Commando v. Casual - The Innate Planner Battles the Inner Pirate - 2-8 P22

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  1. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    Agreed. They're so awesome, I wish there was more than one in each park. :thumbsup2

    So true.

    I've had a hard time with Illuminations ever since my mom passed. I have very specific, very strong memories of having dinner in Italy at Alfredo's and watching that with her. We had this amazing waiter who would let us take our glasses of wine out with us to watch Illuminations, and then we'd come back and continue our meal. It's a longer story than that, but I even remember one time my mother telling me that sometimes Illuminations was hard for her because she would think of all the people she'd watched it with in the past, some who had passed on, and some who were just father away than we'd like them.

    That always stuck with me.
     
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  3. Lady Lallie

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    Happy Anniversary!!! :lovestruc
     
  4. LookinUp

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    Happy anniversary, you two! :love:
     
  5. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    Thank you!
     
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    Happy Anniversary! Hope you get to do something fun!
     
  8. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    Thank you! That graphic is so dang cute!

    Thank you very much! It's rather rainy up here, so I'm thinking instead of going out, we'll stay in. Actually, my sister and her husband sent us a bottle of champagne when we bought the house, and we've yet to open it, so tonight seems like a good time!
     
  9. Nermel9

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    Happy Anniversary, Have a great night! :cool1: Wish the weather was a little nicer for you guys! :goodvibes
     
  10. Charleston Princess

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    I hope you had a lovely anniversary!!!
     
  11. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    Thank you! We thought about going out, but with all the rain, opted to stay in. :goodvibes

    Thanks, CP! :goodvibes
     
  12. oOJulieOo

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    Joining in!

    I think I'm finally settled enough to consistently DIS again, so I'm going to get caught up on your TR...
     
  13. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    JULIE!!!!!

    :welcome:

    Oh, I am so happy to see you! Well, you know what I mean. How are you? How is the baby? How is Switzerland? I am so full of questions, spill, spill!!! :goodvibes
     
  14. KatMark

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    Kat, I'm so sorry I missed your anniversary. I hope you and DH enjoyed the champagne and had a nice evening.
     
  15. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    No worries, thank you for the well wishes! By the time we got the kiddos in bed, we were exhausted, but it was a very nice evening nonetheless.
     
  16. lauralong81

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    Been having major disney withdrawals and we don't know when we're going back, so I hopped on the boards to suck in some disney magic.

    Thank you for an AMAZING, enlightening, uplifting, thoughtfully written PTR and TR. I read through your entire PTR last night and started the TR this morning while my kiddos were still in bed. Reading about your mother and how you have really grown through the entire situation has really made me feel I can take on anything that comes my way. You are such an inspirational person with such an amazing outlook on life. I cannot say enough - good for you for taking an incredibly rough situation and turning it into a growing experience.

    I look forward to hearing the rest. :)
     
  17. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    :welcome:

    I think we have plenty of Disney magic here for you to draw in, so enjoy, enjoy, enjoy!

    Wow.

    I'm really humbled by what you just wrote. When people say things like that to me, whether on the DIS or in "real" life, I always think, really? Am I really all that?

    And a bag of chips? :lmao: Old joke.

    Anyway...thank you so much. What wnoderful words you've bestowed upon me, and I hope that I live up to half of it! I look forward to writing the rest and having you along for the ride, and I'm in awe that you read the PTR in one sitting! Wow. You must REALLY want the Disney magic. :hug:
     
  18. TarzansKat

    TarzansKat Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

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    Kleenex Alert - I cried writing this one. Just sayin'.

    “Don't worry, Woody. In just a few hours you'll be sitting around a campfire with Andy making delicious hot Schmoes.”

    This particular movie quote, and its response, which is the title of this chapter, never fails to crack up my family.

    Especially me.

    Delicious hot Schmoes! :lmao:

    Anyway, I use it to introduce to you exactly what my six year old had on his mind once he’d finished his lovely Casey’s meal.

    Buzz Lightyear!

    On the way there, we stopped at the pretty little walkway between the Crystal Palace and Main Street and I took some more photos of the boys in front of the castle. It was just too good to pass up.

    Although my inclination would be to head to Pirates of the Caribbean straight away, faster than you can say TarzansKat Loves Captain Jack, shall we say, this trip wasn’t really about my inclinations. And although there was a moment, that will come much, much later on, in which I was indulged in a particular inclination, this trip was mostly about my kids.

    And even moreso, mostly Nemo. Although I had some ideas in my head of specific things I wanted to do with Squirt, like his first character meet and greet, and things like that, Nemo is the child who is old enough to voice his opinions, and voice them he did!

    We headed over to Tomorrowland and determined the stand by line for Buzz to be too long. I don’t remember what it was, just that I wasn’t willing to wait in it. We convinced Nemo that the best thing to do would be to get fast passes, and that we could come back later and not have to wait in the big line.

    He liked this concept.

    So we headed over to one of my Tomorrowland favorites, the People Mover. You know I can call it that now because they officially changed the name back to the Tomorrowland Transit Authority People Mover. Some of us remember the Wedway People Mover. Ah, memories.

    Anyway, this is one of my favorite rides, and I can’t pinpoint exactly why. You know as I’m sitting here thinking about it, I don’t even really want to try to describe it. It’s just one of those things that is quintessential Disney to me.

    We took our obligatory People Mover photos, it’s a must do for my family to take photos on this ride every year, and I of course took a photo of the baby in one of the pitch black tunnels. You can call me a little bit of a sadist, but I love the wide, doe eyed look they get when it’s pitch black in there, and I happened upon it one year by taking a picture of Nemo by accident, and ever since, I just can’t resist. It’s so stinkin’ cute.

    Anyway, after the People Mover, Nemo and MJS wanted to check out the wait time for the Speedway, so we headed over there. I think it was about twenty minutes, and we agreed that Nana and I would take the baby, and they could go race cars. Nemo loves this ride. I remember how it made me feel as a kid, so grown up to be driving my very own car! He has such an awesome time on there, I couldn’t say no to him. So Nana and I amused ourselves with a leisurely stroll into Fantasyland and back, and by the time we got back, the boys were done.

    On our way back over to Buzz, we discovered the stand that sells the HUGE Disney inflatable balls. And someone was quite, quite enamored. It was so cute to see the baby go absolutely nuts, because he loves to play with a bouncy ball at home, and for him to see this huge one, his eyes lit up like you wouldn’t believe!

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    I know I’ve said it before, and you’ll probably get sick of me saying it by the end of this trip, but it’s these unplanned moments that are so amazing to me. That when Squirt saw that huge ball, he was so delighted, so mesmerized, he had to stop and play for a few minutes. And that something so simple can make my baby squeal in delight and laugh and giggle and smile…it just warms your heart. I think babies and children have a certain kind of joy that we lose as adults, and maybe if we get it every now and then, we’re not as free with it as they are. There’s more freedom in youth than we think, and sometimes I wish I could be more like my child, wondering and delighting over something so simple. I guess that’s one of the reasons I love these vacations so much. Because there, in the World, I am. Wondering and delighting over these simple, stolen moments.

    We spent a little bit of time fooling around at the misting station as well, the one with the rocket ship on top. It was neat to see MJS take the baby in there, and Squirt’s face as he thought, what is this on me? The mist was so fine, but when Squirt came out, he was covered! It dried quickly and he enjoyed it but you could tell he was a little perplexed. We had to coax Nemo to go in, but once he did, he squealed with delight trying to avoid getting hit too hard, so to speak. It was so sweet. Again, one of those little stolen moments I just love.

    After our fun and tomfoolery, it was time to redeem our fast passes and so we headed on over to Buzz and his delightful Space Ranger Spin.

    I have to tell you, flat out, this ride is very nostalgic for me. I knew Nemo would want to ride it and I knew I’d love taking Squirt for the first time, but I also knew it’d be pretty hard.

    Buzz was my Mom’s favorite Toy Story character, and she loved, loved, loved this ride. It’s even hard for me to talk about her loving it in the past tense, as though I expect her to go in it with us, just like that dream I had where she came with us on the trip. It was another one of those moments where I just sort of marveled that it was still there, that life was continuing on. And I got to the part in line where Buzz is talking, and all I could think of was how many pictures we’d taken in front of him. Of Nemo as a baby, of my Mom with Nemo, of her saying, to infinity, and beyond!

    You know when you lose a parent, and you’re going through many of the things that follow afterwards, your brain is sort of numb. And when you get to the point where you’re picking out a floral arrangement to place beside your mother’s casket, and the florist wants to know if you’d like to write the card, you stand there, and stare at it. All I could think about was how much I didn’t want to be writing that card. About the baby growing in my belly, about my son at preschool, about my husband at work, going on normally, and me feeling like I was dying inside because my mother was gone.

    So I did the only thing I could do with my brain so numb and my heart going full throttle on sadness. I turned to Disney. And wrote the only thing that I could think of, the thing that I knew would make sense to her and to me, not caring who read it or saw it.

    Dear Mom,
    We love you. To infinity, and beyond!

    Because I really do feel that someday, I’ll get to see her again. Beyond. And my love for her is so infinite, that was the only way I could describe it. With words from Buzz.

    As much as I feel my mother in the town I grew up in, in the house I grew up in, in places that are familiar at home, oh, did I feel her right there in that spot. And part of me still wishes that I could go back through time and that she’d be standing there…

    I’ve missed her so much these past couple of weeks. Nemo just finished school, he’s now officially done with kindergarten, and while watching him play outside the other night, I couldn’t help but miss her even more. One more milestone that we can’t share. And I don’t know, to me, finishing kindergarten made me even more weepy than him starting, because next year he’ll be in first grade and going full days, and that’s really such a grown up thing for my little boy.

    And I wish Mom was here to share it with. Much like I wished she was physically there on our Disney trip, wished I could turn that clock back.

    Even though I know how much I’ve learned since then, how profoundly this loss has changed my life, I still want her back. Even though, in dying, she has given me so, so much. It’s something I talk about with my therapist (for those of you who are new to my reports, I willingly admit I’ve needed therapy since my mom passed as her passing was extremely untimely and traumatic) about. Both sentiments, though conflicting, can be true. I can want my mother back and I can admit that my life has changed for the better by experiencing this loss. It’s hard to hold both things in your heart and feel like you’re not betraying your loved one. Feel like you’re honoring their memory. But everything I do that involves me living life, really living it, not just going through the motions, that, I think is honoring my mother. Because we do channel our inner Dorothy (Mom loved the Wizard of Oz, especially Glinda) and follow that yellow brick road.

    And right now, that road was leading me on Buzz Lightyear.

    Nana and I rode together, and the boys all went in the vehicle ahead of us. I have to say, it was really fun to ride with Nana. I maneuvered the vehicle so that we could get as many points as possible, but I am not the best Buzz player. I’ll admit it. I don’t even remember what my ranking was, because honestly, although I was playing, I was also busy watching the baby watching the ride, and it was really neat to see.

    As we disembarked, we took a look at the ride photos and had a good laugh at the baby staring at everything, and all our serious game faces.

    Now that we’d tackled our favorites in Tomorrowland, and it was getting to be rather late in the evening, the question was, where do we head next?


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  19. eandesmom

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    So beautifully beautifully said. Methinks you have a very good therapist, you've come so far. It's amazing what the right one can do (freely admitting having had more than one lol).

    I love your little moments, and the fact that you can realize they are moments when they happen. That right there, is a gift.

    I'm picturing Squirt covered in mist, perplexed, as I type and it makes me smile.
     
  20. All7OfUs

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    Hey TK, I"m here, but traveling. As soon as I get time to catch up after I get back after Wednesday, I'll read everything and get up to speed here :)
     
  21. oOJulieOo

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    I don't even know what I could write that would do this chapter justice, so I won't even try.

    :hug:
     

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