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Old 10-12-2012, 02:09 PM   #1
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Unhappy I don't want to go to Disney World........

I don't want to go to Disney World.. I don't even know why I wanted to go in the first place. I just feel like my past has just disappeared and I was put here on earth yesterday. I feel like an object and feel like crap every day. I don't understand everything any more. I am always in a bad mood and feel like I've ruined my reputation somehow.

I can't even walk around the stupid block w/o feeling like i'm going to die from a heart attack. I was in sooo much pain it was unbareable and it was only from walking around the block down and uphill. My head is empty 24 and I don't know what to do with my self. I can't work because I can't concentrate any more. I forget things and I just get aggravated on the smallest thing.

I feel everything on my body. I can feel my *** 24/7 and it hurts. My mom gets me annoyed cuz she just doesn't understand me. and what i am going through. I just feel like there's no one nice on this earth because everybody treats me like crap, in elementary school, hs and even college. I feel different from everyone. I just don't want to live any more and I certainly don't want to go to Disney world because I don't know what fun is any more. I don't feel present. i feel like an object, "i'm just here," i can look at the wall all day and don't care.
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Old 10-12-2012, 02:38 PM   #2
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I don't want to go to Disney World.. I don't even know why I wanted to go in the first place. I just feel like my past has just disappeared and I was put here on earth yesterday. I feel like an object and feel like crap every day. I don't understand everything any more. I am always in a bad mood and feel like I've ruined my reputation somehow.

I can't even walk around the stupid block w/o feeling like i'm going to die from a heart attack. I was in sooo much pain it was unbareable and it was only from walking around the block down and uphill. My head is empty 24 and I don't know what to do with my self. I can't work because I can't concentrate any more. I forget things and I just get aggravated on the smallest thing.

I feel everything on my body. I can feel my *** 24/7 and it hurts. My mom gets me annoyed cuz she just doesn't understand me. and what i am going through. I just feel like there's no one nice on this earth because everybody treats me like crap, in elementary school, hs and even college. I feel different from everyone. I just don't want to live any more and I certainly don't want to go to Disney world because I don't know what fun is any more. I don't feel present. i feel like an object, "i'm just here," i can look at the wall all day and don't care.
Please reach out to a professional soon for help. Best wishes to you.
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Old 10-12-2012, 04:10 PM   #3
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Its hard because my mom just blames all the aches and pains on me being over weight and she doesn't think medication ever helps. It's sad and irritates me into being sooooo freaking angry it's not even funny any more.

All she says is "take advil" it does nothing for me. I took over 6 advils yesterday and it does absolutely nothing.
I have nothing in my head. Every time I get an idea my mom puts me down like i can't take a laptop to wdw ebcause she says it will get stolen from our room.
she drives me insane but i don't know how to live on my own. i have no friends nobody. My mind is black like I don't even have a brain any more like it's empty all the time.
i don't like anything any more because stupid people/companies and have to change things. I don't adjust to change easiuly as the next person, i get attach to something
and if it changes I go balistic cuz it's extremely hard to find something i like. like it doesn't exist. Happiness doesn't exist any more. My mom used to be my favorite person in the world but now she is just a big pain in the butt
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Old 10-16-2012, 07:43 PM   #4
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Its hard because my mom just blames all the aches and pains on me being over weight and she doesn't think medication ever helps. It's sad and irritates me into being sooooo freaking angry it's not even funny any more.

All she says is "take advil" it does nothing for me. I took over 6 advils yesterday and it does absolutely nothing.
I have nothing in my head. Every time I get an idea my mom puts me down like i can't take a laptop to wdw ebcause she says it will get stolen from our room.
she drives me insane but i don't know how to live on my own. i have no friends nobody. My mind is black like I don't even have a brain any more like it's empty all the time.
i don't like anything any more because stupid people/companies and have to change things. I don't adjust to change easiuly as the next person, i get attach to something
and if it changes I go balistic cuz it's extremely hard to find something i like. like it doesn't exist. Happiness doesn't exist any more. My mom used to be my favorite person in the world but now she is just a big pain in the butt
Hunny please seek help. Don't let anyone including your mother make you feel less then. You seem really depressed and there is help out there for you. Hugs to you.
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Old 10-16-2012, 08:01 PM   #5
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I just feel angry most of the time, and aggitated in the head.
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Old 10-16-2012, 08:03 PM   #6
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I agree with everyone here.

You are MORE than a person, we all are.. I am not sure of your age, but I would definitely see the Dr. ALONE. This is a personal appointment, and most are not as candid with their mother there.

My heart goes out to you not getting the support you need from her. As a mother myself, it is heartbreaking. Have you had an open heart to heart with her about it? Letting her know how much she hurts you?

Age and size to me are just numbers. We are the person we are. You can be 20 years old or 88, 100 pounds or 600. That doesn't have an inch of reflection as to who we are. I agree with others about an endo. The thyroid has such an affect on our bodies..

I am sending you the most loving hugs and often think about you throughout the day.
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Old 10-16-2012, 09:09 PM   #7
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I agree with the others about talking to the doctor alone.

I read on your pretrip report you are a graduate from college, that means you are of a legal age to talk to the doctor by yourself. You need to open up to the doctor about all these feelings you are having. Did you tell them that you felt like dying and all the other feelings you are having? That would make the choice of the proper medications a lot easier.
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Old 10-12-2012, 04:33 PM   #8
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Its hard because my mom just blames all the aches and pains on me being over weight and she doesn't think medication ever helps. It's sad and irritates me into being sooooo freaking angry it's not even funny any more.

All she says is "take advil" it does nothing for me. I took over 6 advils yesterday and it does absolutely nothing.
I have nothing in my head. Every time I get an idea my mom puts me down like i can't take a laptop to wdw ebcause she says it will get stolen from our room.
she drives me insane but i don't know how to live on my own. i have no friends nobody. My mind is black like I don't even have a brain any more like it's empty all the time.
i don't like anything any more because stupid people/companies and have to change things. I don't adjust to change easiuly as the next person, i get attach to something
and if it changes I go balistic cuz it's extremely hard to find something i like. like it doesn't exist. Happiness doesn't exist any more. My mom used to be my favorite person in the world but now she is just a big pain in the butt
Please get help. You can call 1-800-543-7283.
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I'm so sorry you are in so much pain.
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Old 10-13-2012, 02:32 PM   #10
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I wish I could come along side you and tell you everything will be ok. Your first step should be to pick up the phone and make an appointment with a doctor who has not seen you before. Ask your physician for a referral if you have to. Sometimes getting a whole new "eye" on a health problem can get better results. My dh would have died if that had not happened for him. The doctor was treating him for a lung problem when actually he had Lyme Disease and an autoimmune disease. Just remember you do not need to walk this path alone. If nowhere else, please stay in touch here.
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Old 10-14-2012, 01:18 PM   #11
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I think you should seek some professional help.

I am sorry you are going through so much, but there is help fore everyone. Sometimes it is the people closest to us, that don't understand what we are going through..

Have you seen another Dr? Perhaps 2nd or 3rd opinions? I went through so much pain a few years ago, and 2 Dr's told me there was nothing, it was in my head. As it turns out, it was far from that. I knew I wasn't crazy, and kept working at it.

You are not alone.
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I will pray for you and pease get help if you need a friend you can direct message me your contact info, if u need someone to listen to u let me know.
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Just wondering how you were doing OP..
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Just wondering how you were doing OP..
i'm doing "okay" got a DR's appointment tomorrow. Gonna see if i can get some antidepressants or something to help
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Check back in with us after the doctor appointment. I'm hoping for some answers for you.
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