13.1 Before I Hit 40 - Running my 1st 1/2 Marathon at Disney uptd 09/30

[aprilisis]

Another possible route if you don't find a plan would be to check the County Registry of Deeds. Some of them even have plans online.
You sound so ready to go on this trip. I feel like a slacker!!! I haven't gotten anything done yet. You have inspired me to shop for some shorts right now, though.

 

[If U Had Wings]

Another possible route if you don't find a plan would be to check the County Registry of Deeds. Some of them even have plans online.
You sound so ready to go on this trip. I feel like a slacker!!! I haven't gotten anything done yet. You have inspired me to shop for some shorts right now, though.

I haven't heard anything back from the bank, so I need to give them a call and see if what they got is what was needed. I'm hoping so.

LOL! I certainly don't feel ready. The shorts I only knew I needed, because nothing is fitting right this summer. Luckily I don't really get to wear casual wear all that often so it wasn't much of an issue over the summer. The trip is coming up fast though.

 

[If U Had Wings]

I had a quick question for my female readers. Have any of you ever worn a sundress of any kind around the parks, and if you did where you comfortable or where you wishing you hadn't?

One little secret about me. I hate wearing pants. Hate it. I don't know if it is my shape or what, but I seldom find pants or jeans that fit right. I grudgingly put on pants when I start risking hypothermia standing on the train platform, and switch back to skirts as soon as the weather becomes remotely warm. I can tolerate capris and shorts a bit, but am still always most comfortable wearing skirts.

I was going through my clothing trying to figure out what I want to pack, and am tempted to bring a sundress or two. For ride intesive places like the MK I'd stick with shorts. (I don't want to be giving anyone a show climbing out of Space Mountain). I was thinking that at Epcot a sundress would be a nice option. Has anyone done this?

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

I had a quick question for my female readers. Have any of you ever worn a sundress of any kind around the parks, and if you did where you comfortable or where you wishing you hadn't?

I'll let you know in...about 17 days. LOL!

I'm bringing a dress with me. It's LOOOOOOONG and pretty and a very light material. Also, a tube top. Hmmm...maybe I can find a pic...

Sorry so tiny. It's the only one I could find.

I actually have it in another print too and am wearing it today!

Anywho, I have a pair of stretchy shorts to wear underneath to limit the "friction factor". I also wore a dress with KittyKat and with BF when we had our dinners at CG...but then again that's just dinner. No real touring unless you count looking around the GF and CR or DTD.

I have a dress for that meal this year too.

It's funny, I'm just the opposite of you. I'd rather be in jeans or capris any day! And that's what the majority of my trip wardrobe is, with cute tops.

 

[If U Had Wings]

I'm thinking I may try it one day, with a pair of bike shorts underneath if needed. As long as I don't have to climb in and out of too many rides I should be fine. Come to think of it I did fine when I wore my Belle dress at MNSSHP so I should be fine.

 

[If U Had Wings]

I came to a horrible realization this weekend.

I'm not really looking forward to this trip at all. Not one little bit. Even typing that out makes me feel a bit sad, but it doesn't change my feelings. I should be excited,even a little bit, but I'm not. I'm dreading the half marathon too, and if the money I paid for it wasn't non-refundable, honestly I'd skip it. I really did nothing but sleep all weekend, and when I was awake, I was just thinking of going back to bed. I keep grasping at things I hope will put me in the mood for this trip, but so far it's not working. I received my ME stuff last week, and even that didn't put me in the mood.

I think alot of it has to to with some financial issues I've been having. Things have been snowballing for me since I lost my part time job earlier this year and it's hitting a high point. I was hoping that I'd have a resolution with the loan I applied for, but the bank is driving me crazy with their need for a site and survey plan for my condo. I finally tracked this down with the planning and zoning department of my town, but they don't have digital copies of this stuff and these surveys are large map size documents. I called the bank to get a mailing address, and they insist it has to be e-mailed or faxed and told me I'd have to copy this stuff in pieces and then fax it. Seriously?

My condo board was a bit baffled as to why they need this as I've provided proof that we are insured per FEMA requirements. I'm just frustrated. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to pull the loan application today and just try with another bank. (Probably the one I have my mortgage with). It's just not worth this nonsense. I just don't really have the time-off available from work to take a day off to go photocopying pieces of maps. The problem is that it won't be done before I leave now.

I'm sorry to be posting such a negative post, but it's honestly what I'm feeling right now. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed and doing my best to be as postive as I can for the trip.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

Honey, you feel however you need to feel and don't apologize for anything. It's tough to see the bright side when you're in the thick of it. (Don't I know that!)

As circuitous as things are, they'll work out.

 

[aprilisis]

That really stinks about the bank. That also stinks that the Town you work for doesn't have all of the large plans in digital format. Things will get better. Maybe you will get more into the Disney mood when you actually get there. We're all here for you if you need us!

 

[skier_pete]

Oy...I feel for you...and I agree 100% with Tinkerbellarella. (can I call her Tink for short?) Let it all out, we are all here for you...no criticism from your friends on the DIS.

I guess I look at it as you might be feeling the financial crunch, and it makes you feel like you shouldn't be going...but you've put the money out now and the losses to cancel are too great...I think (or hope) once you get there, you can put away your financial issues (and any other issues) aside and really have a good time. Even if you find you aren't in a Disney mood, perhaps you can take some downtime and hang by the hotel. I know your staying with your BFF...but just be insistant with her. I you want it, tell her you need a day (or two) to yourself. She may try to convince you otherwise...but don't give in. It sounds to me like you need a little R-E-L-A-X, and it's sometimes hard to give in to that at Disney when there's so much to do.

Keeping you in my thoughts leading up to your trip...I'm again sorry we are just missing eachother...would give you a hug in person! But instead....

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

I agree 100% with Tinkerbellarella. (can I call her Tink for short?)

Even if you find you aren't in a Disney mood, perhaps you can take some downtime and hang by the hotel. I know your staying with your BFF...but just be insistant with her. I you want it, tell her you need a day (or two) to yourself. She may try to convince you otherwise...but don't give in. It sounds to me like you need a little R-E-L-A-X, and it's sometimes hard to give in to that at Disney when there's so much to do.

^ He's a smart guy. I agree.

 

[MRYPPNS]

Wings-
Please stop feeling bad about the money you spent for the race and just don't run the thing if you don't want to. Chalk it up to experience and move on from it. I have a feeling that if you just decide NOW that you won't do the race your outlook on the whole vacation will improve with that weight off your shoulders. I think your dread of the race is over shadowing the rest of the vacation. Please give yourself the permission to not do the race....it's not a waste of money if it's making you miserable. And truthfully I don't really think it's the money that's keeping you tied to this race because you were still thinking of purchasing that retro bathing suit...I think it goes deeper than that. We all want you to have a relaxing and enJOYable vacation!!!
PM me or call me if you need to chat

 

[TarzansKat]

Ditto what Tink said. My therapist is always reminding me that it's okay to feel what I feel and I don't have to apologize for my feelings. Easier said than done to a people pleasing balance seeking Libra like myself.

Big , hon. Hopefully you'll find a lending institution that's easier to deal with.

 

[If U Had Wings]

Honey, you feel however you need to feel and don't apologize for anything. It's tough to see the bright side when you're in the thick of it. (Don't I know that!)

As circuitous as things are, they'll work out.

Thanks Tink. The timing of this trip just isn't falling right. I so don't want a repeat of how I felt on my last trip. The money issues, along with the pressures of the race are just getting to me.

I've been trying to sort through things today, and I'm telling myself that if I fail at the 1/2 it's okay. I've had enough issues on my mind this year, and there are more important things I need to worry about first. I'll be doing my best at any rate.

That really stinks about the bank. That also stinks that the Town you work for doesn't have all of the large plans in digital format. Things will get better. Maybe you will get more into the Disney mood when you actually get there. We're all here for you if you need us!

I hope I get in the Disney mood when I get there. Right now I'm just not feeling it. I actually called and cancelled my loan application today, and feel oddly at peace with it. I put in a new application with the bank I have my mortgage with. Hopefully they won't put me through the same nonsense since they already gave me a mortgage on the property.

Oy...I feel for you...and I agree 100% with Tinkerbellarella. (can I call her Tink for short?) Let it all out, we are all here for you...no criticism from your friends on the DIS.

I always think of her as Tink, so I think your good to go.

I guess I look at it as you might be feeling the financial crunch, and it makes you feel like you shouldn't be going...but you've put the money out now and the losses to cancel are too great...I think (or hope) once you get there, you can put away your financial issues (and any other issues) aside and really have a good time. Even if you find you aren't in a Disney mood, perhaps you can take some downtime and hang by the hotel. I know your staying with your BFF...but just be insistant with her. I you want it, tell her you need a day (or two) to yourself. She may try to convince you otherwise...but don't give in. It sounds to me like you need a little R-E-L-A-X, and it's sometimes hard to give in to that at Disney when there's so much to do.

Keeping you in my thoughts leading up to your trip...I'm again sorry we are just missing eachother...would give you a hug in person! But instead....

Thanks Pete. I definitely need some decompressing time. Unfortunately this trip is falling just as things are getting highly stressful at home, and yes, most of it has to do with money. Believe me if I wasn't going to take a hit on the airfare and the race I would have seriously talked to my friend about cancelling. I hate thinking of going when I'm not 100% into the trip.

Right now I'm just focusing on trying to make the best of the trip I have planned.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

if I fail at the 1/2 it's okay.

It's SO not failing. It's doing the BEST you can. Whether you do one mile or 13.1 miles, makes no difference. It's all about perspective, sweets.

 

[skier_pete]

Actually, MRYPPNS may have hit something there...if you didn't have to do the race, would it be like a huge weight lifted off your shoulders?

If that's the case, then maybe not doing it is the way to go. I know you don't want to be a quitter, and I totally understand that, but if it's really making you miserable even thinking about it, then it's not just the money for the race, it's the money for the whole trip that's being wasted...throwing good money after bad and all.

We could easily be way off base here, but now Tink said I'm a smart man...I've been enboldened. (Way to go Tink!)

 

[If U Had Wings]

Wings-
Please stop feeling bad about the money you spent for the race and just don't run the thing if you don't want to. Chalk it up to experience and move on from it. I have a feeling that if you just decide NOW that you won't do the race your outlook on the whole vacation will improve with that weight off your shoulders. I think your dread of the race is over shadowing the rest of the vacation. Please give yourself the permission to not do the race....it's not a waste of money if it's making you miserable. And truthfully I don't really think it's the money that's keeping you tied to this race because you were still thinking of purchasing that retro bathing suit...I think it goes deeper than that. We all want you to have a relaxing and enJOYable vacation!!!
PM me or call me if you need to chat

It is money...and your right, the race. I feel so ripped apart by the race. I so wanted to do it. My reasons for wanting to do it in the first place were so tied to feeling like a failure for so long. I didn't expect to spend most of this year battling a case of depression. Feeling like I'm going to fail at the race isn't exactly helping. I'm still going to do it. I need to for my self. Win or lose I need to make the effort at whatever level I can. Money issues are just adding to everything.

Ditto what Tink said. My therapist is always reminding me that it's okay to feel what I feel and I don't have to apologize for my feelings. Easier said than done to a people pleasing balance seeking Libra like myself.

Big , hon. Hopefully you'll find a lending institution that's easier to deal with.

I definitely understand about the Libra thing. I'm the same way. I'm always the one trying to keep the balance in everything.

The new bank called me back within an hour. I'm taking that as a good sign. Once things are settled, I'm moving my regular banking account from that other bank. They annoyed me way too much.

 

[If U Had Wings]

It's SO not failing. It's doing the BEST you can. Whether you do one mile or 13.1 miles, makes no difference. It's all about perspective, sweets.

It's the time limit weighing over my head. I feel confident that I could do 13 miles. I'm just not confident in my ability to do it in less than 16 min. miles. It's driving me nuts.

Actually, MRYPPNS may have hit something there...if you didn't have to do the race, would it be like a huge weight lifted off your shoulders?

If that's the case, then maybe not doing it is the way to go. I know you don't want to be a quitter, and I totally understand that, but if it's really making you miserable even thinking about it, then it's not just the money for the race, it's the money for the whole trip that's being wasted...throwing good money after bad and all.

We could easily be way off base here, but now Tink said I'm a smart man...I've been enboldened. (Way to go Tink!)

I would feel like a weight had been lifted from me if I just didn't do it, but I need to try. I know I would feel 100xs worse if I didn't show up that night and make a honest effort. For me that would feel like failure more than anything else.

I just wish I knew what in the world snapped with me this year. I'm just trying to get my act back together.

 

[skier_pete]

I would feel like a weight had been lifted from me if I just didn't do it, but I need to try. I know I would feel 100xs worse if I didn't show up that night and make a honest effort. For me that would feel like failure more than anything else.

I just wish I knew what in the world snapped with me this year. I'm just trying to get my act back together.

OK, I'm with you on that...I totally understand the feeling. Just know that I and a lot of your friends here know it takes a lot of guts just to start a race like that. (I don't think I could do it.) Don't stress it, give it what you got...finish or not. We'll be rooting for you from afar.
(Emoticon that looks most like me - notice the bald head and glasses.)

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

I'm still going to do it. I need to for my self. Win or lose I need to make the effort at whatever level I can.

I think that's a great attitude. Maybe if you refocus on that it'll help the intimidating feeling you're getting from the race. Maybe look at it this way - commit to yourself to finish, say, a certain number of miles successfully. Anything after that is a bonus!

It's the time limit weighing over my head. I feel confident that I could do 13 miles. I'm just not confident in my ability to do it in less than 16 min. miles. It's driving me nuts.

Every once in a while this creeps up on me and gives m BIG TIME anxiety too. I SO hear you. I've been doing some longer walks (7 mi. this Saturday coming) but I don't push my pace, I just focus on the distance...which means I average just under a 20 min. mile. Not good considering the race pace requirements. But, I figure I'll focus on that in the next section of my training where I actually start some running.

You'll be fine, honey. If you can wrap your head around letting it all go and just having fun and doing the best you can, I think a big part of the 'letdown' you're feeling about this trip will disappear. I do know, however, how hard that is to do.

 

[Flossbolna]

I am so sorry that you aren't looking forward to the trip!

Have you thought about switching to the 5k race? It is not a half marathon, but it is a race and perhaps you can transfer your place? I did this in 2009 with a 10k I signed up for and ran the 5k instead because I got scared. At first I was feeling bad about it, but then I really enjoyed running a race that I knew I could be comfortable with. And I agree with everyone else: if the race is just this huge stone around your neck, just get rid of it, whatever the financial consequences are!!