to pay tribute to Bob on what would have been his 50th birthday, by releasing balloons in Epcot, and dining at his favorite place, Le Cellier. My head tells me that I have had a wonderful nine years with this man; three years of dating and six of marriage...but my heart is broken. Disney was truly our happy place, we have had two Disneyland trips, six Disney World trips, and one Disney Cruise. Bob was so looking forward to this trip and future trips where he could have shown Disney to our grand-daughter, Emma, who is only 4 months old now.