365 days of healthy choices... Year #3 starts with post 356, comments welcome!
Today the scale read "E".:scared1:
Ummm, OOOOOOPs! that isn't good! I have been dieting my way to the heaviest I have ever been. Now that my home scale says "E" for error, I know it is time to get things done. I am too heavy for my home scale! :sad2: I have had so many reasons to get healthy: live for my kids and hubby, health scares, vacations, goals and dreams. I keep putting things off, procrastinating has been a way of life for me. I can't do that anymore. I NEED to do this for me. I am too embarassed to put a number out there to let you know my starting weight. Eventually I'll "come clean", but for now, I am starting this journey and I am going to succeed this time!:banana:
goals for this week:
Log all of my food and keep track of calories
Exercise 1/2 hour a day
Keep up to date on journaling
Why is this so hard????
I have such great intentions in the morning. I woke up Wed and Thurs and exercised right away. Today I had to be at work super early, and didn't exercise tonight.
Well, I am desperate to find that "thing" to motivate me to get back to the journey of losing weight. I almost died last August, and still haven't figured it out yet. I weigh more now than I ever have. You would think that being so close to death would have shaken me to get motivated. It scared me alright, but the only way I knew how to deal with the scare is to eat the stress away.
I think what holds me back is that I have over 1/2 my body weight to loose, and I see how LONG this is going to take. In my head I make the excuse that one more day won't really matter. I can have one more "last hurrah" with the foods that I crave. But each day runs into the next and then a week, a month, a year have gone by and I am still miserable.
Day 1, 364 to go.
June 5th, 2011
OK, I have been inspired by a few ladies.
I have been reading the Amazing Adventures of Diet Girl. She is so funny, and her story is heartwarming and inspiring. She had a lot to loose like me and she did it. It took a long time, but she did it!
I happened to be clicking through the TVguide and came across the movie Julie and Julia. Something she said in there while she was talking on the phone to her mom in the beginning inspired me to focus on 1 year. I don't remember exactly what she said, but it really inspired me to do something every day for a year to help myself get healthy.
and finally a lady right here on WISH inspired me. From her user name she is BernardandMissBianca ( I think I saw her name is Buffy) She posted an inspriational quote yesterday and it really seemed to touch my soul.
you don't have to be great to start,
but you have to start to be great
Between these 3 ladies I really got inspired and saw a vision for myself. 1 year... 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days... OOOPS, actually it is 366 because it is leap year next year! So I get an extra day to get healthy!:banana:
I need a start, I know I can be great at weight loss, I just need to actually do it, and prove myself!
So, for today I really wanted to work on breaking my addiction to fast food. So for today we didn't have any fast food meals. THAT is an accomplishment itself.
I also went for a long walk outside up and down hills, and I made the commitment to not snack after dinner.
So far so good for day 1!!!!!:woohoo:
In the afternoon we went out for a walk in the local park, we also went to the batting cages, hit some golf balls and went for one round in the goKarts. I was so scared it wouldn't work for me, but I took a chance and was able to ride.
I'm tired of being scared and not living life to the fullest. I am so excited about this year long journey! As I stepped off for my walk, I thought of the saying that A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step... I am really looking forward to that journey and took that one step today!
I'm doing pretty good!
Last night I did have some chips before I went to bed, but didn't have a freak out. I just kept the portion smaller and planned to not have the sausage at breakfast.
skipped chocolate when visiting my managers office
skipped putting butter on my potato at lunch
drank twice as much water at work as I normally do
avoided eating any meal at a fast food place
plan on exercising on my stairmaster and going for a long walk
plan on logging all of my food
I like just focusing on the little accomplishments I am doing each day, helps me to keep positive and focused.
I am still doing good! I'm on a roll:thumbsup2
We bought a new scale today. the old one is broken. So it may have been reading error just because it was broken, because it won't work for DH either.
I gave in and bought a dial scale, I do prefer the digital, but I guess this will do. I did feel good today, I worked out and then when we were getting the scale, I felt a bit down. there were 2 little girls in the store, and one was pointing to my tummy. :sad2: She was doing it very covertly, I just happened to look at the wrong time. It made me very sad. Children are brutally honest, and that was hard for me to see. I had to reinforce to myself to just keep going, and that since I am on day 3, and doing well, this will get better and those things won't happen when I am smaller, it is just hard in the meantime.
Yesterday I did exercise on the stairmaster, and took a very long walk up and down some hills. I didn't get my foods logged, I forgot about it when I went to bed.:blush:
Today I didn't have butter on my potato at lunch.
I ate a small bag of chips and even though a big bag was right next to me on the couch, I didn't have ANY!!!! that is a big accomplishment!:yay:
I worked out 1/2 hour on my Wii just dance game. LOVE that exercise
So, all in all still doing really well!!!!
Your goals for the week are DEFINITELY do-able! Nice way to start!
I'll try to keep up with your journal, but no promises! How is today going?.......P
I am doing so good! I exercised before work, didn't have chips or fast-food. We have really strong thunderstorm coming through and I need to go, just had to pop in because I am so committed to doing this for a year.
pjlla Thanks so much for your words of support! It means a lot to me!
Last night we had a GREAT thunderstorm. I LOVE thunderstorms!:love: It was one of my favorites because DS and I sat out on the porch watching the thunder and lightning roll in. Very little rain with it, so we could just watch the beautiful show. We talked about stuff going on in his life, and it was really great! Very relaxing and loved sharing that with him.
Today still doing well. Didn't snack after dinner and went for a walk with DH. I have also been drinking my water. I have a goal to drink at least 2 waterbottles at work each shift and I am doing that very well too.
I feel very happy with doing so well. Gearing up for my first weekend, I will have to stay strong.
day 6 End of school year tradition
I'm really loving this journal. I like doing it day by day. Just focusing on healthy choices and not "deprivation" seems to be working for me.
Today was interesting... I was working and didn't get my lunch till 4:15 pm! ( we usually eat dinner early, by about 4:30 - 4:45, so this was like skipping lunch and going right to dinner). I was so hungry and tired by the time I ate lunch, but perked up a bit after that. I ended up working almost 2 hours over my shift. by the time I got home it was 7:30 pm. In the past I would have EASILY just driven right over to Mcdonalds and had my dinner then, but I DIDN'T!!!!!!!:banana: I am so proud of myself!:thumbsup2
We have a tradition in our house. On the first day of school we have fresh baked cookies and milk to talk over the happenings of the first day of school, and on the last day of school we have our own build your own ice cream sundae party. So we made our sundaes, I had lots of fresh strawberries and bananas on mine. I also had the naughty chocolate syrup, and a few pecans. It was sooo good!:goodvibes:love: It ended up being my dinner. It wasn't the healthiest choice, meaning, I should have had something more substantial, but it was far better than having McDonalds and THEN having the sundae.
And then DH and I went for a long walk. Today was a great day!
Oh, and BTW it is my and DH's 27 year dating anniversary!:lovestruc I know it is silly, but we do celebrate it. We were highschool sweethearts, and the tradition just stuck for us to keep celebrating our dating anniversary.
day 7 Breakfast on the Farm. Some good and bad today
I've done this for one week!:banana: I feel very proud of myself! I know that I am working toward a lifelong lifestyle change, so don't take this the wrong way, but I have made it for 1 week and I have 51 to go! I haven't been able to make it for 1 full day in a long time, so to go for a week is pretty great.
Today I did have some down moments....
We went to breakfast on the farm, which is a local dairy farm hosts a breakfast and you can tour the farm. Well, as you can imagine it is pretty popular and they pack in the people. They directed us to a spot way down a row between tables. there was little room between the chairs that people were already sitting in. In a couple of spots it was just a couple of inches. I had no idea how I was going to make it down, and unfortunately I was more like a bull in a china shop and forced my way, bumping into people along the way. :sad2:
the next bad spot was in the milking parlor. There is a spot that we had to squeeze through, and I had to really, really squeeze through it. It is made narrow so the cows don't come through that spot. I have no idea how I made it through there, I sucked it in and just jammed my body through, my back and butt were a little sore after that.:sad1:
On the good side...
I didn't like the eggs they had, and instead of just eating them, I decided I wasn't eating the calories just because it was on my plate. And I skipped the free samples of ice cream.
AND they had 2 calves that were just born that morning, and I got to witness the first one stand up for the first time. It was truly amazing to see.
Other things... a mix of good and bad
We had Olive Garden for lunch and I didn't eat all of what was on my plate. At the Mall we went to in the past I would have bought something sweet like cinnabon, but I passed on that.
We did have McDonalds for dinner, and I had a smaller sandwhich than what I would have had in the past. I am pleased that I made it 1 week without McDonalds, and know that I can increase the time frame in between. Considering that I was eating there daily, this is a victory.
At night DH and I watched Extreme makeover weight loss edition and it was great to see the transformation, and see what a year of hard work can do. It helped reinforce that I am on the right path. I am really looking forward to seeing what I can accomplish in this year.
DH and I then went for another long walk. Nice way to end the day.
It sounds like you are off to a great start! Old habits are so hard to break and by making small changes gradually rather than a big change all at once, you are more likely to make that lifestyle change that will stick with you.
Good for you! :thumbsup2
You are doing amazing! You are making good choices! You will have days that are better than others, but you keep going one moment at a time. You are an inspiration!
Keep up the good work!! :cool1:
Day 8, starting week 2, Geocaching and "fantasizing"
So... onto day 8, week 2
FIRST, the results of week 1...... DRUMROLL please:rockband:
I LOST 5#!!!!! I AM SOOOO HAPPY!:banana:
Weekends are going to be tough I see! again some good and bad choices. We had a sensible lunch with 2 different sets of veggies and 1 fruit. Wow, that is impressive for me. Then we went geocaching. LOVE doing this. We only did 2 today. the hunt is so thrilling. After we found the second one, we walked in the park along the trail, it was great to get out.
We are going out west this summer and getting out and walking in terrain other than the sidewalks is very helpful to get ready for our adventurous vacation.
After lunch was the bad... I had chips, and chocolate chips:rolleyes1 I didn't go overboard. then came to the DIS and found myself on the DCL trip reports forum. I found a thread with lots of pictures of the DREAM and got me to FANTASIZING about our vacation on the FANTASY next year. That reinspired me and off to exercising I went. Spent 30 minutes on the stairmaster (up from my usual 20) and then I went for a walk. That felt good.
We went out for pizza dinner, the pizza was gross so I chose not to eat it. and decided to get dropped off on the way home and walk most of it home.
The bad part was that I was hungry then, and had ice cream while watching a movie.
So a balancing act of good and bad.
I plan to set my alarm early so I can get a workout in the morning. If I write it here, I am more likely to actually get up! LOL.
See ya tomorrow
Great job so far! Keep it up!
Glad to see you are still going strong!......................P
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