Thanks ETHANSMOMMA & Mom2M07
Sorry Maddie has had bone marrow suppresion too, and has had to deal with the neutropenic restrictions.
Last weekend Angel was catching up on some of the PTRs, and was showing me shirts that Amy, Dana, & Melissa had recently made (even though I'd already seen them myself
). I've thought about trying to make or buy her something special, but our printer ink is expensive & I wasn't sure how much a decal would use; and etsy prices are reasonable compared to store prices, but we very seldom buy clothes that aren't on clearance or from yard sales. I started to explain this to her, but I didn't have to, she said she knew, and she was very happy that Melissa made her the wish kid shirt.
It still bothered me & DH.
A couple of days later, I was drawing some pictures on packages to mail, and I realized that I could probably paint designs like that on a couple of shirts for her. I told her I couldn't promise anything, cause I needed to price materials, and figure out how to transfer my drawing to the shirt, but I was excited, and so was she.
She picked 2 designs, one for the cruise, and one for wdw. I had already drawn the cruise ship to use for our FE. We had seen the other design in one of the older PTRs, but I couldn't find it. I posted on the Disboutiquers thread, and they knew exactly what I was looking for.
Thurs. night I sat down to draw it, because we were going to town Sat. & I could get the paint, etc. (since we're so far from town, I only go in about once a month to get groceries for the whole month, and DH picks up stuff like bread & milk after work). I haven't drawn much in years, but I drew the pictures on the packages very easily, which is the only reason I had the idea to draw the shirts. The design for her shirt didn't happen easily at all, and after much erasing & re-attempts, I was in tears when DH got home, because I wanted so much to be able to do this for her. I decided to wait & try again the next day.
Friday's attempts didn't go any better, and I was very down & frustrated. I needed a break from trying, so got on the DIS, and found a PM from billwendy that said that the Big Give ladies would like to send some pixie dust to Angel, if I thought that she would like that.
I can't describe how I felt when I read that, and how much of a blessing it is to our family. One of the hardest parts of the past year was seeing how lonely Angel was in isolation, and I would literally plead that people would contact her in any way - even a "poke" on FB would cheer her up, and yet there was seldom any response to my pleas. To have a group of people that don't even "know" her, want to send her something, it means more than I can say, and I knew that it would make Angel extremely happy.
We were very excited to be able to start contributing in a small way towards the gives in Dec., so I knew that the group was already working on other gives, so to have them take time to send Angel pixie dust meant even more to me. I could barely reply to Wendy's PM, because I was crying so much.
I was in a much better mood, and determined to get my drawing right so that I could buy the materials the next day. Nope, it just wasn't working at all. I took another break, and found another message from Wendy, asking some questions. As I read it, I was flooded with emotions again, because I was already overwhelmed knowing they would be sending pixie dust, and now I was realizing that I had misunderstood, and they wanted to make her some things too.
I was so excited that I called DH, and I should have waited, because I was crying so much that he couldn't understand me, and he thought something was wrong. When he could finally understand me, he was overwhelmed with gratitude too, and also pointed out to me that this is probably why my plans to make Angel's shirts weren't working out - God had a much better plan.
I have been bursting
to share the news of this amazing blessing for a whole week, and felt bad that my posts over the weekend were so negative, when we had this amazing blessing that was counter balancing every thing else. A package & a card arrived today.
We live in a tiny town & don't have home mail delivery, so DH usually just gets the mail on the way home from work. Last night there was a yellow card, meaning that we have a package, so I went up to get it today. DH calls me every day on his lunch break
, and the first thing he asked today was if the package was from the Big Give.
We've had to make a lot of changes to the way to we do things since Angel's diagnosis (many of which are complicated & time consuming), and one change is that we open packages in the garage, because it's amazing how dirty they usually are, and we try to keep the house as clean as possible. I wanted Angel to be able to "open" the Big Give packages though, so I opened the box in the garage, and put the contents in a storage container for her. I picked up the mail at 11:30, and I'm as bad as Trevor's sisters
, anxiously waiting for Angel to get home from school so that I can see what she got.
This post took a long time to type, mainly because I keep crying through it
, and it's just about time for her to get home.
Will be back later with pics.