My mom...

[Luv0fDisney]

My mom makes me feel bad. She's constantly always putting me down saying that bigger people have trouble making friends if at all, and those who are over weight only "think" they have friends.

It makes me upset when she says this. "Everyone wears jeans" BS. I know not 100% of the world wears jeans... She's constantly putting me down and I can't take it any more. I'm literally in a cross bind.

I suffer from major depression and can't live on my own, but living here at home is making me crazy when my mom says these stupid things and when I say I can't she goes into her annoying positive attitude "Yes you can" blah de dah. I literally can't. and she wont hear it. "People don't hire over weight people" so i said I got hired for the movie theaters and the telemarketing job, and I was the same size," and she went "oh it was luck."

Anti depressents don't work. Drugs don't work. etc.
I am sooo aggravated with her it's not even funny. I just am at the crying point and I don't care about anything or anybody any more. I really don't want to go to Disney World with her any more because she's always putting me down. But w/ history I can't go because "you need a friend to go with you." I can't go any where by myself other then my aunt's house. I feel trapped and its because of her. I can't go to MA because my BROTHER had an incident. I am NOT my brother. "You need experience" she says. Well how am i going to get experience if she won't let me?

I know I'm 25 but i'm at the boiling point where i'm confused. I'm not sure what is bad or good, appropriate or inappropriate. Argh. I want to scream and hang myself literally. I have no friends and having my parents put me down makes me feel 100x worse.

every day when i wake up , i always am thinking when am i going to go to bed?
i just needed to vent.

[LittleMissMagic]

Do you live at home and have to spend every day with your mother? Are you financially capable of moving out - or can you work out a deal with your parents so that you can move out? If so, get out of the house! Don't live with someone who is constantly putting you down... even if it is your own mom. Living on your own will force you to get out there and meet new people and make friends.

If you can't live alone, look for roommates - I know a lot of apartment communities will assign you to a roommate if you request. My friend found roommates... believe it or not... on Craigslist (we joked about them being weirdos, but they're actually really fun people who he's become great friends with)! Search the classifieds for people wanting roommates.

Do you work? Attend school? A good way to make friends is to take a class (art? dancing? welding? There are tons of classes for all interests available!) or volunteer (there are also many volunteer opportunities for a variety of interests). Get out there and meet people! It might be scary at first, but a lot of people are scared - just smile and introduce yourself - there's nothing to lose!

People who are overweight only think they have friends? That is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard. I know you don't believe that nonsense. You shouldn't believe that nonsense - because it's not true!

I think I'm missing the backstory on the "everyone wears jeans" scenerio. However, I can assure you that everyone does not wear jeans. I have a friend who hasn't worn jeans for at least the past ten years. He only wears khaki shorts or pants. He doesn't like the way jeans feel.

[Luv0fDisney]

i'm missing the jeans thing too. I like to wear comfortable clothes like skirts.
I went through something in college that made me very wery of people and trusting people. i don't have $$ to move out and don't want to have a roommate. I just am soo confused these days. I get out of the house almost every day but I just don't know what to do.

I just am sick of her saying this and that but I don't know where to go. I'm just 25 yrs old and feel like i'm 25 going on 59. . I don't know whats up or down any more. just tired.

i just don't have the confidence to meet people. I suffer from major depression and ptsd and have trouble with things. I feel like I know people but just don't recognize their faces when I see complete strangers. I know it sounds weird.
i also think about what people think of me all the time. It didnt use to be like this though.

i just am so confused about life in general.

[JVL1018]

Your mom is full of it.
My best friend is very overweight and she is, hands down, the MOST social and has the most friends, out of all of our group. She's never met a stranger, she is the person who gets in an elevator and comes out chatting away with the people on it. Everyone loves her. She is a professional and has never had an issue getting employed.

I am sorry you are having such a hard time with depression and your mom isn't helping. Pease continue trying to get help, talk to someone, something will work, eventually. Please don't do anything to harm yourself!!!

Once you are able to get a job, your social situation should improve-and for now what about meetup.com or something like that? Like match.com for friendships..

[Nancy for Disney]

I assume you are in therapy. I am not sure why your therapist is letting you live in such a toxic environment.

[cousinbb]

pshhh your mom. Just because you may be overweight doesn't mean you can't get friends or a job. Those things are based on your attitude towards things.
I personally am not overweight, but I have many friends who are! And they are my BEST friends. And I'm friends with them bc they make me laugh and I can talk to them about anything. I don't care in the least bit what they look like.
Also, they have great jobs. One works in a office, the other a nanny.

Don't let your mom bring you down darlin. Have you talked to her about how she is making you feel? Maybe she doesn't realize it. Maybe something else in her life is bothering her and she is unconsciously taking it out on you?
Heck with drugs. Those things are stupid and arn't going to help you. Try reading encouraging books like the Chicken Soup for the "whatever" Soul. Don't hang or kill yourself. That doesn't help. There are people out there that care for you <3 I don't know if you are part of a religion or not, and I'm not gonna force this on anyone (no flames plz), but I am a Christian and praying and talking to God helps me.
And hey, you are allowed to cry, vent, and scream. Let it all out! It's ok -hugs- I don't know if I helped any or not, but please don't give up on yourself. Look for something positive to think about.

[Luv0fDisney]

I try to tell her how i feel but she makes me even more aggravated and aggitated... She just doesn't see what I feel...
So i put flyers up in Stop and Shop and someone keeps taking them down and she just says "Don't deal with strangers?" ***?
everyone is a stranger? How am i supposed to live life if i don't interact with strangers? Since No one will hire me because i'm fat, how am i supposed to get $$ to buy stuff because right now they pay for my credit card but i feel it's like "you don't own anything." they used to not care but i just feel soooo bad about my mom putting me down all the time. I want to kill myself badly....
I don't want to live like this... my mind is blank and i feel numb all the time, nothing makes sense to me.
She doesn't take me serious. Everything is a huge joke to her. I started crying on thursday after grey's anatomy. I was upset with my own life and she just said "its probably because of whats on tv." It wasn't because of the show. It's just a show. I could care less. It's this she doesnt take serious. She wants me to be like my cousins. It's not fair. And when i ask her about it, she denies it.and when i tried to argue it's "Go away." "Get away from me."

I hate my life.

[leebee]

Please get some professional help. Your mind is in a dark and dangerous place, and you need a professional to help you get better. Major depression can be treated, but you need a trained counselor, psychologist, or psychiatrist to help you get past this. Venting on a message board might make you feel better because it relieves immediate pressure, but it's not going to help you GET better. PLEASE find help... call a hot line, go to the ER, something. You can't do this alone, and the "experts" here really cannot help you, either.

[RadioNate]

Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

I believe this OP is hurting, no matter what ID she is posting under. However, I will just say, again. GET HELP. Help IS out there. You need professional mental help.

One day at a time but you have to start today. Only you can change your life.

[Sgt Mickey]

Only YOU can change your life. It seems like your mom might be going through something herself and for what ever reason seems to be taking it out on you. I am sorry for that

Please call and get help. Your life won't change over night but eventually you will realize your life can be what ever you want it to be.

It sounds like your first big step will to be get away from the negativity.

[The Mystery Machine]

Drugs can help you. Now they are not going to cure you however they can make life managable so you can work and have your own money.

Are you on disability? If you cannot work due to your condition you can get on disability. However that takes work and filling out papers and a doctor to help you in that direction.

My point is that YOU have to get yourself professional help. Medications have come a long way in the last few yrs. Jump back in the game and try to get help.

If you feel like hanging yourself again, please go to the emergency room.

[happygirl]

Originally Posted by Luv0fDisney

My mom makes me feel bad. She's constantly always putting me down saying that bigger people have trouble making friends if at all, and those who are over weight only "think" they have friends.

It makes me upset when she says this. "Everyone wears jeans" BS. I know not 100% of the world wears jeans... She's constantly putting me down and I can't take it any more. I'm literally in a cross bind.

I suffer from major depression and can't live on my own, but living here at home is making me crazy when my mom says these stupid things and when I say I can't she goes into her annoying positive attitude "Yes you can" blah de dah. I literally can't. and she wont hear it. "People don't hire over weight people" so i said I got hired for the movie theaters and the telemarketing job, and I was the same size," and she went "oh it was luck."

Anti depressents don't work. Drugs don't work. etc.
I am sooo aggravated with her it's not even funny. I just am at the crying point and I don't care about anything or anybody any more. I really don't want to go to Disney World with her any more because she's always putting me down. But w/ history I can't go because "you need a friend to go with you." I can't go any where by myself other then my aunt's house. I feel trapped and its because of her. I can't go to MA because my BROTHER had an incident. I am NOT my brother. "You need experience" she says. Well how am i going to get experience if she won't let me?

I know I'm 25 but i'm at the boiling point where i'm confused. I'm not sure what is bad or good, appropriate or inappropriate. Argh. I want to scream and hang myself literally. I have no friends and having my parents put me down makes me feel 100x worse.

every day when i wake up , i always am thinking when am i going to go to bed?
i just needed to vent.

Your mom is a real piece of work. Don't listen to her.

[Mkrop]

Good advice and you need to believe in yourself and seek out the proper help, the first med or the first dr you see do no always have the answers.

Since you want to get out of the house even for a short period of time, how about joining a gym, or seeking out excercise classes through your rec dept. Or just get out and walk. It gets you out of the toxic environment for a bit, it can help clear your mind or help you sort things through while walking and it is excercise, it may not make you lose a ton of weight, the walking that is, but it may help you just FEEL better.


Good luck OP, I wish the best for you