fizz13
<font color=33cc99>Dreams about being stuck on Spa
- Joined
- May 6, 2004
I have made an irresponsible, spontaneous, desperate, absolutely vital not frivolous decision that I am returning to Disney World this summer, end of!! i have had some pretty down times in the last few years, had my heart broken, gone through a divorce, nearly lost everything, been very broke, but all of that i have taken in my stride, i am one of life's survivors, bouncy people, who will always see the good in all, who has a nieve disney bubble approach to life and where fairytales and happy endings can still happen. Finally last week I cracked. and no i havent had a mental breakdown
but i have had a couple of things happen in my personal life which were sort of the straw that broke the camels back, my bubble burst so to speak. I dont want to go into details, a few of you do know, and yes i have been struggling to function. I am sure all of us reach a point where we sort of lose our way and feel like we are just going through the motions, just trying to get through the day. and thats sort of where i am now. and this is most definitely NOT where i want to stay.
i have 3 beautiful gorgeous children, my very precious gifts and they deserve to have the best mummy they can, who gives 100% to them every day. i have friends who sometimes i feel give so much more than i give back, I know i can do it, I know I am in there, i just need to find my way back!
and this is where this trip has come from really. I have had a week booked off from the children since last year. their father unfortunately sees them as a road bump to his freedom and while some men are desperate to devote as much free time as they can to thier children, my ex would rather wriggle out of it each time, he knows not the damage he does and i fear it will come back to bite him one day but anyway.....no he is not having the children, his parents are. nanny and grandad asked last summer if they would be able to take the children camping. 3 weeks ago they asked if they could extend this to 9 days, so to have the week running across two weekends. It will be two years in august that I last had this opportunity. August 2007 became the summer of the Girly Tour, some of you may remember
so i have been given the dates of August 22nd to August 29th.
Now i am not going to lie, my bank balance is not very healthy. I have just about crawled my way back, i am very nearly making all bill payments on time, we have food, we have days out, its not great but its been a lot worse. and realistically i was anticipating maybe a week in spain, my boyfriend wanted greece, not a disney fan, out of budget etc (well he was my boyfriend at the time). Then the rug was pulled out from under me, certain events have occured, me and boyfriend split up (my decision, for very good reasons, cant believe someone i love so much could do what they did) and i was suddenly on my own, have 9 days to fill, and the first day is actually my birthday!!
I am not a girly girl really, I did a girls holdiay a few years ago and it was hell on earth for me, i dont need to fake tan, i dont need to pluck, i can be ready in half an hour from shower to door with makeup and hair done, so didnt fancy that one. i am an independant person most of the time and am happy to holiday alone, my schedule, no compromising, sounds good to me. but when all this happened, its like i lost my spirit, lost my way, i really needed something to look forward to. And that for me is Disney World. So when i say i need this trip, i am not exagerrating, this isnt a wanting whim, it is the only place in the world where i feel happy from morning to night, where everything feels right, where my bounce and spirit comes back, so yes Fizz is going to get her Fizz back, and come what may i am going back to my happy place.
will post more details later, off to pick up child no3!
oh and i promise to be a lot more cheerful from now on, i am a smiley friendly person honestly
but i have had a couple of things happen in my personal life which were sort of the straw that broke the camels back, my bubble burst so to speak. I dont want to go into details, a few of you do know, and yes i have been struggling to function. I am sure all of us reach a point where we sort of lose our way and feel like we are just going through the motions, just trying to get through the day. and thats sort of where i am now. and this is most definitely NOT where i want to stay.i have 3 beautiful gorgeous children, my very precious gifts and they deserve to have the best mummy they can, who gives 100% to them every day. i have friends who sometimes i feel give so much more than i give back, I know i can do it, I know I am in there, i just need to find my way back!
and this is where this trip has come from really. I have had a week booked off from the children since last year. their father unfortunately sees them as a road bump to his freedom and while some men are desperate to devote as much free time as they can to thier children, my ex would rather wriggle out of it each time, he knows not the damage he does and i fear it will come back to bite him one day but anyway.....no he is not having the children, his parents are. nanny and grandad asked last summer if they would be able to take the children camping. 3 weeks ago they asked if they could extend this to 9 days, so to have the week running across two weekends. It will be two years in august that I last had this opportunity. August 2007 became the summer of the Girly Tour, some of you may remember
so i have been given the dates of August 22nd to August 29th.Now i am not going to lie, my bank balance is not very healthy. I have just about crawled my way back, i am very nearly making all bill payments on time, we have food, we have days out, its not great but its been a lot worse. and realistically i was anticipating maybe a week in spain, my boyfriend wanted greece, not a disney fan, out of budget etc (well he was my boyfriend at the time). Then the rug was pulled out from under me, certain events have occured, me and boyfriend split up (my decision, for very good reasons, cant believe someone i love so much could do what they did) and i was suddenly on my own, have 9 days to fill, and the first day is actually my birthday!!
I am not a girly girl really, I did a girls holdiay a few years ago and it was hell on earth for me, i dont need to fake tan, i dont need to pluck, i can be ready in half an hour from shower to door with makeup and hair done, so didnt fancy that one. i am an independant person most of the time and am happy to holiday alone, my schedule, no compromising, sounds good to me. but when all this happened, its like i lost my spirit, lost my way, i really needed something to look forward to. And that for me is Disney World. So when i say i need this trip, i am not exagerrating, this isnt a wanting whim, it is the only place in the world where i feel happy from morning to night, where everything feels right, where my bounce and spirit comes back, so yes Fizz is going to get her Fizz back, and come what may i am going back to my happy place.
will post more details later, off to pick up child no3!
oh and i promise to be a lot more cheerful from now on, i am a smiley friendly person honestly
trust me gathering the money will be a work in progress right to the last minute
easy peasy right?
well no brainer I am staying at a value and Pop is way more appealing to me than All Stars. i stayed at ASMo in Dec 07, it was fine, the kids loved it, no complaints, would stay there again, but i am on a mission to stay at every hotel on property, nope its not enough to just visit, i literally want to have done it all. so far i have been very lucky and stayed at Polynesian (paradise on earth
), Coronado Springs (very nice, lovely themeing), POFQ (so pretty, nice and small, loved it), ASMo and Wilderness Lodge at xmas time..dont think I need to add to that one, perfect!
) and i think it clicked.
