I was going to post this in the solo thread, but I thought it was something I could use all people's opinions on. Growing up, and even still, my dream was to find a nice man and get married and raise a family and live happily ever after. However, I am very opinionated and stubborn and pig headed, and some time ago, I came to the realization that.....could I put up with someone's quirks and all my pet peeved, breathing loud, chewing with their mouth open, falling asleep on the couch but not relinquishing control of the remote- for 40 years? It seemed that my life alone would be much easier than being stressed and annoyed most of the time for the rest of my life. But, I can't deny that....I still have dreams where I have a little baby inside my belly, and I wake up wanting to bear a child so bad it hurts. And, I listened to "I Dreamed a Dream" about 25 times this morning, while I cried a bit. I will also add this: I am attracted to men, I am. I don't have a "type." I like them tall, short, brunette, blonde, any eye color, muscular, gangly. I don't necessarily have a personality type either, in the sense that sometimes I like charismatic and outgoing and sometimes I like quiet spoken and shy. However, their personality definitely affects how attracted I am to them. Bearing in mind that I don't have one specific type, when I watch the TV, movies, sports, news, whatever, I always seem to find someone I am attracted to. Whether they are athletic, educated, political, musical, nerdy, kind-hearted, I always find someone I am super intrigued by, wizard and muggle alike. But, in real life, I cannot find anyone I am attracted to. Not a single one. Mostly, it is by virtue of their personality. They act like idiots or jerks or whatever. Sometimes, it is that I am simply not attracted to them. Which is not to say that they are ugly; it could be someone that everyone in the room finds handsome and attractive, and I just.....don't. Why can't I find someone that attracts and intrigues me as much as the people I will never meet, sometimes even fictional people....? And, is this a sign, that maybe marriage just isn't for me? Has anyone else gone through this?