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Luv0fDisney 10-12-2012 03:09 PM

I don't want to go to Disney World........
 
I don't want to go to Disney World.. I don't even know why I wanted to go in the first place. I just feel like my past has just disappeared and I was put here on earth yesterday. I feel like an object and feel like crap every day. I don't understand everything any more. I am always in a bad mood and feel like I've ruined my reputation somehow.

I can't even walk around the stupid block w/o feeling like i'm going to die from a heart attack. I was in sooo much pain it was unbareable and it was only from walking around the block down and uphill. My head is empty 24 and I don't know what to do with my self. I can't work because I can't concentrate any more. I forget things and I just get aggravated on the smallest thing.

I feel everything on my body. I can feel my *** 24/7 and it hurts. My mom gets me annoyed cuz she just doesn't understand me. and what i am going through. I just feel like there's no one nice on this earth because everybody treats me like crap, in elementary school, hs and even college. I feel different from everyone. I just don't want to live any more and I certainly don't want to go to Disney world because I don't know what fun is any more. I don't feel present. i feel like an object, "i'm just here," i can look at the wall all day and don't care.

ccgirl 10-12-2012 03:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Luv0fDisney (Post 46426344)
I don't want to go to Disney World.. I don't even know why I wanted to go in the first place. I just feel like my past has just disappeared and I was put here on earth yesterday. I feel like an object and feel like crap every day. I don't understand everything any more. I am always in a bad mood and feel like I've ruined my reputation somehow.

I can't even walk around the stupid block w/o feeling like i'm going to die from a heart attack. I was in sooo much pain it was unbareable and it was only from walking around the block down and uphill. My head is empty 24 and I don't know what to do with my self. I can't work because I can't concentrate any more. I forget things and I just get aggravated on the smallest thing.

I feel everything on my body. I can feel my *** 24/7 and it hurts. My mom gets me annoyed cuz she just doesn't understand me. and what i am going through. I just feel like there's no one nice on this earth because everybody treats me like crap, in elementary school, hs and even college. I feel different from everyone. I just don't want to live any more and I certainly don't want to go to Disney world because I don't know what fun is any more. I don't feel present. i feel like an object, "i'm just here," i can look at the wall all day and don't care.

Please reach out to a professional soon for help. Best wishes to you.

Luv0fDisney 10-12-2012 05:10 PM

Its hard because my mom just blames all the aches and pains on me being over weight and she doesn't think medication ever helps. It's sad and irritates me into being sooooo freaking angry it's not even funny any more. :(

All she says is "take advil" it does nothing for me. I took over 6 advils yesterday and it does absolutely nothing.
I have nothing in my head. Every time I get an idea my mom puts me down like i can't take a laptop to wdw ebcause she says it will get stolen from our room.
she drives me insane but i don't know how to live on my own. i have no friends nobody. My mind is black like I don't even have a brain any more like it's empty all the time.
i don't like anything any more because stupid people/companies and have to change things. I don't adjust to change easiuly as the next person, i get attach to something
and if it changes I go balistic cuz it's extremely hard to find something i like. like it doesn't exist. Happiness doesn't exist any more. My mom used to be my favorite person in the world but now she is just a big pain in the butt

okw2012 10-12-2012 05:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Luv0fDisney
Its hard because my mom just blames all the aches and pains on me being over weight and she doesn't think medication ever helps. It's sad and irritates me into being sooooo freaking angry it's not even funny any more. :(

All she says is "take advil" it does nothing for me. I took over 6 advils yesterday and it does absolutely nothing.
I have nothing in my head. Every time I get an idea my mom puts me down like i can't take a laptop to wdw ebcause she says it will get stolen from our room.
she drives me insane but i don't know how to live on my own. i have no friends nobody. My mind is black like I don't even have a brain any more like it's empty all the time.
i don't like anything any more because stupid people/companies and have to change things. I don't adjust to change easiuly as the next person, i get attach to something
and if it changes I go balistic cuz it's extremely hard to find something i like. like it doesn't exist. Happiness doesn't exist any more. My mom used to be my favorite person in the world but now she is just a big pain in the butt

Please get help. You can call 1-800-543-7283.

DisneyFan32WI 10-12-2012 07:54 PM

I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. :grouphug:

pwdebbie 10-13-2012 03:32 PM

I wish I could come along side you and tell you everything will be ok. Your first step should be to pick up the phone and make an appointment with a doctor who has not seen you before. Ask your physician for a referral if you have to. Sometimes getting a whole new "eye" on a health problem can get better results. My dh would have died if that had not happened for him. The doctor was treating him for a lung problem when actually he had Lyme Disease and an autoimmune disease. Just remember you do not need to walk this path alone. If nowhere else, please stay in touch here.

mommasita 10-14-2012 02:18 PM

:grouphug: I think you should seek some professional help.

I am sorry you are going through so much, but there is help fore everyone. Sometimes it is the people closest to us, that don't understand what we are going through..

Have you seen another Dr? Perhaps 2nd or 3rd opinions? I went through so much pain a few years ago, and 2 Dr's told me there was nothing, it was in my head. As it turns out, it was far from that. I knew I wasn't crazy, and kept working at it.

You are not alone.

mjperry 10-14-2012 10:00 PM

I will pray for you and pease get help if you need a friend you can direct message me your contact info, if u need someone to listen to u let me know.

mommasita 10-15-2012 01:53 PM

Just wondering how you were doing OP..

Luv0fDisney 10-15-2012 02:45 PM

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Originally Posted by mommasita (Post 46451549)
Just wondering how you were doing OP..

i'm doing "okay" got a DR's appointment tomorrow. Gonna see if i can get some antidepressants or something to help

pwdebbie 10-15-2012 03:10 PM

Check back in with us after the doctor appointment. I'm hoping for some answers for you.

mjperry 10-15-2012 03:29 PM

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

mommasita 10-15-2012 08:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Luv0fDisney (Post 46452144)
i'm doing "okay" got a DR's appointment tomorrow. Gonna see if i can get some antidepressants or something to help


I hope it goes well, and like others have mentioned, We are just a message away if you need to lean on a shoulder.

:hug:

mrsksomeday 10-16-2012 12:26 AM

Good luck at the appointment tomorrow.

Luv0fDisney 10-16-2012 11:32 AM

everything seems unusually bright. I have no thoughts in my head and I just want to die.

i went to the dr's appointment and cuz the dr didn't agree with my mom, my mom called him an idiot on the way home. OMFG. He said he knew a lot of people who are over weight and happy. I'm not one of those happy people. i just feel like i'm wasting my life away. i feel stiff all the time. I weighted 256 with my clothes and crocs on which means i might be 253/254 w/o the crocs. i was like in the 60's a few weeks ago

i had blood work done a month ago, there might be something with the thyroid. but i honestly don't think it will show anything with my luck.

i just feel like i'm not a person but an object.


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